Just a few thoughts really,
Ive actually changed my mind a little bit. Ive decided that im going to stop defending myself to people such as 'hurting girl' because ultimately thats what it appears im am doing, and i do mean 'appears'. I was born with feelings for women in a sexual way. this is undeniable. i cant prove to you that this is true, but im sure if you search your feelings for men, it wasnt something socially conditioned into you, it was something you have naturally felt throughout your life, and as someone else said on this board, what makes you think gay people chose to feel that way towards people of the same sex, when it wasnt a choice for you? Secondly, i suppose i did make a choice. I chose in my late twenties to act upon the feelings i had for women (as most do for whoever they have feelings for). I could have (as some unfortunately feel they need to) chosen not to sleep with women, not to have a relationship with a woman, just as straight people could chose celibacy (spelling!). Despite whether i sleep with a woman though or not, these feelings would still be there and i would think about it daily because IT IS A PART OF WHO I AM, BODY AND SOUL. why shouldnt i feel this way about people of the same sex, i mean really after all it just comes down to that....sex!....why do we put so much emphasis on sex in the first place and why is it anyone else's business what people do in bed? It starts at 13 for teenagers, male female gay straight......you will meet someone, you will sleep with them, pregnancy....std's, rape...etc. Its all sex sex bloody sex. who cares at the end of the day who does what to whom and where if it doesnt effect/hurt anybody else?.....i just have one question to hurting girl....if what im doing is 'evil' and its not gods way....wat the hell do you care? its not like im asking you to join in...
I would (personally) much rather you just stayed away from my life then if you have that much of a problem with it, and go live your own life, have your own sex without wondering so much what it is im doing in my bedroom> get a life!
As for marriage, who cares if i marry another woman. Does it effect you? If if god is so against it as you think he will judge me on my day.....why on gods green earth does it effect anything you do? Would you be affected if you saw me walking down the street holding my girlfriends hand? No. Would it hurt you? No.
I would simply say, go out, live your own life, make your own decisions about who you are and then, having met a variety of people, gay straight black white diabled whatever....come back to me then and have a decent grown up conversation because right now, to me, you are some kid sitting in their bible study class being taught things which you are sponging up without a serious individual thought provoked idea in your head.
Gem
