I am a recovering cocaine and crack addict. Although I have never used heroin, I know what it's like to be swept up into addiction. When I got out of highschool I met a drug dealer, and that's when all of my troubles started. I met him in early 2004 and ended up hooked on cocaine and crack at the end of that year. I was in very scary situations. We had stangers over at our apartment, I was left alone with a stranger and almost raped. I think the only thing that saved me from being raped that night was the fact that I brought up this man's mother. I said, "What would your mother think of what you're doing?" He stopped touching me and we waited for my boyfriend to return with the drugs. We pawned everything to survive. We never ate and barely ever took showers. When you're hooked on drugs like this you don't care about yourself or anyone around you. All you want is a hit. All you want to do is feel the magic of being high.
I had a job at that point, and every one there was so worried about me. My co-workers would bring me food and make sure to pay for any drinks I wanted. They really helped me out, and I can't thank them enough for that. After highschool I weighed about 240lbs. and after the drugs I dropped down to 140lbs. I had lost 100lbs. in a year. I was so sick. My dad said I looked green... that was really sad. I had to face my parents, and that was hard. Now, I never stole from them, I wouldn't. No matter how hard things got, no matter how hungry I was, I refused to steal from anyone. Even though I was an addict, I still had my heart and my morals. I wouldn't let anyone suffer from my drug addiction, but people suffered anyways.
My mother, bless her heart, called me at work one day and tried to give me the number to shelters in the area. She wanted me to get help, but I refused to leave my controlling boyfriend. She was so hurt, and even tried to come to the apartment. Just to get me to come home, to talk to me about her expieriances. I wouldn't listen. I was ashamed. I couldn't face her. She was screaming for me, and I wouldn't say a word to her. I couldn't.
Drugs are horrible, and thank god I left that boyfriend. I met the love of my life, Ebon, at my job. He took me into his home, and told me I didn't have to be his girlfriend or his friend, he just wanted me to be safe. I fell in love with him, and he helped me through everything. I still dream about the drugs. I wake up crying sometimes because I have it in my hands. In my dreams I have it in my hands! I'm just about to smoke some crack and I wake up. I cry and cry and Ebon is there to hold me and remind me of the children and the family I want someday. You can't achive anything when you're high. The only place you can go is down. It's just a downward spiral.
To my surprise, having Ebon helped me quit cold turkey. I never got help for my addiction, just love, unconditional love. I still want it sometimes, but I tell myself that I'll lose everything again. I can't go through that again.
These girls are so strong for even coming on to the show. It takes a lot of strength to pick yourself up and even admit you have a problem. I admire them for their strength. And they have eachother. These sisters have eachother to lean on. There mother is there for them, and I'm sure their dad will come along once they've shaped up a bit. I hope for the best. They deserve a second chance. You don't really see what you have once it's gone. She was alone on those streets, with out her sister, with out her mother. It takes a brave person to be alone, and it takes a strong drug to keep you there.
I guess I just wanted to share my story because it's important to me. It changed my life, and hopefully their expieriances will change their lives. I just hope they don't give up. They inspire me to leave the drugs alone. I'm happy to say I'm clean, and I can't wait for them to be happy again.
Sarah and Tecoa are 25-year-old twin sisters who had a normal childhood until their mom and stepfather divorced, and their world changed forever. Sarah and Tecoa say to fill the void, they turned to drugs and sex. Now, Sarah lives minute to minute on the streets, consumed with her quest for heroin and crack cocaine, and selling her body to pay for her drugs. Tecoa is currently clean, but not by choice. She’s been in jail, unable to do anything but think about drugs. She’s also six months pregnant. Joani, a former Dr. Phil guest and recovering addict herself, found Sarah on the streets and documented her days and nights for a month. Dr. Phil shows video footage to the twins’ mother, Cindy. How did she let her daughters’ lives get so out of control? Dr. Phil gets the twins off the street and into The Dr. Phil House to detox, and to get their lives back. With surprise visits from their past, a terrifying look into their future, and Dr. Phil helping them through it all, will Sarah and Tecoa commit to rehab and stay clean? Talk about the show here.
