I'm 45 and my husband is 47. We have been married for 27 years. A year and 1/2 ago my husband was diognosed with larynx cancer. Prior to that I knew there was something wrong with him but he wouldn't go to the doctor. His voice changed to a whisper and he had difficulty breathing. Finally when he did go to the doctor he was put into the hospital that day. Later that night he quit breathing and they had to do an emergency tracheotomy. After a week, when he stablized, they put a regular trach tube in and examined the tumor. It was too large to remove and the doctor told me that the oncologist didn't think that chemo and radiation would do much good either. He also told me that he estimated that he only had 6 months to a year to live. Even though my husband I have grown apart over the years I became depressed. My friend who is a nurse told me to see a doctor. He put me on antidepressants. My husband is on Social security disability. In Jan. of this year I was demoted from a supervisor to a line worker, partly because of my depression. I was injured at work but my employer is saying I was not. I was put on FMLA. My 12 weeks are up and now I don't have a job. I have been looking for 2 months and still have not found anything. We now have no health insurance and have about 1/5th the income we are used to. I know that God is not suppose to dish out more than a person can handle put I don't think that I can handle much more. We live on an acreage and I have 3 horses and a dog that I love dearly. I don't want to lose everything I have worked so hard to get. My husband isn't much help either because he is constantly putting me down and he won't talk to me honestly about things.
