Topic : 200 Pounds or More to Lose

Cherie and Rebecca, Your posts really spoke to me as well I have always buried my feeling stuffed them specially anger. When I was growing up I was not allowed to express anger or sadness. You couldn't even huff or be in big trouble and heaven forbid if you cry. As I have been losing my weight things have started to change and I really didn't think about it until you wrote, but even just yesterday I walked with my walker into Kroger's and there was this young man standing just inside the door he stepped in front of me and said, Hello mam would you like a family picture for only $9.99. I said not right now. I went to walk around and again he stepped in front of me and started his spiel again. I said I need to get a cart. He said you can get it in a minute. I said I'm sorry I can't stand long. My legs were starting to shake. Finally I said I need to get the electric cart I'll talk to you after and finally got around him. On the way out I was using their electric cart feeling a little irritated because the thing was running down so fast they never are charged good and I had to get my stuff to the car. This guy starts again and I think well it would be nice to have a picture of Dave and I we have not had any good pictures in a long time so I said do I have to pay today because I only had brought just enough to get what I needed. First he said yes only $9.99 I said well then I can't today I'm sorry. He said you can use your charge or a check. I said I don't have them with me. He said, What did you shop with. I said cash. I felt myself getting more angry but at myself for answering this man. He then said well just fill out this card and I'll give you a free gift certificate to hold your place. So I said OK thinking I would pay when we came for the sitting and I filled it out. As he reached for the card he said that will be $9.99. I said WHAT? I told you I DIDN'T HAVE ANY MONEY WITH ME! You have just wasted YOUR TIME AND MINE! He mumbled something I didn't quite here which was probably a good thing. I left but had to go back because I had been so mad I forgot my walker. When I got there I said do you still have the card I filled out he said yes I said please give it to me. The name of the company was on it but no phone number. I said do you have a phone number he said no of course. Then I said what is your name and he wouldn't answer. I said Your a very poor salesman and left. I went home looked up the company on line and E-mailed them. I felt much better. Before I would never have spoken up to him. Specially a man let alone write the company. I didn't eat over it I just stood up for myself. I have a ways to go, I should have spoken up sooner and not allowed him to even push me into it in the first place. This type of behavior has gotten me into big trouble with men in my past and I need to keep working on that but it is getting better. I felt the anger and I dealt with it, and expressed it in an adult way. We need to not be afraid. Don't ever feel bad about long posts you just might be helping some one else   Cindy, The writing period was for two weeks they didn't say that in the beginning. They may let me do it again if so I'll let you know and anyone else who would like to write business reviews thanks. Thank you Rebecca for offering I'll let you know.   Oh the wonderful guy I'm going on vacation with is my Son  David not my husband. I have been divorced since my boys were 2 and 5 my ex was an abusive alcoholic who died 3 years ago from liver and kidney cancer a very lonely man. I had not seen him since he left. Ten years of abuse was enough for me. The funny part is I put most of my weight on after he was out of my life. My therapist said she felt it was to protect myself. I think she was right every time I did lose weight I would end up with crazy abusive men, then gain all the weight back plus more. Now I'm losing and staying away from men. I'm happy like I am. I just need to get healthy. Men are not the answer to everything.  Well, need to go see you next week everyone I'll miss you all. Boy will I have a lot of reading to do when I get back. Don't forget the Aug. Challenge   Thanks Jan

Cherie, I don't know the technical terms, but the Message Board software is in charge when we are in the text box.  There are fewer options & different rules than when you try to do the same things in a word processing program.     After some experimentation, I find it best to write my messages in unformatted text (like using notepad) and then paste it here.

Guess who inspired today's profile picture.  :)

I got my Prevention Magazine yesterday, my first one actually-grandkids through school ordered it, and it has an article on Go ahead....GET Mad! Good article with a 30 question test to see "How Angry Are You".  Gives so examples with solutions. I just thought it was good!

 

 

Also, we know something that they have just written about.   A whole article about weight loss buddies and how you lose faster and keep the pounds off if you team up with a buddy......even a computer buddy!

 

 

But with that said, I know a lot of us had a tough month. I would like to at this time give up my measurements for the challenge......I gained five pounds and two inches! I know my train was backing up not going forward so that now puts me for the challenge at 165 and a total of 156 in inches. 

I have just the opposite problem of Cherie when it comes to sleep. I fall asleep immediately but if anything wakes me up after three oclock I have to get up......just cannot go back to sleep because once the mind starts making the lists I might as well get up! So much to do.....to lazy to do it all....it seems!

 

Rebecca, wow you have definitely mastered this site. Putting in those little pictures. I liked that!

 

Cherie, sweetie don't pressure yourself. I know how busy you are, picking up your mom, working, packing! I'm just glad that you got sleep I can't imagine you living and being functional on two hours of sleep. I only got six last night so I feel like a slug!

 

Brenda, love the train! And you are so right about lightening! It scares me, especially if I'm in the car. As a child I had a dog struck by lightening and then I can remember my grandfathers cattle always getting struck by lightening...silly things would get under a tree! One of my father's favorite punishments was to put me outside in a storm.....nice man that he was...not!

 

Mille, sometimes it helps to just put it all out in print. I often see the reality of truth when it is written.  I weighed this morning and had gained five pounds this month.  OH well, I know what I need to do to get it off and losing more...just got to get it going again!

 

Christi, glad you are back too! 

 

Jan, WOW.......I'm not much for pushy people! And this one could add rude to his resume!  I often wonder what is going on in their lives that they have to treat people like that..........no excuse for being rude or mean.  He should have helped you get a cart! I'm so glad that you are learning to take care of yourself!  You GO GIRL!

 

Megan, when I did that I wrote it in my email and then copied it over it was goobly goop........did I do something wrong or just the fluke of the day. I haven't tried it since.

 

I hope everyone has a good day. I am taking my mother on an outing and trying to do it with a postive outlook! This will be the first time I have taken her out in awhile since she had been so rude and mean! So hopefully we will have a good visit and a good time.

That would be  270 pounds and 156 inches............too early in the morning!

Good morning, all.  I took my measurements today and I went from 339 to 321.5 pounds and from 158 to 150 inches.  So that's 17.5 pounds and 8 inches.  Cool!  Thanks for playing.

 

Love,  Millie