Quote From: calligraphyWe are programed differently. I'm not sure if I'll ever get him, or him I. I know he has needs, but I'm tired of feeling compelled to please him. I wish he would appreciate what we have, the time we have together, rather than when we aren't. What is realistic? Maybe if he didn't talk to me that way I would be more interested. I'm not sure what to say anymore. I'm tired of the whole subject. We have an appt for counseling. I don't even feel like communicating w/him anymore. I have physical needs too. He's not the only one who gets horny, for lack of a better word. We haven't been together in a while now (too long because of our fighting situation), and I'm literally aching. I do get the need, but he should exercise some self control and not over indulge in fantasy. Thanks for the support!
But, in this case, what came first, the chicken or the egg?
Is he indulging in fantasy because he is lacking in his life with you? Or is he indulging in fantasy, well, like he always had? Also, you are indulging as well, by trying to figure it out. Even though your indulgence is healthy for the relationship, you are just as obsessed (for lack of better work, lol) with this and he is obsessed with sex and porn a lack thereof. Right?
Everyone has needs. Not just you and he. For the most part, sex has been advertised as entertainment, with women being the target of this entertainment. And women have not complained. He not only has physical needs, but emotional ones, and him wanting to have "sex like an animal", is more his suffering then a need. He is attached to sex. Why? Only he can figure it out. YOu have to figure out why you are attached to trying to figure out why he is attached to sex and why you feel guilty and somewhat responsibile for his attachment to sex. He is in this alone. When it comes to porn, I believe it has nothing at all to do with whetehr they find their s/o attractive or sexy, but more about wanting more and more.
I left my husband because he was like your husband, in certain ways. But it felt like the same "jab" , if you know what I mean. What good is jabbing back? It is an ego thing and does not ever create a solution. The solution in your case would be don't come at his with a co dependant approach, enabling, but also see him as a part of you, that is suffering and gently try to approach it coming from a place of compassion, not fear and anger.
Good luck if you go to therapy, but like all forms of counseling, its where we are emotionally and spiritually that will allow us to be open to change, if that is necessary. Good luck to you both. Kimi
