Topic : Self Image

i know there are peoplel here but it iis hard for them to do anything if i am not doing anything.......  i still have to be the one to make the change and i am just so exauasted.........  i have chapel this morning and then have to go to lunch and i will be back until my next class........  i will be on here for a few more minutes atleast

i'm here now

This has been quite a day.  I feel like I am wading through mud.  Oh, boy.  Well at least I got to hear some good music today.  I ran errands for the guys in the field.  We finished the corn.  I am in Illinois BTW, and this has been a bad drought.  Very sad and hard to see.  Our crop turned out O.K. but we were planning for the worst. 

Smile! 

~Sunshine~ 

oooooo goody your here!!!

Hi all, am new to this board and I am really really hoping that someone out there can help me!!! I am a very very sociable person and just love interacting with everyone and anyone, but I have a problem, which has caused me to retreat back into my shell a couple of times and even right now as I write. I have a speech problem, I stutter and stammer and at times words just get stuck in my mouth and its so so embarassing when people have to finish sentences for me, or when they simply lose interest in what I have to say.......................................coz its taking so long to come out and they just turn away and leave!!!!! imagine this, in junior highschool, highschool and part of college I was an excellent public speaker, and debater and was always in positions of leadership!!!!???So what happened.............I always ask myself and I wish I could be as articulate as I was way back then........................, anyone with a similar problem?!!!! DO HELP!!!!

 i now have a negative self image, rather than four years ago when i seemed happy enough. what happen four years ago? not sure, major life maybe? lets see i moved from my hometown to a much larger city, i broke up with a boyfriend of five years and jumped into another long term relationship which is now four years, i started changing jobs like you would clothes, which was not normal for me. i left a job i worked at for two years and after that never had one that lasted more than six months. seems like i moved here and things started going downhill, i often wanted to move back but couldnt leave my boyfriend, would things have changed if i moved back? or was it leaving a long term relationship that caused the spiral? im lost.

Making major life changes like that can cause or be caused by depression.  It sounds like you have had a great amount of change to deal with.  You know the old saying, "Everywhere you look there you are."  You probably would have dealt with the same things anywhere.  The question is not as much how you got to the point that you are at as how you are going to heal your self-image.  Best Wishes! 

Smile! 

~Sunshine~ 

hello!!!  I hope that your day is going well!! 

Are you here today? I have got lots to talk about.  Man I have been busy these past few days! 

SMILE!!! 

~Sunshine~ 

When you were in these positions of leadership, would you have mourned the loss of a person who did not see you for who you are and was too rude to listen to what you have to say?  I know that it is hard when you have a problem that makes socializing more difficult, but if someone is a good person they will care what you have to say, not about your eloquence and diction.  Although it is hard to realize at the time, in the end, these people who walk away probably were not worth having around in the first place.  My issue is with my moods.  I am rejected because my affect on people is totally inconsistent.  It hurts so bad when I am excluded, but in the end I tell myself that these are exactly the friends I want to lose (quickly).  If they don't like me for who I am, I don't like them either! 

Smile! 

~Sunshine~ 

P.S.- No matter what you are special!  You are the only you in the whole world!