Good for you to eat to go on the trip! That is really something. You are craving chocolate because your body is trying to tell you something. I can't remember which nutrient it is. I am glad that you are not getting rid of it, because your body does need calories to function well, and maybe, just maybe you can tell yourself when you really don't want to get rid of something that you ate, "I was brave enough to keep the chocolates and nothing happened, so it will be O.K. if I keep this." You were right before about the replacement messages, and you are so helpful to every person here. I think that you could be a really good example for someone here who has an eating disorder and isn't brave enough to talk about it. Or someone who is drowning and overwhelmed and feels lonely and don't know where to start. They can look at our discussions and maybe learn something. I understand why you do not tell people there about your disorder. Your (valid) fear of being sent away from school helps to keep you quiet and sick (with ED) and that is a shame. At least if you can get to the counselor you can tell someone that you are handling it just fine and your academics are not suffering so there is no reason to send you home. My disorder is actually a disability, so I can't get the boot for it.
Well, I gotta run but I will be back shortly,
~Sunshine~
