Topic : Self Image

ohhhhhh i keep trying to say something and don'e know what or how to say it.............  hurting myself feels so good but the thing is i just want to do it over and over again........  it's likei don't want to stop......  i want so bad to burn right now and i can't do it but it would feel soooooooooo good!!! 

I had to run yesterday.  My mother-in-law called, and my ex was taken over to the jail.  The whole situation is so draining, everything from my marriage was destroyed.  They expect me to jump in and save the day, now that she left him.  This is difficult for me, because I need to set boundaries or I am going to be taken advantage of big time.  I am in good spirits though.  I just needed a long nap! Hisjewel, how are you today.  It takes a great deal of courage not to self-harm when you feel the urge to, and I am very proud of you for talking about it.  It is not easy to deal with or talk about. 

Hugs and Smiles! 

~Sunshine~ 

You don't have to be sorry about things, because with him it is just much of the same.  Sorry that life is so confusing (heffalumps and woozles are very confusels!) I am confused.  You are or are not doing something?  Yesterday I did nothing.  Hooky was not feeling up to it.  Tonight I am watching the CMA's.  Sunday is the last race of the season.  I better soak up all of the racing I can get. 

didn't really get to expericne chapel.... went to use the restroom and someone followed me to ask me how i was and sme different things and said theoy had been watching me for a while...... they don't live in the dorm but yeah........ i can't tell the story now i am not aware enough to i don't think i can' gother the stuff in my head to tell you 

   We were in the process of being programed the minute we were born., maybe before?  Since getting older , I have learned that a lot of how I think about myself has come from the way others see me. I have been trying to break that way of thinking but it is very difficult. Self Image, (I believe) is one of the hardest things to break.  What we think about ourself should always be positive but unfortunately it doesn't work that way. If I have someone speak something negative to me, then the rest of the day is ruined. I should never give away my ability of the way I see myself to some one else, but I am guilty of this so many times. I try to stop and tell myself that I am as good as I think I am and keep on going. Keep your chin high and remember, your worth everything to yourself. Who knows you any better?