Topic : Addiction Support

I don't know why you crack me up so much!!!   

On the reply with quote thingie, I usually don't use it myself simply because it doesn't have an edit/delete feature, so you end up reproducing these massive posts over and over.   But it doesn't really matter because it's easy to see the new ones -- there aren't that many. 

Anyhoo...you'll be pleased to know that Mother doesn't object to the Wellbutrin :)  I do hope that they cautioned you about alcohol, however...some antidepressants (and Wellbutrin is one of them) can interact with alcohol and in many cases they suggest you avoid it entirely.   

And, of course, congrats on the court order! 

PS - Let me think about the e-mail thing.  I really don't like it (for a variety of reasons) and I usually don't have time for it but I also understand why people in smaller towns might be concerned about privacy type issues. 

hi everyone im still here....i still am on all the pain killers and the xanax i cant seem to get myself off of them....i feel so depressed and dont know what to do i need to go and talk to my doc but im scared he will just cut me off cold turkey and i dont want that to happen i know you all have given me advise before and i have taken it all in just dont know where to start or what to do i just feel like im getting worse im so depressed dont feel like doing anything more then i have to thanks joane  

Hello!  I know I need to completely stop the drinking.  I HAVE analized it to death and guess what?  It doesn't matter what I tell myself.........I AM AN ALCOHOLIC..........go figure!   

I read something that Dr. Phil said that I ended up writing down.  "Sobriety is a lifestyle.  It's changing the way you look and feel, what you breathe into your life.  It's every aspect of being different."  Hmmmmmmmmm.................completely change the way I think?  A way of thinking that is well entrenched?  YIKES!!   

What's amazing is that I know how powerful "thinking" is and have actually turned my thoughts around (regarding certain situations) to make them positive instead of negative.  WHY would a reasonably sane, VERY caring (towards others), sometimes too intelligent (other times complete dope) person drink themselves to the moon? 

I may need to give AA another shot (I can hear you already!!  :) 

Glad mother approves of the chosen happy pill!!  :)  How do you know if it's working?  Just wake up loving the world and all God's creatures? 

Have a wonderful weekend............. 

Sterling 

I know how much you are hurting but you really need to stop this madness. Just go to your Doc and tell him the truth.  Will he cut you off maybe but based on what you've said here he won't because he knows you could have a seizure in withdrawal. Maybe he can help you get into detox. Ask yourself this. Do you want to live long enough to watch your children grow up. If you keep this up you will end up like I did. On the bedroom floor in a coma. I should have died that day! For some reason I didn't ! I am convinced today that God had other plans for me and now I know what that is. To be a mother, friend,  lover and a person who helps those caught in the vicious cycle of addiction. to break free and stay free.  You need inpatient detox and you need to do whatever you have to to get there. Sell your cars! get a cheaper place to live. See if there are government beds available. Most places do have some available. I know you worry about your kids but ask yourself if in the addicted mess you are in are you really being a good mother, are you emotionally available to your kids 100% of the time?  I grew up in a house where both of my parents were drunk most of the time and it was miserable. If you think your children don't know that there is something wrong think again. When I was about 6 months sober my then 3 year old came to me one day and asked "Mommy are you all better now?" I just about burst into tears realizing what I had put him through. There comes time in every addicts life to suck it up and do what needs to be done. You must face the fact that you are powerless over your addiction and that your life is unmanageable. It's only a matter of time now before you end up dead or severely brain damaged. It's also only a matter of time before your boyfriend leaves and if you are positive for drugs in your system He'll will probably get custody of  the kids. I am very sorry if this sounds harsh but I have tried the gentle approach with you and it just doesn't work for the kind of denial you are in.  Even if I hated my parents I would call them at this point and humble myself and ask for help. Maybe they can help you financially or take care of the kids for a while. You are not going to get better with weekend detox. In fact with the kind and amount of drugs you are taking detox will take 7-14 days. Then you have to rehab. Getting the drugs out of your body is the easy part - then you have to learn to live and cope without them. That's the really hard thing! Learning to live life on life's terms is a bitch but once you get the hang of it , things really do start to get better - that I can promise you! I hope you heed this message before it's too late. 

God bless you! 

Mischif 

Stop looking for others to tell you.  You have to decide first for yourself if you want to quit.  Then find the support from support groups of others'  that have similar problems.  Once you have been clean for a while you will notice the jadedness will fade. 

Martha 

Good day all, 

Well, here goes.  I am crack, alcohol, and marajuana addict.  I have been in and out of jails, prisons, boot camp, counselling, 3 rehabilitation centers, and more.  I've attempted suicide 3 times.  I've been addicted since I was 20.  I'm now 47.  I know the 12 step program, how it works, preamble and all that goes with it. I just don't seem to get it.  Not even after the over dose I experienced this summer.  I've lost all trust from friends and family and current acquaintenances.  I'm good looking, educated, my work ethics are great and I'm a hard worker.  My problem now is that I have finally decided in my heart and mind that I WANT to quit and want the help. I can't get it.  Like long-term treatment.  I mean 9 months or more.  I want it so bad I can taste it.  There seem to be no financial resources any more.  I lost my job due to this overdose so no insurance and besides, insurance barely covers detox any more.  

I'm so tired and so frustrated at myself that I spend my days just beating myself up, looking like a total fool.  Now, almost 6 months after the overdose I have an opportunity to return to a great job and I can't because I would have to move, I have no vehicle and no other resources to get one.  What the hell do I do?  Surely there must be someone out there that can lend some support.  I would love to hear all tthat I can.  I'm open minded.  Please know that there are many underlying issues that got me this way but if I were to talk about them now I would never finish. 

Sincerely, 

Martha 

I apologize, I responded to the wrong message.  I am new to this, today as a matter of a fact.  I posted a message of my own town. 

Mart