Topic : Addiction Support

  

    Hello, is anyone on here now. I always thought these things would be like chatting, but I guess I was wrong. Well, if there is anyone on here now, please talk to me. 

hello everyone im still here....im still on the pain killers 3 different one's im on now i cant seem to stop plus i take my xanax...i have been to some open n-a meetings its nice listening to people who are just like me i just want to get off these things i have tried but i got so sick and it didnt work so now i feel like im taking more then before...i made a appt with a mental dr to see what he can do for me re detox and all i think if i can detox from them then keep going to meeting and therphy ill do ok i hope but i have faith i will.....i know this is the hardest part is getting off them....make matters worse my toddler is so sick...please pray for me thanks joanne

Sorry about the typo in the title - I can't correct it.  If this board doesn't drive me back to drinking, nothing will! 

  

The problem I'm having is that it's hard to provide answers when you aren't asking any questions.   And the answers you're providing are too vague to be useful.  I don't mean to sound witchy -- it's just that I still have no idea if you might not be going through withdrawal.  When you say you haven't taken anything "lately"...what specifically does that mean?  Four days?  A week?  Six months?   And then how much are you drinking each day? 

  

The reason I'm fixating on this is that I don't agree it couldn't be withdrawal (unless it's literally been months since you took anything besides alcohol).  Withdrawal is both short term and long term and can last up to a year.  The problem becomes more complicated with multiple drugs, and then even more when you include alcohol, espccially with the xanax. 

  

The other thing -- it really sounds to me like you need to be seen pretty quickly by a physician or mental health professional  (but not the one you've been seeing).   It sounds like you're battling too many things right now all by yourself...is there anyone you could talk to?   If money is an issue, does your community have free clinics?   Is there anyone in your "real life" who knows your whole story who could step in and help?  I know when I was going through some of this, before I went to rehab and treatment, I just dumped it all in my best friend's lap.  It was amazing how much that helped...in fact, she played a big role in finding my rehab and getting me there. 

  

There's always hope and there's always an answer, and it starts with unburdening yourself somehow.   

If you are looking for a pretty good chat for recovery this is a good one. Beware though they don't put up with a lot of whining and they don't cosign BS 

  

  

  

  

http://recoverychat.com/ 

  

  

peace mischif 

 When I think about what this means I always return to my serenity prayer and the first 3 steps of the 12 steps 

  

First take the prayer apart: 

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change  

The courage to change the things I can  

And the wisdom to know the difference.  

  This first verse the one said at almost every AA/NA meeting is all about surrender and acceptance 

  First you must surrender to the fact that there are many things you have no power to change. This includes almost all persons, places and things that cross your path in life. 

  

Second you must accept what you do have the ability to change which is yourself 

Living one day at a time  

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace  

Taking, as He did, this world as it is  

Not as I would have it.  

   

Trusting that He will make all things right  

If I surrender to His will.  

That I may be reasonably happy in this life,  

And supremely happy with Him,  

In the next.  

                          Reinhold Neibuhr, 1926  

   

One whole year sober - One day at a time. My sponsor has been running me around to speaking engagements at recovery houses in our area for women. It has been a real inspiration and a humbling experience to share my sobriety with others who are struggling. For those on this board who continue to struggle - just know the "the answer will come if your own house is in order". Stick around, go to meetings, get a sponsor, work those steps. 

  

Mischif 

  

   I mean that I haven't been on any pills lately. My doctor gave me trazadone to help me sleep, but I have to take 3 or 4 for them to work. The last time I took those were 3 days ago. I drink about everyday, I guess it varies. I think the only reason I am not taking mor medication is because I don't have it. I don't really have any friends, all my friends were in the program and now that I am drinking I don't talk to them. I agree that I need to be seen but I don't have insurance and I don't think there are any free clinics where I live, but I could be wrong, not real sure how to find out. Thanks. 

  

   I am not looking for someone to cosign by BS,nor am I wanting to whine. I guess, I just am not real experienced with withdrawl, and mental whatever it is that I am going through. I guess I am just getting a little aggravated because every where I turn, I can't get any answers. 

That is really awesome!  Congrats and good job. 

  

That first year is so tricky at times and it sounds like you're really doing all the right things. 

Hmmm...I'm not sure why you're being given an anti-depressant for sleep problems! 

  

I do understand your confusion and feeling overwhelmed.  Here's specifically what I would do:   

  

There has to be some sort of help available to get you started.  But you have to do the legwork.   You can do this either online or with the yellow pages, but try to find social services for your city (or, if you live in a rural area, your county).  Call these people up and explain what's happening with you.   If you can't "deal with this" on your own, and are willing to state where you live, I'd offer to do a quick online scan to see what I can find.  (I probably shouldn't offer this, but you sound too alone right now and if you're really that overwhelmed, sometimes even this can be too much). 

  

Also, you're obviously seeing a doctor.  He's responsible for both your care and the drugs he's prescribed.  Call his office and demand to see him asap!   

  

Even though you don't have insurance, there are certain situations where care has to be provided.  In fact, another option is to simply show up at your nearest ER and tell them you need help NOW! 

  

I know this sounds a bit dramatic, but it's obvious you can't (and don't want to) go on like this.  And you shouldn't have to!  Somewhere underneath all this garbage I'm sure there's a very cool person who wants to live again.  But if you're telling the truth when you say you have no one to help you out with this, then YOU have to step up to the plate and fight for YOURSELF.