Topic : Bipolar Disorder

i know you you feel. i was married to a drunk and wife beater then  igot out of that with 2 kids. later got with someone whom is  now which is my husband after 10 years and now married. there is no love left at all. i finally got a good job. where i can take off with my sone if he has a problem since he has bipolar and i have my own issues.  i had jobs but makeing no money and 5 kids to rais . i have faith in you and i i prey that you find a job. and can make it on your own.. what city do you live in ? i work for the workforce and they can find you good jobs.  even a good a  good finda good job with in the workforce. keep me posted i have been down on my luck so many times and there right now my husband just wont leave. let me know if you ever just need to vent. 

 

 Thanks! This has been so hard for me. A life that i never expected at all. I do work as a correction officer at a prison near by! If you had asked me 3 years ago if I wanted to do this I would have laughed. The pay isn't much at all. But it is job security. I live in Indiana. I have been trying to find a message board that would help to vent and I think that this will be a good one. I can't always check this board due to my husband but will check as soon as I can! I will pray for you too! It sounds like we both could use all the help we can get. The meds I am on have really helped at least to make rational decisions. I thought I loved my husband and once I was stabalized with my meds I see that I don't. He has said alot of mean and hurful things to me, how can you love someone like that. He is very verbaly abusive. Funny that the guys at the prison can say things and It doesn't bother me, well I get mad but realize that they are who they are and accept it. It isn't a personal thing with them. I could go on all night but have to get some sleep! Thanks again!

well sounds like we have the same problem.....i work  for tx work force its not a bad job. but i know how you feel i asked my husband to leave by this friday but i  dont think he going anywhere. which just makes me sick to my stomach.sometimes you know you cant deal with much more. my work is my safe place. and that sad. i live in denton texas.  mine is tring so hard but its just gone. i just cant  get over  the baby he had while we where  seperated for 3 monthes mind you she was 20. my oldest daughters age.  well i could go on forever too but its 5 and time for me to go. talk to you soon.

 

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sory about this computer it does not work very well and im not at my desk..  have a great day or eveing and ill prey for you

 How are you doing?

I hope no one was trapped in the flood areas in the Midwest.  My home town was underwater but I am safe from flooding so far here in Colorado. 

 

Sorry I haven't been keeping up with things on the board.  I'm on a higher dose of Abilify.  It makes me pretty tired some days. 

 

Hope everyone is okay......

 

Susan

Just stopping in and saying hello.  (I had to change my user name, my old one was "faith"  :)  I wanted to let you know that I'm also on Abilify and it makes me sleepy.  I have a very difficult time getting out of bed in the morning.  I tried to decrease my dosage (with my docs ok) but now my mood is dipping.  It seems like it's always something.  I hope you get some energy soon. 

I've still got the same user name...I too am on Abilify, as well as Lamictal...I have Narcolepsy, and everything makes me tired!!

 

I'm running very short on sleep today...very stressful few days...just a lot to do, with our church youth group and Scouts...much to do...I think I'll sleep well tonight...I'm already falling asleep in my chair as I sit and type...and it's only 10:40 in the morning!!

 

My thyroid levels are still low according to the labs that I had this week...the endocrinologist is supposed to be calling me with a higher dose of thyroid meds...then my psych meds will probably have to be adjusted again...all of my meds affect the others in one way or another...

 

My pdoc ordered a bunch of vitamin and mineral level tests, along with my other blood work...I see her in a couple of weeks...we'll see how those turn out...I see my regular doc next week.  One of my blood levels is remaining very high (alkaline phosphatase), so my doc is faxing the results over to my oncologist for evaluation...there are probably more tests in my future!!

 

Well, gotta go...I'm glad you are OK...I wish us all some more energy...Becky

I seriously need to see a pdoc soon.  My family doc is trying to find one that is taking new patients.  I see her in two weeks so we can discuss all of this. 

 

Becky....I hope your health problems with everything will be okay soon.  Faith....The same goes for me too.  I am in such a funk.  I'm having a hard time getting out of it.  No one knows that I'm feeling this way except you guys.  I'm afraid anyone else will freak out.  So I try to keep it hidden. 

 

Thanks for being there everyone!!!

 

Susan

 Glad to see you both back.  I've been away a while too-been in such a funk the last month.  I am trying to get enough money together to see my doctor again too-I'll have to go back on medication I guess.  I've been off it three years and have done well up until now.  I think my problems are solely situational, and I don't like my situation right now.

I got extremely angry a couple of weeks ago and "trashed" the kitchen.  I got so angry I threw a pitcher of tea at the refrigerator-(broke the plastic pitcher). I didn't have a personal problem with the refrigerator-I just got so upset I just lost it!  No one was in the house when I did it.  I started breaking up old coffee cups and old flower vases-nothing important.  Just bashed the crap out of all that stuff.

My husband came home before I got it cleaned up and started laughing and said "D*&(() woman!" He wasn't so concerned since I wasn't mad at him.  But I told him he needed to do something with his ex because I've heard her mouth for the last 11 years and she really pushed the wrong button that day.  I found out she pushed my oldest step son into going to the Marines, and I knew from the start he wasn't Marine material.  Now he is in some kind of holding platoon and they're supposed to ship him back next week.  I found out that she wanted him to send home his pay!  The first thing out of her mouth was "He'll get a thousand dollars a month."  The staff sergeant told my husband that he asked if the Marines would take care of his mom.
So I'm not real happy right now.  Dealing with my mom is getting me down.  But not everything is bad.  I found out department of rehab services is going to finance my going back to school to retrain for a job more suitable because of my disabilities.  I can't start that until August, so right now I feel like I'm trapped in some prison.  I'll just have to take it as it comes, do my best, and fake it until I make it.
Great to hear from you all.
Hugs,
Marty

I am new to this sight, but mustangsalley you have hit on my problem.  I am stable on my meds now and found out I am not in love with the man I am with.  I am very afraid to leave him because of threats he has made to me.  I am trying to contact Dr. Phil for help.  I am living in Tennessee and I want to move back to Indiana to be around my friends and children.  He spends every dime of mine so I can't leave.  He cheats on me and lies about almost everything.  If anyone out there knows of anyway I can leave and not be homeless, please help.

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