Topic : Bipolar Disorder

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thanks for writing to me, I sometimes feel like I am the only one that is having problems.  He cheated on me in my house while I was there asleep.  He says it was the only time and it won't every happen again.  He has told so many lies I don't know what to believe.  He told me he spent 28 years in the Marines as a special ops killer.  When I asked him for his dd5 he told me it would only show he had a dishonorable discharge 3 years after he joined and he was able to go back as a killer.  None of what he says fits what I know about the armed forces.  If he was special forces he wouldn't talk about his mission even now.  He drinks every day and 4 days out of the week he gets drunk and becomes verbally abusive.  He has told me many time he would kill me if I left and no one would know it was him.

I recently had to stop working because I have Lupus and the heat really gets to me, so we are broke once again in 2 years of our relationship.  I have supported him since we got together and he makes sure I don't have any money so I can't leave.  Everything we have is mine from before we got together and I really don't want to leave it all behind and start over, but I can't afford a moving truck and the gas to get to Indiana.  Once I get there I don't know where I can stay so I will be homeless.  I wish there was some answers out there for me.

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i am new to this site and am hoping that i can receive some support or even make new friends.  I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder a year and a half ago and it has been going downhill ever since.  I am almost out of meds and have no insurance.  I am really afraid of what will happen if i dont take them.  I am a single mom of 3 beautiful kids who are my life, but i have so much on my plate right now.  I feel the depression coming on and no matter how hard i try to fight it, it will take control over me. 

I live in Canada. I'm Bipolar. I was diagnosed last May, although it took them about three years to do so, and in that time, they fiddled around with me. At the beginning, I spent three months in a hospital where they diagnosed me with a whole bunch of nonsense to keep me in the hospital. Mind you, when I got out of the hospital, I had a psychiatrist and a psychologist that I didn't have to pay for and my medications were covered. My medications and my psychiatrist are still covered. When my psychiatrist finally diagnosed bipolar, he took the steps to medicate and wrap my head around it and explain it. The only thing that frustrated me was the fact that I wouldn't be 'cured'. It still irritates me. That's why I come here sometimes. Because I'm irritated. But then I come here and read things like this - what you've written.

 

I don't like your country at all. I don't like the fact that you need to get insurance to treat a disease that's not at all your fault and beyond your control. You're willing to do something about it and believe me - I know the cost of the medication. I see it on the bag of prescriptions when I pick it up at the drugstore every month. Even then! Our prescriptions are cheaper in Canada than they are in the States! I say, "NOT FAIR!"

 

Your government's screwy. I'm angry at them for making a mess of people's lives.

What do you take for prescriptions? I'm just curious.

 

This is what's in my medicine cabinet:

 

Apo-Divalproex - 500 mg

Sandoz-Topiramax - 200 mg

Ran-Risperidone - 2mg

Ratio-Trazodone - 100 mg

Cipralex - 20 mg

 

The topiramax was just added. I hate it. It makes my mouth feel ... metallic. Apparently, it's supposed to help with the weight gain problem which is a side effect of the risperidone. hah!

 Hi I'm new to this I was only recently officially diagnosed with bipolar disorder but that is because none of the doctors seemed to know what I had. I'm 25 now but my symptoms started to emerge at the age of seventeen. I've had many episodes and been on many different types of medications. I've been hospitalized but fortunately I've been stable for almost three years now and been put on the right meds.

     Hi Name is Phyllis I am bipolar i take my meds all the time but my husband is a social drinker I call it being stupid and not taking responsibility but my problems he won't take responbility's for his actions. He set off my bipolar mania mood I get mad and say something and march off.  He drinks and drives. And the straw that broke the cammel's back he drove his motorcycle after 4 drinks with me on the back of it. He blames me for his drinking calls me horrible names. I tried alanon and the moderators online won't listen to me and say we're suppose to becareful what we put on the chat rooms I am running out of options. My parents thinks I am getting worse and worse part my son has to suffer through this horrible mess. Cause my husband traps me in the car and yells at me knowing I have no place. to go. I don't think I can live with this man anymore Should I ask for seperation or a counselor if that don't work maybe divorce.  What suggestion does anybody have for me

So sorry you are struggling so.  I too struggled for quite awhile after I was first diagnosed.  It took awhile to find the right med combo.  It's terrible that you don't have insurance to cover your meds.  Can your psychiatrist give you samples?  Do you have a mental health clinic in your area that offers free meds?  Also, many drug companies have programs to get meds at no cost; check their web sites.  I hope that darn depression didn't get a grip on you.  Post again and let us know how you are doing.

 

It's great to hear that you have found the right med combo.  It often takes several years to get the right diagnosis.   I went to several docs and was on several meds before I got the right diagnosis.  Now I'm doing much better.  Welcome to the board.  The board has been a little slow lately, but I hope you stick around and post again.  Take care!

 

It would seem like going to a counselor would be a good first step.  When I was having problems with my marriage, I went to a counselor.  It was a great experience.  The counselor helped me think thing through more clearly.  Today things are much better.  By the way....  it sounds too dangerous to get on the motorcycle when your hubby has been drinking.  You can refuse to ride with him being drunk.  Don't put your life in danger like that!  Welcome to the board.  Post again.  :)

 

Have you checked into homeless shelters or domestic violence shelters in Indiana?  Maybe you could find a program to get into while you get back on your feet.