Topic : Bipolar Disorder

     It has been along time since my last Post, Here are my Sins, My three L's Code five, Live,Love, ? Life!

I also post on other varous Boards, The Boy, Jimmy Gets High, You Think I'm Crazy, My personal Favorite John HankCock.  P.O.W. Of The Mind, You Pick Me, You Sea the trust in the true North,

My Tribute To Peace Keepers "Way". Its as easy as 125 the Stretch of highway starting right On My doorstep along the transCanada Highway, up to Sydney Mines. My tribute To My World War Two Veteran Dad. I will walk that day. Approx 16-18kms.  With nothing more than my Heart, as Lightning strike me dead Dad Kyle Shall Be The One Dad, Your Grandson that shall lead My "Way", I shall Show them the "Way" My "Way" Our "WAY"

November 11th, 2008.  10:30 We will Be Thier At The remembering the Beginning, The Offical Opening Of The  Begining Of "THE WAY"  When the Sacred Bell Thwacks 11:00 We Shall Savor Our/Your  Moment Of Silence And Remember you our/your  fallen Mothers and Fathers Brothers And Sisters, and so ther forth!. , Where ever we shall be, And Remember!!! What We the people Shall Not only Leave Span From Sea To Shining Sea But To The impossible and thier it shall be, We Shall Be The Ones Whom Shall Provide The Missig Link To Do The Impossible And Span The "Way"  Striaght Of "Way" World Wide, Most Defenitaly, To My Fallen Comrades, 911, At My true Ground Zero, My true Stand, To The Smelt Fisherman that visits True North from time to time.

Thy hold only to thyself And Everthing Democracy 250 and peace Keepers Way Has To Offer  I, My People, Your People, Our People, And The People Shall Walk. If You can not make our first walk Our First , as it shall no be thy last?  Shall only be a Baby Step, Marking The True Connection Of Our "Trans Canada Highway 125  True Confederation. Democracy 250. My Tribute To my father whom shall walk with me this day, standing proud. The Beginning Of Peace Keepers Way, I'm Sure We The People, Citizens of The True Order Of Candada, Shall Show Them The 'Way". as I know you shall be there helping me throught the foot prints. I must endow. Lost In Translation

The Boy

S.O.S.   May Day. 

MY LIVE-IN BOYFRIEND WAS DIAGNOSED WITH BIPOLAR 5 YRS AGO, WAY BEFORE I MET HIM.    WHEN WE FIRST STARTED HE WAS THE MOST UNDERSTANDING, AFFECTIONATE, PATIENT & LOVING PERSON I HAVE EVER MET.  HE BOUGHT ME FLOWERS AND SENT ME LITTLE NOTES ON MSN TELLING ME HE LOVES AND MISSESS ME (I WAS AT WORK AND HE WAS LAID-OFFAT THE TIME)  HE'S BEEN BACK TO WORK FOR OVER A MONTH, WORK 12 HOURS SHIFTS 6 DAYS A WEEK AND I UNDERSTAND HE'S EXTREMELY TIRED AND IS SORE FROM HIS CONSTRUCTION JOB BUT HE'S BECOME VERY DISTANT AND ISN'T EVEN AFFECTIONATE AT ALL ANYMORE.  HE IS CURRENTLY TAKING SEROQUIL XR AND WAS TAKING  LORAZAPAM BUT STOPPED TAKING LORAZAPAM BECAUSE HE OVERUSED HIS PRESCRIPTION AND WILL BE GETTING A NEW PRESCRIPTION TODAY.  WE HAVE NO SEX LIFE AND IT BOTHERS ME SO MUCH.    I TRIED TALKING TO HIM AND ASKED HIM IF HE LOVES ME AND IF HE'S STILL ATTRACTED TO ME AND SWEARS HE IS BUT HIS SEX DRIVE IS COMPLETELY GONE.  COULD HIM NOT TAKING LORAZAPAM BE AFFECTING IT.  HE'S ALSO GETS EASILY ANNOYED WITH ME AND REALLY HASN'T BEEN HIMSELF FOR THE LAST MONTH.  HE SAYS HE'S TIRED ALL THE TIME AND I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND IT BUT I THINK HIS MEDS NEED ADJUSTMENT.  I'M NOT A DOCTOR BUT I KNOW HOW HE WAS AND HOW HE IS NOW NOT TAKING HIS LORAZAPAM.  WE HAD SOME FINANCIAL ISSUES THAT WAS MY FAULT BUT I CORRECTED IT AND OUR MONEY SITUATION IS A LOT BETTER.  HE WAS UPSET ABOUT THAT BECAUSE I TAKE CARE OF THE FINANCES BUT FELL BEHIND WHEN I LOST MY JOB BUT I'M WORKING FULL TIME NOW AND OUR BILLS ARE UP TO DATE.  HE HAS AN APPOINTMENT WITH HIS PSYCHIATRIST AND I MADE HIM  PROMISE TO TELL HIS DOCTOR ABOUT MY CONCERNS AND SAID HE WOULD.    HE DOESN'T EVEN SAY I LOVE YOU ANYMORE AND IT BOTHERS ME SOO MUCH AND THAT'S NOT HIM!  I KNOW FOR A FACT HE ISN'T CHEATING ON ME BECAUSE HE WORKS WITH HIS UNCLE AND I KNOW WHERE HE IS AND COMES HOME EVERYDAY AFTER WORK WITH HIS UNCLE.  ASIDE FROM THAT LIFE IS GREAT BUT I MISS HIM SO DAMN MUCH AND WANT THE  MAN I FELL IN LOVE WITH BACK.   ANY SUGGESTIONS ON HOW TO DEAL WITH IT?? OR AM I JUST OVER-REACTING??  PLEASE HELP!

thank you so much for taking the time to reply to my post.

you mentioned that i should get a psychiatrist if i don't already have one.

this is another huge issue for me. I refuse, unfortunately, to talk to any professional,

for simple reason. I was forced into counselling when i was 14 and 15, because

I have trichotillomania. I was promised there, that it " would not be a pipeline to

my parents." It was. Everything I said was not in confidence, and now I just couldn't

talk to someone about whats going on with me if my life depended on it. Ridiculous,

I know. ( Particularly because I'm going to school to become a Social Worker, Go figure=P)

I live with my best friend, and she is the only one that knows what's going on.

I need to do two things. Talk to my doctor, and talk to my mother. BUT, my number one

fear about going to the doctor, and I don't know where it is I'm getting this fear from, is that

he's going to think I'm making it up? I guess what I'm trying to say is.. How do I go about it?

Do I just walk in and say " Hey, I think I'm Bi-Polar? " What if I'm totally wrong?

Your opinion would be greatly appreciated.

So sorry to hear that you had a bad counseling experience when you were young.  I can understand your hesitation, but if you are truly bipolar a good psychiatrist is a must. 

If you feel more comfortable going to your general doctor then I guess that could be a first step.  And yes, I would simply tell him/her that you think you struggle from bipolar disorder.  A good doc won't think you are making things up.  A good doc would explore the situation by asking you questions regarding your moods.  Don't feel bad if you are wrong, because what is important is that you are taking steps to feel better.  There are things that can cause mood swings such as a low thyroid.  Your general doc can rule such things out.

Keep us posted and take care of yourself!!!!

Being with someone with bipolar disorder can be difficult.  I know that some medications can cause a low/no sex drive.  But also your boyfriend is working so much that also could be the cause.  I know that when I work too much it creates much stress.  The stress makes it more difficult for me to handle my bipolar disorder and I can become distant.  If I was in your situation, I would try and be supportive to my boyfriend and give him some time to adjust to the medication and his new job.

Keep posting.  Maybe someone else will jump in and help.  :)

     Sorry to hear about your situation.  I'm a female, 50 yo, bi-polar among others and on Seroquel and Lorazepam.  My sex drive is very low and have been told that Seroquel is famous for that.  The disorder itself sounds like it is out of balance to me.  The things you describe sound a lot like me when I'm imbalanced.

    First and foremost sweetie,  IT IS NOT YOU!  IT IS THE DISORDER!  I'm sure if you guys can hang until his meds and dosage are balanced again, things should lead to back to normal.

    I do have one concern.  Is he getting counseling?  It is very important to combine the 2.  The issues that are underlying in the bi-polar are as important to treat with counseling as are the chemical imbalances are with medications.

    Good Luck and God bless you both,

    Laniloo2000

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schizo affective disorder is so hard to deal with. My mind is out of control. I have been disassociating and having pseudo seizures. This is making my life suck. I need help.  I am in therapy but it is not working. I think I need to be hospitalized for awhile.

I take Dilantin for the seizures and also clonapin along with Seroquil (excuse spelling) and a high dose of Prozac. I still shake and have jerks. Talking is so hard because I have mouth jerks along with it. So frustrated. Can anyone relate or help?