Quote From: mothertoasoni am a stay at home mother to my 18 month old son. my husband works 40+ a week, and i have no family or friends in this city. i have a family history of depression, as well as a personal history of depression and anxiety. i am a survivor of sexual abuse, and have had a very very difficult time coping with various other hardships and losses in my life. i do not have insurance, hopefully my husband's company will provide our family with it this year, but my problem is this: i cannot cope. before we had my son, i was a fully functioning alcoholic, as a form of self-medication. now i do not drink at all. i have no desire to. but i am really the only person raising our son, since we can't afford help, or pre-school. i find myself coming in and out of depressive states, and fight panic/anxiety attacks on a daily basis (dealing w/ a toddler, you can only imagine why). i would love to seen a phychiatrist, therapist, or anyone that would even be able to help me with pX meds to maintain a healthy balance - but i can't afford it. i don't know what to do, and i'm starting to have more days of feeling imbalanced. i can't stand for my son to see me this way, and many times i leave him in his crib so i can go into my room and cry. please someone. i need advice. i love my family and am otherwise healthy and happy, but there's just too many triggers now, and i can't control them all. i have no help, and feel SO alone. any advice is appreciated.
For the money problems, you might try social services, or try applying for Social Security Disability, then you can get Medicare for yourself.
Congratulations on quitting drinking...keep up the good work.
As a mom of three boys, I know the stress of raising kids...the toddler stage is difficult...they are so active, and so obstinant. Just wait until they get to be teens...
For a doctor right now, try going to your local community mental health center...call the hospital if you don't know where to find it...they'll direct you. The community mental health center will use a sliding fee scale, so you only pay what you can afford, and they can link you with the drug companies to get your meds for free, or nearly free. Don't go it alone.
As far as getting a break...I understand about not having family or friends around...my family all live three hours away, and I still don't have any close friends. BUT you need some time with adults to keep yourself sane. Try joining a local MOPS (Mothers Of Pre-Schoolers) group...they meet all over the US, and they are usually linked with churches. They wouldn't be in the phone book, but you could call some churches and find out where and when they meet. I was in MOPS for a number of years, and it was really helpful to be around other moms of toddlers. They have babysitters there, so you can meet with the moms and take a break from your child.
I've been in the deep depressive state where I couldn't even move...Don't let yourself get there or stay there...you need to reach out...contact the community mental health center, and get involved in a group where you can meet with other people...I've also been the route of anxiety attacks so bad that I thought I was having a heart attack...again, get some medical help...you can't afford not to.
Another option is to check for a local chapter of NAMI (check www.nami.org for a local chapter). They have regular support group meetings for people with different mental illnesses. There is a local chapter near our home, and they have a support group just for people with bipolar disorder.
You owe it to yourself and your child and husband to get some help...meds make a huge difference for me, and I know that they can for you too.
Take care, Becky