Quote From: sendmeoses_usThis morning I woke up feeling tired yet did not have the depression as strongly. My episode last a few weeks with some train wrecks, mostly physical anger which I maintained to myself . To be honest, I know what I did, when I did and now understand why I did. I let many things build up until they explode with out any self control. I felt the episode coming on,wasn't sure how to handle it but what scared me the most is I do not remember some of the episodes or what exactly I did. I know that I broke a finger along with many bruises every where. It took me 4 days to be seen, hospital were full and ship 5 hour out for phyc patients. (holiday season) I made it though the worse episode of my life with the help an understanding from my husband. Unfortunately the friends which seen the episode no longer wish to remain because to them I am phyco, normal response I would assume. Just still hurts and I now know that they wont be inviting me over for cook out, lol......
As for my med in take.....I went back on all was on and added a few more. I hate taking pills everyday off and on all day but I have seen what happens if I don't.
I'm wondering if the depression will lessen as the rest o my episodes hibernate?
Regina Rea
I find that as one end of the spectrum (depression or mania) calms down, so does the other...I I don't go as manic, then I don't go as depressed...kind of like a bouncing ball...the higher it bounces, the harder it hits the floor, but as it settles down, the extremes become less and less.
Keep up with the meds...I only have to take mine twice a day, but it is difficult for me to remember whether or not I have taken them. I have a system, where I get out my AM meds when I take my PM meds...if the AM meds aren't out, I know that I haven't taken the PM meds yet, and if the AM meds are still there, then I know that I still need to take them...another way might be to have a daily pill box, with multiple slots for the different times that you need meds. Then, set an alarm to remind you to take them...I set alarms when I had mid-day meds to take.
You might want to ask your pdoc if there are long-acting versions of the meds that you are on...then you wouldn't have to take them so often.
That's terrible that there is a waiting list for the psych ward!! I'm glad that you made it through. My husband is very understanding and supportive of me too...it really helps. I've been abandoned by many friends and lost jobs because of the "psycho" behaviors...I'm glad to say that I am now on a good set of meds, with few side effects, and very effective...still can't work because the stress will throw me into a tail spin of erratic moods...even with meds...I'm on Social Security Disability Income, which helps with not being able to work.
Well, I hope that you continue to get better...stay on your meds...they'll be with you for life!! Becky
