Topic : Childhood Sexual Abuse Support

I didnt know there was a 20 minute rule.  Thats very odd.  I also didnt realize there was spell check.  Golfallday (bzbluiii) has me a bit nervous to try it though.  Will continue to try and double space for paragraphs.  Thats starting to annoy me as well!  (giving it a go now~this is suppose to be a paragraph  ;)

It is strange how some become harder and walk the same a road as their abusers.  I guess its just that everyone is different.  I do still think that most abuse survivors are like us and dont wish to hurt others the same as they were hurt.    

ok...maybe if I dont preview it will post correctly with all my lovely paragraphs.  tehe

Ok thats it!  I guess there are no paragraphs for me!  Im sick and bloody tired of complaining about it as well as trying to fix it so ya'll are stuck reading posts from me that are all bunched up with no nice spaces. 

 

 

*Tries one last time as I dont give up easily*

Woohoohoo!

See what I did?

You just have to hit enter 4 times as opposed to twice!

YAY for me!  :D

But... it worked the first time.  *confused face*

do I need to do it 5 times?

perhaps 6?

and heres 7!  LOL  Just trying to figure this out.  I know I said I was done but doggone it!  I had them for one post and now my stubborn will is kicking in and I am gonna figure this blasted bloody frustratingly horrid awful wretched new format if I have to drive you all nuts to do it.  ;)

Yep!  Im still working on the bathroom.  Stripped a wall of the wainscoting yesterday.  Thats an icky job!  I had never stripped before and was surprised at the mess it made.  I got the hang of it now though and should have at least that finished by the end of this weekend. 

We have had the hottest June and July ever on record here.  It was way too hot!  The cooler weather has hit and its nice to give the air conditioner a break.  I was fussin over it because all winter we have to keep the house closed up and then summer comes and I have to keep the house closed too!  Just seems wrong. 

Im so sorry to hear that your credit card was stolen!  Did they help you with that and say you wernt responsible for the charges?  Are they sending you a new card with different numbers?  I wonder if they will ever track down who stole it? 

Today im heading off to our towns lil fair.  Its quite something that we have a fair here in this lil town.  It is up the road(which is means is about 2 miles from us) but its a 4H fair and I really enjoy going and looking at all the animals.  The bunnies are my favorite.  :)    My lil one does the small fry tractor pull every year and this was the first year he didnt make 1st place so he wasnt invited back for the final pull today.  He knew as soon as he finished his pull he had second not first and you should have seen his lil face.  LOL  He was just sick about it.  I told him I would take him back during the week so as he could try again but he never mentioned so I did work instead.  A part of me thinks its actually a good thing that he didnt win 1st one year so he can get practice at being a good sport. 

My parents are coming up the fith(making a not so happy face)and thats always an adventure, to put it nicely.  They dont stay with me though so thats very good.  My kids enjoy seeing them so least I can find solace in that.  LOL  However, I may be hitting this site venting a time or two if my father gets on my last nerve as he generally does.  I do have a secret code with my husband and will call upstairs to his office if he starts bugging me to no end.  Then my hubby comes down and saves me.   :D  I find it ironic that my father will be on his best behavior for my husband but doesent feel the need to do the same for me or my children.  Whats up with that?  Think he has that whole thing backwards if you ask me!

Hope you have a nice weekend too!

One of my favorite quotes.  :)   Perhaps I enjoy that particular phrase so much because I dont like to give up or give in  and it allows me my quirky behavior.  LOL

 

I think I have these paragraphs figured!  Can you believe it?  :D  It seems that when using the bold font you are not allowed proper paragraphs.  Why, you ask?  I dunno!  Just how it is.  I didnt make the rules.  :P  tehe  Just playing!  ;)

 

Hmmmm... while im making everyone buggery messing with the new format I cant help but wonder if I switch to red does that effect the paragraphs as well?

Still working? 

Any probelms with the red?

Think I will switch back to black just to make sure.

 

Ok... that ends my tests for this morning. Hope I havent made you to annoyed over it all.  Sorry if I have!  But you know what they say...

 

 

Persistance breaks resistance!  :D

 

 

Its a problem with the red font.  Thats such a shame cus I liked using the colors.  Perhaps in time they will get it settled.

 

NOW im done for sure!   Just thought I should mention.  ;)

I think you hit the nail on the head. It appears formatted text (bold, red, italics) cause the double spaces to turn into single spaces. I sent that in this morning as a bug, not sure if it will be addressed over the weekend but hopefully we'll get that fixed soon.

 

Thanks!

This new format is really difficult. I've been away from the board for a few days so was trying to catch up and reading from the start is a pain coz the messages are backwards so you have to scroll to the end and then hit to go to the last page and then scroll again!! I know you'd think we all had enough stuff to complain about in our lives!! LOL. I do like that the way the messages are laid out though so that you see the order of things.

 

Anyway (hope that's a paragraph momisme :). I kind of lied just there when I said I was away from the board, I actually logged on a couple of times and started to read but couldn't continue. Sometimes it is too hard. Lablefree I think what you are talking about is the difference between sympathy and empathy. I think we will always empathise with others that go through this s***. This is probably a good thing but sometimes it is really difficult. We all have to learn to protect ourselves from that and know our cut off point. Like I said I couldn't read the board for the last few days coz I've been very depressed lately and sometimes it is just to hard to see other people's pain.

 

Oreo what your mum has done is definitely abuse there is no doubt about that. You might not categorise it as that because of the sexual abuse but she is abusing you physically, mentally and emotionally. She is also controlling you and as Momisme said we lose control to our abusers and that is the hardest thing to regain. This is why people who have been abused can have eating disorders, or self harm and also why we often end up in another bad situation because we just want the control back. I am glad that you met someone you like. You are old enough to date and you've been through enough to make you older then you are. However I would like to say please be careful. Keep your control in the relationship. You are very messed up now and sometimes we turn to someone else that we think will fill a void but it doesn't. Just make sure that everything you do you WANT to do. It has to make you happy. I know that I ended up having sex with my first real boyfriend because I wanted to feel 'normal'. It made me feel worse coz I had done it for the wrong reasons and it was another way that the abuse had effected my life. I also continually looked for someone to love me and if any guy showed me some affection I thought it was love. I was lucky in that this didn't lead me into a bad situation but it very easily could have. Take your time. Work out what you want, be honest with yourself and with him. Remember we are always here to listen. And don't be embarassed about what you said about your mom, she is in the wrong she is your mother and should protect you NOT abuse you. Take care.

Mussymel I just spent the last 21 minutes typing out a message to you and when I went to preview I got bumped off and had to sign in again and the whole message is out there in cyber space somewhere.  There needs to be some kind of warning that my time is up or a way to refresh so that I don't loose what I was posting.  One time I thought I was being smart and hit refresh so that I didn't get bumped and it lost my comment too so guess you can only do that if you aren't in the middle of a post. I wanted to tell you I like what you said to oreo about needing love and filling a void. I will have to come back later cause now I need to get busy in the house before the whole morning is gone.  TTYL