Quote From: volunteer4godI have a fear of heighs. I have since I was a child. That has never left me. I have a fear of snakes. I remember when a snake was coming up our porch and I stayed in the house. My mom yelled at me wondering why I wasn't outside. I told her there is a snake and I will not come out that way. So I went out the back door.
I have social phobia. I love to talk but then I worry about what people say about about what I said. My mom is the opposit. no talk no problem. Anyway I even get social phobia when I watch a show with a embaressing plot to it. When I was young I use to walk out of the room until it was done. I wondering if anyone else has that problem or am I alone?
I also have anxiety. Sometimes for no reason and sometimes from my PTSD. I hate night. It is the worst for my PTSD and my anxiety. Sometimes my anxiety from PTSD comes into play certain times of year. I cannot win.
I even go so far at do OCD things like trying to trim my nails to be perfect until they bleed. I try my best to keep that under control. I try to only cut my nails during the day when my anxiety is down. The other one I USE TO clean my ears util they bleed. I now know that is a bad thing to do. I stopped.
I also fear of me gatting sick and not being able to take care of my sick Mom. If I cannot take care of her at all I don't know what I will do. She even needs to be reminded sometimes to drink water because she sleeps so much. I love my Mom and I want to help her as much as I can.
God Bless You All!!!
Volunteer4God
I also suffered major panic attacks for 10 years. I still get them but they are few and far in between. They are triggered by something that startles me then I feel short of breath, then dizzy, nauseaus. I also fear being sick but don't go to doctors for fear I may find out I am right.
I read an article yesterday on introverts and extroverts. Introverts are more feeling oriented and feel from the inside out; Extroverts are action oriented and feel from the outside (others, activities, etc). I think anxieties and phobias , etc. tend to be more an introverts problem, why? Because we are prone to go inside, not seek support, sit and analyze more then act, it tends to bring with it anxiety which in turn, leads to feeling out of control. In a sense, we are putting ourselves in the exact situations that will bring on the anxieties.
I believe the cure is in understanding how you think, honoring it so that you accept what it has been for you all these years, then accept that that way does work anylonger.
Then start doing things that help you to move forward in life, become more involved with others, even if it is one friend at first. Challenge yourself every day if possible, to do something you normally wouldn't do. Something that is going to enhance you and your life. It is about you right now. You won't get healed if you are worried about others now because you are sick too and you need to take care of yourself now.
You are emotionally ill, we all get there sometimes. Also sometimes we are extroverts. I am sure you feel very confident in other certain situations, right?? We are all both at times.
I am fearful of driving fast. I don't like when others drive fast. Actually I wish the speed limit was 35 all over the globe. Why? Because when I was young about 10, my dad used to drive while he was drunk. One time we almost went off a bridge; another time he had my sister, who just got her learners permit, drive us home from the city, in the middle of the nite, because he was too drunk. My poor mom....but she must have had a fear of driving, she never drove a day in her life, she is now gone.
The point I am getting at is we are traumatized by things and although we want to believe that time heals all wounds, time does not heal some of them. Little by little we want control, control over something. So we pick and choose things that are convenient. Like being shy or insecure; overeating, doing drugs, having too much sex with strangers, porn, gambling, etc.
We become obsessed with things like cleaning our ears, cleaning the house, but we are not satisfied. Which is what makes it then obsessive. When what is happening is we are clinging to safety.
It is crucial to start to learn life is what we make it and we need to be the ones to work on fixing, or changing whatever it is that is making our lives weak and shallow.
Also, guilt is a motivator to anxieties. We can never rest really in who we are. Know one thing, if someone made you feel incompetent when you were young, they were being abusive. Know that. Any type of abuse to a young mind is going to bring with it anxities and feeligs of not being safe. Find safety within yourself because it is all you really need. We are all trying to survive and take care of ouselves. Do the same. You are worth it. :)
