Topic : How Childhood Abuse Still Affects Me

Hi, Renee'

 

I'm guessing (and hoping)that you've closed on your house by now, right?  I'm so excited for you!  I bet it's just beautiful.  Congratulations!  Now you just have to go through the moving process, right?  That's kind of a pain, but I'm sure it'll be like moving toward the light at the end of the tunnel for you, since it means freedom from your relatives. :)

 

Everything's about the same here.  I'm tired, and nauseous, and a little crabby. :p I just wanted to tell you hi, and make sure everything is going well for you.  Hope to hear from you soon.

 

Sarah

I'm a survivor of CSA and subsequent attacks. I've only recently been diagnosed with Complex-PTSD. The upmost authorities on this condition are Judith Herman and Besser van der Kolk. This is missed in most of the therapy community and it is a shame. It is treated very differently than PTSD. The impact of CSA is very insidious and difficult to treat. It is very long-term.

I have trouble sticking with things, memory. It's easy to get discouraged because I can't get a foothold. I have high anxiety which easily turns into dissociation. Then I forget what I was doing. People tell me I'm intelligent and that I'm wasting so much potential. This just depresses me. There have been brain scans proving changes in the brain in the hippocampus and thalamus due to long-term child abuse (even in the size of these areas of the brain). Treating this is imperative and is being studied under the heading of C-PTSD or DESNOS (to be listed in the new edition of the DSM-V).

It is very important that we keep talking about it with each other. Together, we are strong.

Us survivors are very brave. Much love and many blessings to all of you who are survivors. Take good care of you. Take time to nurture your souls.

-K, survivor

so we're all loosers?

I'm glad you are feeling better. I have to tell you, that I've been "there" too. Several times.

Check back after a few years. Don't shut people down. Excitement is wonderful. Nature and even the stock market do not move in a straight line. There is no quick fix. Especially when the brain has been physically affected. I am very leery of your post. It's irresponsible. But good luck to you. Sincerely. Enjoy the ride.

Hi

 

I am a serviver of CSA, I am a 31 yo Oz I was asolted by one of me teachers when I was 8, and severy other time by diffrent people. my thory is that when a child is assolted there is a scare that is pote onto there sole. Abuseres can see these scars and see them as "easy pray".

 

I was luky that my parents were not abusive and that I had a safe place there, but like many of you I am overwaight to pretect my self. My memeries of my childhood as vage and pachey - I supressed the memery of the assolt for over 15 year and when the memreies reapered I thort I was going mad and attempted suiside .

 

These days I am been treeted for PTSD, OCD, and minor Schyaphrenia (Well depends on how you talk to 1 Doc say Schaphrenia and another say molti-personality disorder). I will explain this when I an not coping it is like ther are two of me - the person that God created me to be and the person that was born out of the abuse - this is what has coused the confusion.

 

I am curently unable to hold down a full time job becors of these problems - I have and will agane hold a full time job but the nature of my problem is that I have "good" years (the longest has been 7 years) and Bad years (like now) some of you have talked about - for wont of a better term - "getting over it". My point is that we never get over it - we lern to live with it, we lern to use it to help others, we use it as a bage of pride, we strugel with it, we sucome to it, we manage it, BUT WE NEVER GET OVER IT.

 

I think I am luky to live is a cuntry that has a welfare state mentality (that is that people how are unable to make a living are given an income, equeverlent to base wage, by the goverment) as it alows me to be indpendent of my parents and alows me to work on getting myself better (well back to been able to earn a living) with out having to warry about how to keep a rofe over my head.

 

KLB

 

PS sorry about the spelling but I have dislexia :)

 

Hey Sarah,

It was good to hear from you!  Yes, I'm in the house and I have had quite the disappointments

with utility hookups and such.  But --------I am on my own - finally!!! 

It has been good on one hand, but, surprisingly my depression kicked in, so I've had to

deal with that. 

Every box from Arkansas has been hard to open and go through.  That has shocked me

more than once, but, my doctor says he isn't surprised that it's been so traumatic for me.

I'm sorry you're having to deal with the nausea - with two little ones already, that can't be

fun.

Well, I have to go run some errands - I'm at my brother's house on the computer, since I

still don't have internet connection yet (another story).  Talk with you soon!

Renee'