Topic : How I Got Help

WHO told you you can't get ahnywhere b/c of no abstract/logical thinking? And since WHEN is that linked to numbers? Man, I can't even add numbers higher than ten (and really numbers less than ten). G-d only knows how I pulled off science and math in H.S....So it's like math dyslexia or something; it happens, but it doesn't mean anything. 'abstract/logical thinking': I mean, if you're asking someone to do math they don't care abouth that doesn't prove anything. Logical thinking, we do it every day without even noticing, like rapidly deciding what to do when something unexpected comes up with the kids, frantically trying to figure out what to do & going through the options (logic), thinking ahead (abstrasct thinking), etc. It's like Gardner's 'frames of intelligence': he wants us to forget the idea that intelligence is just the crap that comes up on IQ tests, and instead focus on the many ways we're intelligent in our day-to-day lives that we tend to overlook, undervalue, and ignore.

and yeah, why is it so hard to be nice to ourselves, but so easy to be nice to others? You're so insightful about me and my family: I tell myself that every day, but then I just think I'm being negative, that it's my problem I feel this way. Thanks for telling it like it is. I know you don't blow smoke up people's a**: just say it whether it pulls off like a bandaid (ow) or shows you truth you were too scared to see yourself.

I am officially asking you.....will you please be my V. P. of my corp of all of CANADA?  That is a HUGE responsibility....so in order to do this you and I really really need to do our repair work so when the time is correct we can help so many others along the way  k! 

  

  

There are so few of us Eccentric Genius out in the world but I know you can represent Canada!  My goal even though I am so poor right now I am PO   cant even say the complete word hahaha 

  

Is to eventually fill up the food banks help others with clothes...I know there is a thrift shop on the WEST Island and Everybody goes to it!  Everyone in this world has to learn to help everyone...Whether its to donate books, clothes, $ or whatever/  I am just the person to make them see that... 

  

My biggest turnoff?  Stingy greedy people...I am not sure how these people were created but It would be my pleasure to spend a weekend with them and turn there hearts around! 

  

I am really nothing special but my true gifts are helping others yes I do know I need to help me too but inside I do get a lift when I do help others so maybe it is helping me on this road of life... 

  

Service of others helps me...I am so glad we are friends...I know YOUR going to be so well... 

  

I wonder if people actually read this or just go past this or We are the newest hit on the Internet with like 10,000000000000x000000000x00 million hits hahahah 

  

Well if anyone is reading this HELLO WORLD SO NICE TO MEET YOU I LOVE YOU TOO AND PLEASE GIVE TO DR> Phil's FOUNDATION  as WELL AS Oprah's  tell them LABEL-FREE SENT YA BECAUSE ACTUALLY EACH ONE OF THOSE TWO GREAT PEOPLE SAVED MY LIFE  SEND IN LOTS OF MONEY  to keep there good works going..... 

  

DO something really great for you...Go BUY THAT BOOK LIFE STRATEGIES OR READ SOME OF IT HERE ON LINE...your pal (me)  wouldn't steer you wrong.....xoxoxo Write soon.. 

I have decided I think I need some professional help so more professional help on my childhood abuse issues.  Whether that is going away in somewhere and obtaining it or seeking it weekly I am not sure yet. 

  

I have also made up last night with my HUSBAND.  You know its coming up on a year anniversary of my Father's death and its weird but just now a year later I am starting to feel safe like okay now your really dead...to feel all the anger he put me...my siblings threw...Does that sound twisted?  What about your Dad if you don't mind me asking?  I am sorry maybe you actually told me but let the truth be told sweetie I have been actually SUCKED into this trance state not like time for a phychward trance  I am living breathing functioning dreaming...etc...Doing my duties in life  taking care of my sweet babies my sweet step son and all I come into contact with but let the truth be known When no one is looking I cry... 

  

I'm crying now as I am tying...I cry when I'm in a bathroom stall when My husband is trying to be nice and takes me out to dinner.. 

This purging process of childhood abuse came out like a fierce venomous attack on the people closet's to me and in all fairness although my husband knew about my childhood issues he is in noway capable of emotionally physiologically spirituality able to handle the demons.  Its not fair to him.  Our marriage..My children or my step son.  Actually its NOT FAIR TO ME THE ORIGINAL PERSON IT HAPPENED TOO. 

  

I geuss what I am saying to you KID and I mean that ahhh so lovingly  is that we all have problems  me,.... you....your MOM......Maybe instead of just sitting there and letting her go BLAH BLAH BLAH  share this site with her... 

  

Let her talk to me too because we are the same age... 

  

Tell her I said she is being unfair to you....Let her curse me out here...Believe me I CAN TAKE IT... 

Then we all three of us can be friends... 

Look at your life like a jig saw puzzle....Your parents put a peice down....Your childhood  add another...Some little kid times....another peice...Pretty soon youll start to see the BIG PICTURE OF YOUR LIFE,,,,,,Its NOT A BAD LIFE....LIFE IS SUPPOSE TO BE HAPPY....LETS GET HAPPY! 

  

I'm glad that you're going to get more help, because you SO deserve to get better. I hope you won't have to go away, because I'll miss you, but whatever you decide is best I'll support you five hundred percent (and if there's no computer, I can always snail-mail you if you want). I don't think it's twisted at all how you feel about your dad. I think with anyone who hurt you a death is always more emotional in a confusing way b/c grief is complicated by relief, and also maybe guilt when what you were secretly wishing so many years ago (that he would go away somehow) actually happens. I know I wish all the time my father would die, but if he did I think I would feel guilty. I'm sorry you're going through this overwhelming time, and I'll help you any way I can. It's good that you made up with your husband b/c now he's not a source of stress anymore but support; even if he can't deal with everything he can still love you. It's okay if you ask about my father, but I don't want to lay it on you right now: you have so much to think about already, and this time should be about you helping you....keep writing me, I care about you you know.

No kids.....:)  After being a GREAT MOM sorry if that conceded...for 18 years when there is no one to take care of its kind of nice and kind of weird all wrapped up in one!  I went and had a 1/2 hour massage today and I loved it! 

  

That is my special treat weekly for me quiting smoking!  Do you smoke EG? 

  

I used to smoke Newport 100"s and the funny thing the real real funny thing is THE DISGUSTING SMELL ODOR  the ashtrays etc...I quit on JUNE 1, 05 because the day before that I found out my Aunt Judi From CT Had LUNG cancer.....I should have quit sooner well I did once for 90 days because MY HUSBAND AGE 41 has emphysema!  and in each lung he has a Nodular and guess what kid?  HE STILL smokes!  I figured before screw this why should I quit if he doesn't care enough about himself or us why should I.....Now its a different story.. 

  

I actually ACTUALLY learned a VERY VERY valuable lesson not only about smoking cigarettes but also about all addictions which includes but is not limited too GAMBLING as well... 

  

On that day JUNE 1, 05 I completely turned my will over to the care of GOD.  I have been around the rooms of recovery for MANY MANY MANY years... 

  

They talk about 12 steps etc... 

Until you actually internalize the meaning of coming...coming to then coming to believe... 

Then Turning your life Your will and your care OVER to GOD as you understand him  you mite as well us those programs as a revolving in and out door..... 

  

I see it in my own family....My brother is nearly spirituality bankrupt.  All I can do on a daily basis is pray for him....You can carry the message NOT THE ADDICT ON YOUR BACK ya know what I mean jellybean? 

Hi! That's so cool you go and get massages to reward yourself for quitting smoking, it's a really great idea. I only smoke 'socially', so I try not to light up more than once a week. It's hard to quit, though, especially on days when you're super stressed. Ironically, I only started smoking when I was in the nut house, b/c they wouldn't let us go outside to get air unless it was to take a smoking break. Sorry I'm not writing more right now but I'm feeling really crappy today. Talk to you soon.

 today......I worked for my brother today....I really love that kid....He is really smart.... 

  

Do you have alot of brothers or sisters? 

  

Well write back when you can and I hope you feel better soon......xoxox Your pal EG! 

I have to say, getting messages here makes me feel happier, it's so strange...::bounce::I guess it makes me remember that not everyone has abandoned me in my life...What did you do with your brother today? Do you have lots of siblings? I only have one, my 'little' brother who's 18 months younger and 1 foot taller than me.

No I will not leave you but I may need your help actually so please stay in the stand by mode if you don't mind.... 

  

There is this little chick actually and I think she is NORTH WAY  I am not sure if she is in BIG TIME TROUBLE but she is NOT A USA citizen okay...On Childhood sexual abuse Board... 

  

(Oreo)  and she has alot of brothers and sisters and I am about to drive 8 hours and go up there and rescue this kid myself.... 

  

I am not sure if she is Montreal or what....Are you up for helping me save the world EG? 

  

Thats what being an EG is all about ya know Eccentric Genius do gooder for all..  Are down with that my sister? 

  

Im not sure because I didn't check that board but I got a credit card  and NOT every thing is worked out and I have A REAL BIG FING PROBLEM WITH LITTLE KIDS BEING F' D With ya know what I mean? 

  

Thats all I would need...Getting locked up in Montreal and just when I am getting along with my HUSBAND... 

  

Ut UHU!  He would freak and so would I>>>>>Honey I have some news...uh  I know I was going back to work after I stopped crying and then there was this little girl on Dr. Phil's message board who needed my help so I drove 800 miles up to CANADA and met her and her 3 other kids in her family...I well babe I kinda kidnapped INTERNATIONALLY and well I took them across the border to well keep them safe and at AAA the border I was arrested...and shh well ... 

  

Can you see that one happening? 

  

I do want to help this young girl... 

  

Actually let me go and check and I will be back in a few...xox