Topic : How I Got Help

these are breifly the problems i live in : i have no friends in the city where i m actually.  my parents , since i was born , are quaraling furiously all the time. they just know to do that and i m all the time here to seperate them. my sister left our house when she was just 16 years old because she couldn t stand any more this situation and all that problems. In now times she s almost 29 years old, married and she got a pretty daugter. my second sister ; after getting her bac ; moved away from them and continued her studies in a good school in one moroccan city called agadir. after that, she went to UNITED ARAB EMIRATES and worked there for 3 years. nowtimes she s 31 years old and she s working in the UNITED KINGDOM. how lucky they are, aren t they ?!of course they are. Now concerning me, i m the only one hwo didn t leave his parents in this magical family. I got my bac and also my DEUG in the economic university where i study. I m 22 years old, and i passed all that years near these two persons hwo are called parents. I m still here with them, with their cease-less childish problems. they all the time lead a mortal battle. father takes drugs , come back to house and begun fighting with mother who is already ready for that fight, she gets with her continually even while sleeping a big baton to face him when he will back home. If i did escape them like my sisters did , i m sure and certain they would kill each other. my destination is to be their referee when they fight. I have no choice. it was imposed to me.       

i never got a normal life like every body do. All that homely problems i met in my life affected negatively my personality. I can t hang out from the house anymore, i just start tv, wach football matchs and programs like yours. That s all. i can t even go to the university because i m all the time humilated by looking and expressions emeted over me by people there because of my appearence. They are all the time laughing at me...they are all the time beletilling me. they didn t accept me as i m. they say i m not good looking and they are totally right . i m really not good looking.        

In adition to all that problems i got since 3 years ago a kind of hair that full all my face and grows extremely fast especialy under my eyes. I don t know why and how sudenly that hair grows in my face. I become scarry. I m really fed up with that. it s unberable. I can t stand bearing that any more. I really feel the life hates me. Every body in my country hate me..and as the life goes on i begun in my turn hating them and my country too.. coz i m talentued, kind and peaceful person..my inside is pure…. i don t deserve such destination.. i really don t deserve what is happening to me…it s increadebely  unfair..I m alone.. i feel my self abondened..Just listen to wiskey lullaby sang by brad paisley and then you will get to know how anxious and depressed i m actually. Sometimes i think to a suicide as solution to these problems.        

I go in spite of me to the university only when the final exams come in order to pass it. i do prepare before for it in house coz i don t assist to my courses because of the way the students look at me in that university.       

In spite of my homely problems, i was a litle bit happy when i was kid because i got a great friends in the period of my childhood there in KENITRA the city where i was born, but after moving to MEKNES the city where i m actually, i broke up with them all because i live in a dirty house where we are morning and night acompanied by rats cockroach, aunts spiders and so on . .it s really not a house but jungle. so to prevent getting a shame if ever they visit this silly house i took the critical decision to drift apart forever. the people in MEKNES city are so rud. they are not educated. they just care about how you look and the way you dress : if you are beautiful, rich , if you have a good socialbackground, if you are living in beautiful house and all that none sens things. they don t pay attention to what you are really : your cor, the way  you deal and act with people, the way you reason things, your personlity ,your mentality , your character your nature and all that sensible things. they can t see further than their noses.        

All these problems i told you right now were the issues i cited in the letter i sent 2 years ago to one tv program here in Morocco consacred to help people hwo are in difficult situation but unfortunately right now they didn t get back to my letter. But you know this thing doesn t surprise me at all because here in Morocco tv channels create such programs just in order to make a money they don t care about people and their daily soufferings. Now time, unfortunately an other big problem just have been aded : One day since one year ago, one guy in the university where i study gave me a something to eat. 2 hours after eating it i began laughing, laughing and laughing without any reason and i broke down, then he with the help of two friends of him (i think), brought me right my house and left me there. After i recovered my conscience, i came in the house, fortunately there was no body in ;then i vomited and sleeped. after that day my life was turned completely upside down. I m all the time sick and my health is not alright at all. i don t know what happened to me. they maybe introduce illicit drug into what i eat. I really don t know what happen to me. I feel my self constantely tired. i can t play football any more. i can t play any kind of sport. I feel my self without cease sick head ache with sensation of vomit and vertigo. I felt all that since 1 year ago. these symptoms are still with me right now and my health is getting worse and worse because of some thing that i have no hand in. sometimes i can t even get up of my kness such i m so tired and depressed. That drug causes me psychotic desorder..i m withdrawing from interactions with other people..i just stay sleeping at home without doing any thing..since i got that thing proposed to me by that guy in the university i hung out just 3 or 4 times no more..my thinking is all the time desorgonized..i think i m going to loose my mind if no body wud help me…my parents think that i m aimed by someone harms like a witch who envies me for my talents in sport and studies as they said. I right now never told them my real story. I didn t tell it even to my two sisters. I can t find out what i m suffering of because the hostipal is so expensive here. It s really so so expensive. In addition to that even if u would get to make an appoinment with a doctor u should then wait 6 months to get seeing him just for telling him your symptoms then you should wait an other month to make a madical test and then an other month to get giving him the result and during such long time you risk certainly to be taken over by what you are suffering of and that may then cause me wether die or loose my mind.. This is unfortunately the real Morocco. !! my case is really urgent more urgent than any time before and i hafta take urgent and immeadiat measures to save my self from the drowning.       

lately my grand sister registred me in one university there in LONDON but i didn t accept that just because her proposition came so late and also because of my terrible ilness. I really regret so much the fact i refused her proposition because may be getting london city would give me the opportunity to ask for help more easily than here..the british people or western people in generally are known for their democracy. The talentued person in western countries risk never to get a confused future or to get neglected..and the emissions broadcasted in your channels are the proof of what i m saying…       

i tried all my possible in order to find some one help me figuring out my problems but all my attempts failed. I tried to contact a lot of organizations here in morocco consacred as they say to save people who are in difficult situation from thier trouble but all my trials are in vain. I really knoked all doors but without any result. so with all that problems and circonstances what can do an ordinary man like me over all that. nothing of course ! i m burried alive.        

plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz help me ( so sorry for my endless faults in ortograph)       

Have you tried the Meier Clinic?  1.888.7CLINIC

There is one in Bedford TX and Richardson TX.

Dr Phil

I have had the opportunity to ready Robins book on "Whats age got to do with it" and I have to say this book enlightened me to pursue my journey of healing. I am a mess and have been since age 35. I went to Doctor after Doctor and was given prescriptions of anti depressants and patronized with words of you just need some exercise and try to get rid of the stress in your life. HA! I would leave these offices feeling like I was crazy and the only one who understood me was my sweet husband. He couldnt do anything about it and was not living with my

 symptoms, so clearly he would forget that it did not go away just because he did not see noticible symptoms daily. When I say I was a mess that really does not describe what was going on with me. I would even go as far as to tell my husband that I am so miserable that I just want to check out. Now these were the days that were bad days and they would go away as quickly as they came but they were still there. I would read everything I could get my hands on to try to find an answer for my moods swings, anxiety, stress for no reason, exhaustion etc during the age from 35 to 45. Once I reached 45 I was finally able to read books that addressed what I had been going through for 10 years. I would do all kinds of things to try to feel better.It was a constant work in progress. My sweet husband bought the book that Robin had written and his words were " This is you " I was watching Dr Phil and Robin was describing you!!! It was amazingly true and my journey was renewed at that point. I am so grateful for this. I am still having trouble trying to get the help that I need because I am limited in my area. I can not seem to find a doctor(gyn only) to help me that will take insurance and we can not afford to see the ones that do not accept insurance. I am still searching and working to self prescribe and with the help of Robins book and your web site I think I may be on the right track. Thank you Robin! I will stay in touch with you on my journey and in spite of menapuse "Life is good" God bless you! Number 6:24-26