Topic : How I Got Help

About that (R) thing it happened to me too once...(One time )another time i had a gun put in my mouth...But I got out of that one..THANK GOD!

 

May I ask please your age?  I am 41.  Last birthday I said I was going to face all my fears this year...I thought maybe because I was afraid of heights I would jump out an airplain..After reading Dr. Phil's book it states we must take accountablity..Whatever it is we do...So I think I would rather hash out my height issues on the boards anyway!!!!

 

Talk to you later gater.

Please write when you can...

I'm sorry I didn't write back for so long, I was really feeling bad for a few days so I didn't get out of bed. But then I turned on the computer and got all your messages so actually I'm pretty happy right now. Yay! Trust me, your erratic hours and my spontaneous combustion, I think, will work out fine on these message boards Eccentric Geniuses, I love it... I hope your child who got his teeth pulled is okay and not too worried about braces.

You asked me about my age and school whatnot. I'm 22; I don't know if you've heard of my school because I live in Montreal, Canada, but it's McGill University. I'm in Lit. right now, but I picked up a Psych minor after my first hospital doctor told me I was too dumb to understand how my pills worked, and I wanted to prove him wrong. When I graduate (finally) I'm going back to CEGEP - here that's a step before University - to do a nursing degree b/c I want to be a psychiatric nurse and help people like me. It's weird I have a degree since none of my friends do, and it's ironic 'cause they all have jobs and I have to spend all my money on school.What were you studying at school? If you could learn anything, would that be it? Would you go back? I know it's REALLY hard with kids, but in some perfect world where we could all have anything, would you?

I used to live up there!  I lived on the WEST ISLAND  Pierre-fonds, Quebec.  I had my middle daughter up there at Lake shore hospital, then she was transfered to Jewish General in Montreal.  She was 5 weeks early and boy was that whole thing a nightmare. I was a Psych major actually studying serial killers ( why?) because I couldn't believe there were such terrible people in this world that would commit such Hannis crimes 

  

Plus they scarred me to death.  The typical scary man with the coke bottle glasses.  I also took writing glasses.  I took Psych classes at a Private college and the writing and Psych at Rutgers University. 

  

I am about 10K in the hole in Student loans in default  I got all screwed up because me and numbers do not get along truly and that is NOT BULL sh... 

I withdrew from my last round of classes because I got sick<mentally> no excuse because I wasn't even diagnosed properly and to be very honest  RUTGERS is just way to BIG! 

  

I WOULD GO BACK IN A heart beat!   It would be my husband who would have a problem with that WE CANT AFFORD IT BLAH BLAH BLAH.... 

  

 I don't even know how many credits I have..Just when I thought I was getting somewhere with behavior and emotion they start talking about Hypothalamus!  UGHHHHH 

  

Yes I would love to go back...I wish I could go to (Princeton) but they don't take transfers in. and I am not rich hahahah 

  

However even though I am 41  did you know its the new 20's?  Write back E.G.  xoxoxo 

that is SOOO strange in a what-are-the-chances kind of way, serendipity ( I think serendipity's the wrong word for what I'm trying to convey, but what am I going to do?) I hate student loans. I mean, it's 'great' that tuition is frozen in Que. but why don't they increase International and out Province fees, put up the cost for Que students in general and then widen the criteria for bursary eligibility: then they could afford to send more people who can't afford it to school for free - or at least cheaper - so they don't end up with stagerring loans and interest when others could easily have afforded a little more in fees to start off with...but I'm ranting. Did you know that the last PQ government forcibly merged all the municipalities on the island of Montreal into one giant city? Everything that used to be cities are 'burroughs' now. In St. Laurent, the day the courts said the municipalities couldn't contest it, they draped their city hall in black cloth. I don't live there, but it was very impressive. What did they do for your daughter when she was born early? Incubator, incredibly long hospital stay? It's terrifying when that happens. I wish I was forty; then maybe I would be somewhere in my life instead of in this limbo, and maybe I would have the perspective to see things that have happened clearly instead of this overwhelming black mass hanging over me, rolling in like a wave. (I stole that image from Wurtzel's "Prozac Nation" just so I don't get sued). I can't believe you went to Rutgers that is just too amazing...!

I have a blood test tomorrow morning; wish me luck, I always get nervous!I got a new GP, and she looked at me funny when she found out that despite a long history of depressive illness (I started trying to kill myself when I was eight years old) no one ever checked to see if my thyroid was functioning properly. Even recently, when there turned out to be history of thyroid problems in my family. So now I find out. And while I'm there I hope I don't test HIV positive: I'm dangerously impulsive in 'romance' and also have many piercings and tattoos. Actually, I'm sure I don't have HIV, I'm just worried about discovering my hormones aren't broken and there goes my lovely quick-fix idea. Tnx in advance :) xoxoxoxox

heres what you need to do because truly it was like only since June 1, 05 since I didn't want to off myself///  Please go and Buy Dr. Phil's book Life Strategies because he can speak to you about internal as well as external factors and tapes etc....He will speak right to your heart.  Its obvious to me if you have been wanting to do this since you have been eight there has been a great deal of sadness eh? 

  

Maybe thyroid  I am not a doctor just someone who has walked on your trail and who has been alone with a BIG black cloud that once loomed that NO LONGER DOES!  I am free.  That book saved my life.  It gave birth to a new me.  It propelled the anger and the rage out of  me and I truly did cry deep primal cry for weeks and I cleansed myself. 

  

I quit smoking in the process as well.  I didn't cheat once either,  because even taking one pull would only truly be cheating me.  I found the people up In Montreal to be very Kind and open and more Free  as espoused to the States side.  For instance we claim to be the Country that has freedom of speech yet fear to say a word about anyone because ewe might sue someone....Yet up there on T.V. 

I recall on the newscast them saying something like.."That Jackass Brain Malrooney" 

  

As far as my daughter goes what a real life nightmare.  She was born at 5 pound.  was shipped off to Jewish General Downtown Montreal,  where last rights were read over her.  She was put in an incubator where she was dropped down to 3 pounds.  Her lung collapsed.  She had jaundice. (yellowing)  Alot of feeding tubes in her nose,  in her head.  I have terrible pictures.  She fit in my hand. 

Truly.. 

I believed the doctors  They said The neurologists said she will never be right..she was going to have problems her whole life etc etc etc and for 13 years I medicated her and believed them.  When Heather said no more it was no more.  I got her off the medications she started to socialize now she has had a steady boyfriend for two years is in HONORS ENGLISH and my middle Baby will be a JR. in H.S. this year!  She has alot of friends..What a difference! 

Hope all went well with your tests.  It would be great if down here in the States if they adopted some sort of "socialist" medical treatments.  Also every person who had a baby got paid when I was up there!  First baby x amount  second baby x amount and so on.....also  each kid every month got a milk money check,,, without embarrassment...In this country kids are looked down upon.. 

  

We really need to flip that situation here.  I truly learned so much when I lived there.  Mostly how to Reade French A.s.a.P.  The year i went up 1987 they took down all ENGLISH signs and were trying to separate.  It so funny and scary too.  I made friends with the Indians.  On there Reservations and bought Bootleg  American Cigarettes  (even though I quit since June 1, 05) still counting the days)  

  

I learned compassion for people who do not speak the main language of the land.  IE for my Country it is English and anyone who does not speak English I always extend myself to them in compassion and understanding because of my experiences up in Quebec! 

  

Well please write back when you can...Study hard at school..Keep coming up with those formula's and do not let anyone STOP YOUR MIND EVER! 

You are an EG! 

Bye Your new Pal   LABEL FREE!  

I totally agree that there needs to be better health care in the US; people told me I should go there when I'm a nurse, but really what happens if you get sick? And who do you get to treat? I'd want to work at a State Hospital since it's closer to what we have here...I remember the baby bonuses; they don't have that anymore b/c instead of trying to raise the birthrate they rely on immigration...but yeah if there was no medicare I'd be out of luck and probably out on the street. But implementation of a two-tier health care system is going through the courts as governments more further right, so we might lose it (2-tier like they want is to 'keep' medicare services for everyone who can't pay but let people with $ jump the line, allowing MD's to practice simultaneously in both systems, which right now is illegal). It's only so long before the $ people ask why they have to pay medicare taxes if they use other services so it doesn't benefit them, right?