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February 5, 2008, 1:32 am PST
Hard Times
So, I'm definatly new to this site, but I was diagnosed with OCD about 3 years ago. I'm in a sophmore in college, 19 years old, and my junior year in highschool was hell for me. I was home schooled for half of the year and missed out on a lot of fun stuff because of OCD. After reading a few of these posts, and after going through therapy and seeing so many different "specialists" i just thought i would share my story.
When i go back and think about everything i've been through with OCD, i remember little things that may have been a sign that i have OCD, but i never really thought about having a disorder. I got to the point that i could not even get myself out of bed, i was to afraid, that i would find something wrong and have to obsesse over it, it was the worst feeling, but i didnt know what i had or what was going on with me, i just couldnt do anything and i wasnt myself. my mom was lost also, she didnt know what to do either, she almost lost her job becaues of having to take care of me. I must have seen atleast 2 or 3 therapist before i found the one that was right. He then referd me to a doctor that he worked with and they both took care of me.
It was the hardest thing i've ever had to go through. Admitting that i had OCD was he first step, no one wants to admit they have a disorder, but its so much eaiser when you do, my therpist was amazing, he worked at my pase to get over things, and he never pushed me too hard, when he saw i was pushed, he would take a break and jsut talk, he also explained to me that there are SOOO many different kinds of OCD, and that one in four people have some kind of OCD, its just a matter of how worse, and easy they can get over it. I read a story of a 16y/o batteling with OCD, from my own opinion, the medicine does kind of bring you down a little at first, but like someone else said, sometimes its finding the right meds.
its such a hard thing to go through, if your a parent and have a child, try to understand that its not what we want to be dong, we cant help it, and we thank you for dealing with what we have to go through to get better. If your batteling it, it can be SO hard and make you want to just give up, but dont, dont at all, its not worth it.
Sometimes i do have tendencies to obsses about things, and it gets hard even after treatment, but once u talk to someone that can explain exactly what your going through, then you understand it better, and there are so many websites with quotes and things that can just inspire you.
OCD is a hard battle, whoever reads this, dont give up.
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