Quote From: profderienhi all -- and welcome back to ms. maggie and pat --
warning, warning: depression ahead!
these are tough days and nights -- everything runs together and i cannot get ahead of the pain. riding in the car so much yesterday was rough.
why can't i be one of those remarkable people who get sick and then start foundations, raise awareness and money for research, give interviews, i would be tan and svelte, independently wealthy, with long blond tresses, , and -- of course -- no outward signs of decrepitude, uselessness, or pain.
ah, well.
talk at you later. love,
prof
Good morning prof...and good morning to all...
Prof...I hope you can get the depression under control...with bipolar disorder, I'm really familiar with depression...it follows a manic episode...the higher I go, the lower I crash...and sometimes, it pops up for no apparent reason...
I think when a person is laid up and not doing the "routine" things of life, it does become harder to track time...and time goes so slowly when in pain...I hope that you can find a way to get the pain under control...I'm still thinking "healing" thoughts for you...and now I'll think "happy" thoughts too...
Those "remarkable" people are few and far between...and they probably have a whole lot of help from relatives and friends...they don't do it by themselves...and "tan and blonde" aren't all they're cracked up to be...but you could get a blonde wig and some of that self-tanning spray!!
I can see the depression in your writing...I don't suppose the doctors want to add antidepressants to your long list of meds?
And we don't see you as "useless" on this board...you are a rock and foundation...you are an inspiration to many of us here...you have so much knowledge and experience...just remember...you're not old, you're experienced...
I hope that your road to recovery will have fewer bumps as time rolls on...and speaking of bumps...a moving car on a bumpy road is the "worst" for a post-surgical body...I remember it well...it was then that I wished that doctors still made house calls...
Maggie...so glad to hear from you...how are you doing with the CPAP? I've been thinking of you...how have you been?
Dianah...glad to hear that you are receiving the warm weather...and glad to hear that the horse is taking to her training...I have very little experience with horses...when we went out to my sister's ranch, I always seemed to get the horse who didn't want a rider...she would walk too close to the trees as we rode by...trying to "lose the rider"...I've fallen off of almost every horse I've ever ridden...and now my body isn't up to falling off of a horse anymore.
Our dogs and the neighbor's dogs are still barking wildly at each other whenever they are out at the same time...the neighbor has lived there for 3 months...you'd think that the dogs would give it up by now...but they're getting better...I discovered that a good squirt with the hose will make them be quiet...the neighbor's labrador just wants to play...and he is very rambunctious at the fence...and our dogs react...especially Mandy...she gets her hackles up...like she really means business...but since I got out the hose, the dogs have been behaving better...maybe Pavlov really did know what he was talking about...
Middle son is working on homework...it is "late Wednesday"...the teachers have collaboration meetings in the morning on Wednesdays, and the kids get an extra hour of sleep (or extra homework time), with school starting an hour late...and I get a few extra minutes to come here with my coffee...I will have to get off of the computer at a moment's notice to let him print his poem...the kids' computer doesn't have a printer...too expensive to buy ink for two printers...so he'll use a flash drive and print from our printer...
I need to go wake up the youngest son...so I'll come back a little later...middle son needs the printer...
Becky