I was being babysetted by one of the boys, my Dad had Died and Mom had to go to work,, they CARRIED ME into HER BEDROOM , I REMEMBER THAT MUCH and that THEY LAID ON ME , which has giving me phopia all my life, they were too heavy on me,, Their was always a BLACK SPOT in my mind and I knew something must have happen, didnt know what,,, I was DIFFERENT my PICTURES TOLD EVERYTHING IF ONLY SOMEONE HAD LOOKED ,,, MY EYES WERE BIG, LOST ,EMPTY, COLD, SCARED, STARE , NO MORE SPARKLES IN MY EYES,, I wonder why didnt ANYONE SEE my EYES ,,,,CLOSING down, no PLAYING, LAUGHTING,, BUT YOU CAN BET an old man SAW THEM , HE KNEW, and he was paying us kids money to clean up a house he and his workers had just built, then he ask me( 7 or 8)and another girl (8or9) if we wanted to make more money to clean up the inside of course we said yea,,,, He gave her a room and me a room ,, ha,, he came in and held me while he was fingering me I cried it hurt, Then the other girl ,, The other girl's little sister told me he was a dirty ole man and he not suppose to do that,, I ask, He's not?? Then dont know if my Mom did anything about it, she was probley all worried about bills and looking for a job.. But I then knew that it was wrong and he came after me and I screamed DONT YOU TOUCH ME ANY MORE AND GLARED AT HIM,,I have never FORGOTTEN the ENERGY I felt with telling him that, It was POWERFUL and I have used it all my life, with all the others that thought they could touch me ,, no one ever did again,,,I have written licence plate #;s in my candy bar of the man showing his privates and wanted to know if I needed a ride home,, I used that engery again, and he took off, The police came and I found him in files pics. He did time, I was 11 and then at 15 he did it again I turned him in again, I wasnt sure it was him but seeing him made me real uneasy, so I went with my feelings sure enough, They said he'd been out a week,, back in he goes, I left the state, but I always wonder who will he try or get next time,, WHY DO THEY GET OUT???? over the years I have turned in so many people for these actions,, But as usuall they get out,,,
I was never sexually active as a teen or woman, I have been confused and wondered WHY,,, WELL I AM 54, AND I JUST REMEMBERED WHAT HAPPENED, I KNOW NOW THAT THEY RAPED ME,, I go for thearpy, Yea our lives are different, we suffer and our actions arent the "norm"
My Mom's boyfriend at 13 started to beat on us kids, it took me 3 months to learn to fight, I never let him hurt any of us again, I became a very cold and mean, I used any tool anything became a weapon,, then he made me learn to fight and how to kill with a finger, If I didnt do it right he hit me harder. so I became great and had no feeling,, I was the fighter I was the winner,, I have PROTECTED KIDS AND PEOPLE all my life from being beat,,, and that ENERGY WAS WITH ME. SO I WAS SUPER STRONG.,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
FOR THE BABY GIRL I JUST HOPE SHE WILL REMEMBER LIKE ME IF SHE EVER HAS TOO... I know what to do tho I cried and I hurt,, But I know why my life was so different from others now. one thing tho' Mom did teach us about GOD and that has kept me from just killing ,, One of my bf's tried to get my 13 yr old daughter to give him a kiss,, I had a strange feeling and knew something was wronge,, I went straight to them and asked what is he doing?? She said he wanted a kiss..
WRONG ,,,,,,, I TOOK HIM HOME AND ON THE WAY HE WAS GETTING MAD,, HA ,,,I HAD A TIRE TOOL THE L SHAPED ONE AND I KEPT IT BETWEEN MY SEATS BY THE SHIFTER,, (YA NEVER KNOW) YEP, HE WAS MINE , I stopped the car and pulled out the tool and put it in his gut and told him IF HE EVEN LOOKED AT MY DAUGHTER THAT WOULD BE THE LAST THING HE WILL SEE, THEN I even pushed it in alittle more, to let him know I meant it.. My daughter is 30 and was never touched, nor my son BECAUSE I LOOKED AND TRUSTED MY FEELINGS WHEN SOMETHING FELT WRONG,,, I WAS ON IT LIKE A SNAKE.. WE JUST NEED TO LOOK AT OUR KIDS TRUST OUR FEELINGS, ITS ALL THEIR, AND SO SIMPLE, WE JUST DONT GET TRAINED TO SEE IT OR USE IT,,, SOME DAY I WILL HAVE A WAY TO SHOW PEOPLE WHAT TO SEE IN OUR CHILDREN NOT TELL US SHOW US,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
You've read the headlines, now watch the story about a crime so heinous some would rather see the suspect dead than in jail. The manhunt for the nation's most wanted alleged pedophile ended last night as fugitive Chester Stiles, accused in the videotaped molestation of a three-year-old girl, was arrested outside Las Vegas. Stiles had been wanted since October 5 on warrants issued for 21 felony charges in connection with acts seen on the videotape. Could you spot a child predator? Is your family at risk? Be there when Dr. Phil tells you the warning signs to watch for -- you'll be shocked! Plus, the reported victim's mother breaks her silence in an exclusive interview with Dr. Phil. Then, hear what Stiles' ex-girlfriend's son has to say, and what the victim remembers about the attack. If it's happening now, Dr. Phil is going to deal with it now! Don't miss this breaking news Dr. Phil Now. Join the discussion.
