Topic : Defining Your Authentic Self

Remember these words when you think that we are all in the same boat. 

A sailor went to sea, sea, sea, 

To see what he could see, see, see 

But all that he could see, see, see 

Was the bottom of the deep blue sea, sea, sea. 

(see= looking outwards, sea = self) 

Taemanai 

Everyone, 

Yesterday we had a horrible experience here, and I am not handling it well at all.  I am asking to draw on everyone else's strength here, as I am not strong enough to handle this one alone. 

I was in Idaho Falls yesterday with my kids, which is 3 hours away from home.  I left in the wee hours of the morning, about 5:45.  It was dark.  During the night, my boyfriend/mate had heard a dog barking and the goats making some noise, but when he stepped outside it stopped, so he came back in.  Even though it is close to a full moon, the clouds made it dark.   

When it was light he went out to check things out and found our goats had been brutally attacked, laying in ribbons...blood everywhere.  The three adult goats where slashed to bits...the babies utterly untouched...yet one was covered in blood, but no wounds.   

They were attacked by dogs...how many we don't know.  They protected the babies, and they paid so dearly for it.  One had to be put down by our neighbor as he was screaming in pain.  The other two may not make it, they are in horrible shape.... 

I was called while with my kids and felt so powerless.  My boyfriend/mate does not deal with injury things well at all, and I could hear the horror in his voice when he described what he had found.  Our dear, brave friends were chased and attacked for sport.  

I am so stunned by the violence of this.  This is something you see in horror movies, not your home.  I am angry, because someone's dog came home bloody last night and they are doing nothing to find out who their dog killed.  I am angry because a brave soul ended up losing his life after protecting his charges, and heroes aren't supposed to die that way.  

I know this sounds silly, yet at the same time these goats have become parts of our family.  They work, they love, and they didn't deserve this senseless brutality.   

I have been sobbing on and off since yesterday, and here I go again.  It is time to go check them and wash their wounds, which causes them great pain plus they hate water, and at least love them.  If they need to go, to die, at least I can be with them through that.  I have a rule that nobody here is to die alone.  If they need to be put down, I hold them while it happens, even if it is the neighbor shooting them.  I don't know, I am so upset by this that I am vomiting and soooo angry.  I had dreams of killing the dog with a baseball bat...waking knowing the dog only did what came natural to him, and it is his owner's who are at fault, yet I don't want it to come back, and if it does, we will be ready.   

Please, if you pray, pray for all of us.  Pray we handle this and that the goats not suffer needlessly.  Pray for strength and comfort for us.  I would appreciate it.   

Teri 

I was afraid to fly at one point also, however, MY Identical twin was 3000 miles away and it had been a year since I had even seen her. I was terrified but I flew. I've been flying for many many years, now! 

Dr. Phil had a show on phobias just last week I bet that there is information on this very site that would help!!!! 

Just consider it!!!!! 

Brenda :-) 

I am not Michelyne , However she is very wonderful friend of mine , People tend to get us mixed up a lot . Guess that’s because we share a lot the same ideas & feelings & name . However - Thank You for the information on Dr Phil’s shows - Have not had much time to sit and watch them . I will go back and read up on it . It not that I am scared to fly - I just do not like feeling of being closed in such small area - with out way out . Thanks - Lynne.  

Everyone, 

Yesterday we had a horrible experience here, and I am not handling it well at all.  I am asking to draw on everyone else's strength here, as I am not strong enough to handle this one alone. 

I was in Idaho Falls yesterday with my kids, which is 3 hours away from home.  I left in the wee hours of the morning, about 5:45.  It was dark.  During the night, my boyfriend/mate had heard a dog barking and the goats making some noise, but when he stepped outside it stopped, so he came back in.  Even though it is close to a full moon, the clouds made it dark.   

When it was light he went out to check things out and found our goats had been brutally attacked, laying in ribbons...blood everywhere.  The three adult goats where slashed to bits...the babies utterly untouched...yet one was covered in blood, but no wounds.   

They were attacked by dogs...how many we don't know.  They protected the babies, and they paid so dearly for it.  One had to be put down by our neighbor as he was screaming in pain.  The other two may not make it, they are in horrible shape.... 

I was called while with my kids and felt so powerless.  My boyfriend/mate does not deal with injury things well at all, and I could hear the horror in his voice when he described what he had found.  Our dear, brave friends were chased and attacked for sport.  

I am so stunned by the violence of this.  This is something you see in horror movies, not your home.  I am angry, because someone's dog came home bloody last night and they are doing nothing to find out who their dog killed.  I am angry because a brave soul ended up losing his life after protecting his charges, and heroes aren't supposed to die that way.  

I know this sounds silly, yet at the same time these goats have become parts of our family.  They work, they love, and they didn't deserve this senseless brutality.   

I have been sobbing on and off since yesterday, and here I go again.  It is time to go check them and wash their wounds, which causes them great pain plus they hate water, and at least love them.  If they need to go, to die, at least I can be with them through that.  I have a rule that nobody here is to die alone.  If they need to be put down, I hold them while it happens, even if it is the neighbor shooting them.  I don't know, I am so upset by this that I am vomiting and soooo angry.  I had dreams of killing the dog with a baseball bat...waking knowing the dog only did what came natural to him, and it is his owner's who are at fault, yet I don't want it to come back, and if it does, we will be ready.   

Please, if you pray, pray for all of us.  Pray we handle this and that the goats not suffer needlessly.  Pray for strength and comfort for us.  I would appreciate it.   

Teri