I totally related to this guys situation. I will be 40 in September and I used to be a major drug user when I was younger. Somehow, I just lost the desire to do drugs and stopped cold turkey. For about 12 years or so, I was totally clean, with the exception of social drinking. I got married at 30 and had 4 children. The kids are now 7,6,5 and 2. I had an operation in October , 2003 which had complications. In order to correct what went wrong, I needed some healing to happen--so, my Doctor prescribed me pain killers for about 4 months. After the corrective surgery, he refused to write any prescriptions, saying that I should no longer have pain, but I was already addicted.
I realized that I could buy hydrocodone on line and that seemed to solve my problem. For about a year and a half, I would get 2-4 deliveries a week. I used different websites and ended up spending a ton of money. My husband did not understand addiction, and kept telling me to "just quit"-- he was of no support! I called my insurance company out of desperation and was told what my options were. They wanted me to go to a Doctor in town and get seboxin (spelled right?) which would completely eliminate withdrawal discomfort. I didn't think that would sell my problem, I felt I needed an inpatient program. So, I went in to rehab and stayed clean for a number of months.
My father, who lives in Spain, came to visit in June (he was totally aware of my rehab stint) and asked if I could get any cocaine---so, I did. Now, just about every day since then, I have been doing cocaine. I haven't told my dad---but, he is really the reason for this relapse!!!
I really do not enjoy the feeling I am getting from this drug use because my guilt is greater. I hope I can kick this habit soon. I, like the desperate husband, waited faithfully for the Fedex man and counted my pills every day. Why do drugs produce such a tight grip on people????
(Original Air Date: 05/25/05) On the outside, their lives seem perfect, but these husbands are carrying heavy burdens. With Dr. Phil's help, they end the deception by confessing their secrets to their wives. Not only has Greg been lying to his wife, but he's also been putting her life in danger. Is he ready to come clean? Then, Ed, who's been married for nearly 20 years, says he feels like a complete fraud. Can his relationship survive his shocking confession? Plus, a stay-at-home father of five who's ready for a change. Share your thoughts, join the discussion.
