Quote From: jacquelinaChristina,
well, since i can't PM you and tell you who it is, then i might as well tell you who it is in front of God and everyone. it's Josh Groban, and he's 24 years old, and has a 27 year-old skinny gf by the name of January Jones. and yes, his fans are of all ages, b/c of his voice and type of music, which is rare with a singer. some of his fans are old enough to be his mother, and even grandmother. some are happily married.
celebrity obsession isn't something new to me. i've obsessed over celebs since i was in elementary school. it only escalated after i got to middle school, when i was well into puberty, and my insecurities were magnified like never before. the kids at school, who dressed better and had more money and friends than me, mercilessly picked on me often, not caring how much it hurt, unless they were gonna get in trouble with the teachers. so that's what made it worse, considering that i was a misfit at school, was that i was obsessed with that teen group HANSON, especially its frontman, Taylor, who had feminine beauty, along with blond hair and blue eyes. before then, i was obsessed with Michael Jackson; it started in the 1st grade, when i was 7. i thought he was the most beautiful man with the best singing voice and dance moves EVER. but that was until HANSON came along in 1997.
they had long, beautiful blond hair, and my hair was about the same length, so i tried doing my hair like theirs, which was more difficult, b/c i'm African-American. back in Feb. of '98 i washed my hair for several days after getting a perm with Pert-Plus shampoo, [the best shampoo i've ever used in my life which did my hair wonders, so my hair was really soft and had body and movement, so i was really happy. my father was in jail, so they pretty much kept me sane. during that time, i ate, slept, and BREATHED HANSON. i didn't really care about their personal lives, though, b/c i didn't have Internet access, so i couldn't check up on that, plus they were paid to keep mum about their personal lives. plus, i knew for sure they were all single, so i didn't worry about that.
then there was my family, the people who were supposed to love, support, and care for me. my mother treated [and still treats to this day my older sister better than me, so i assumed that she loved her more than me, and i still do. i'm a middle child, so i often [and still do get overlooked. my elder and younger sisters always got treated better than me. so you'll have to understand why i would naturally turn somewhere else [material things, looks, and celebs for happiness, even though i know that those things are only an illusion and don't bring happiness.
i would say more, but that's all i have time for tonight.
-Elicia (Jacquelina)
Well my name is Christina, and I writing this to try and help teens with their obsessions with celebrities and or their CRUSHES. We’ve all had those, and we all know that they can be the best feeling, and sometimes they can end up making you feel like complete and total HELL!!!!!!! And I’m here to tell you my story.
I’ve had my fair share of crushes, from when I was 10 till now (I’m 15 years old), It all started in like the 5th grade, there was this guy named Jesse in all my classes (in elementary school anyone who was in my home room class was in all my other classes), turns out he liked me too, so we went out, we didn’t really know what dating was so basically we just hung out at school and ate lunch together. That relationship didn’t last very long, a little less then a month we broke up, then troy came along that relationship lasted only 2 weeks before I found out he was dating one of my friends 4 days after we started going out. So let’s just say I haven’t had the best luck when it came romance.
But it was Elementary School, I was a kid then, I thought my luck would change once I got into High School, and it did, FOR THE WORSE!!! My first crush was in secondary 1, his name was Scott, every time I passed by him in the hall I’d get weak in the knee’s. But that feeling ended when I found out he was dating another girl in my grade, I felt bad but it passed.
Then once I got into secondary 2 my whole world changed, His name is Joey, it was his first day at are school, and he came up to me and introduced himself to me and asked me where one of his classes was. I will never forget that day. But about the middle of the school year, he found a girlfriend, the love of his life, his Cinderella, his one and only, and the list goes on. But during the summer they didn’t see each other as often and things were falling apart, and they broke up.
When I got into secondary 4, I finally figured out I was in love with him, I wanted to spend all my time with him, talk to him as often as I could, and then one day I got up the courage and asked him if we had a chance at going out? And he said “maybe, but don’t get your hopes up”, and silly me I got my hopes up. About 3 weeks after I POPED the question, I asked him what he meant by “Maybe, but don’t get your hopes up”, so I asked and he said “I meant no in a nice way”. I was heartbroken. But time passed and I got used to the fact that I wouldn’t be his girlfriend, so I gave up. And focused on something else, CELEBRITIES.
It started with a little crush on Benjamin McKenzie from The O.C., and then it escalated into something, I was OBSESSED with him, I started to fantasize about being his wife the mother of his children, going to the Emmy’s and The Oscars with him, just being in his life.
After a while that obsession past, then I found another guy to obsess over…… Jay McGraw. Yup you got that right DR.PHIL’S SON!!!!!!!!!! This all started when I was having a hard time at school, self esteem, my weight, my parents. That’s when I started to read Jay’s books. Everything that he had written his books felt like he wrote it just for me. That’s when the crush started.
It was just like the crush I had with Benjamin McKenzie, only worse. If Jay McGraw was on a T.V. interview, show, movie, comedy act, anything like that I HAD TO WATCH IT, especially when Renovate My Family (the show that he host’s) was on, I couldn’t miss an episode. Again I would imagine myself being with him, marrying him, being a family, that sort of thing. I didn’t think it was a big deal until, I FOUND OUT!!!!!!!!
HE WAS ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That was the worst day of my life. When I found that out, I was a mess. I didn’t eat, sleep, I just cried for a week. Even at school I tried so hard not to cry, but I couldn’t help it. This might sound silly but, I felt alone, betrayed, and depressed, when I found out. I heard it on the radio, so I thought maybe it was a rumor. But when I went online I saw under “news” Jay McGraw Engaged!!!!!!! My whole world fell apart right then and there. Then saw a picture of him and his new Bride-to-be, it was one of the triplets from Renovate My Family, Erica Dahm. After that I started to see a therapist. We talked about school, parents, LOVE, and my celebrity obsessions. My therapist told me that I’ve been having these feelings for stars, because in my mind, they helped me ignore my problems and helped my self esteem, whether it was problems with my parents, school, friends, it helped. And she told me not to feel ashamed about it because EVERYBODY, whether they like to admit it or not, have crushes on celebrities, some are more intense then others, but there are others going through the same thing as you are. And I hope be my writing this letter that I can get more teens on the message boards to open up about this subject, before it get’s to their heads. I guess that’s it if anyone wants to talk o tell me what they liked or didn’t like about this then I’m on the Depressed message boards my user name is “ilovetheoc” . Now my mind is on Benjamin McKenzie again but is isn’t as bad because deep down I think I still have feelings for Jay !