Topic : 03/08 Stalking the Stars

You are not alone. Although my eating disorder didn't originally stem from wanting the look like a celebrity, I definately feel that my obsession with the way certain stars look fuels it. I've been struggling with anorexia since I was about 10 years old. I'm now 16 years old and 5'7". At this height I've gotten down to 110 pounds. I look to Keira Knightley as "thinspiration". I think she is absolutely gorgeous. I watch all of her movies. I have a scrapbook with a bunch of pictures of her I've collected off the internet and in magazines. I dress like her and try to wear my hair and make-up the same way. We're the same height and it has been said that Keira Knightley weighs 115 pounds, but I dont' believe that. Even at 110 pounds, I still felt huge compared to her. I don't know how many people are aware of this, but there is a whole underground movement of girls on xanga.com who have eating disorders. I think that most people on this site who actually have an eating disorder (some people just pretend like they do...which is pretty screwed up) have the same feelings towards certain stars as I do. It's definately a problem, most are aware of this, but I don' think anything is going to change anytime soon. 

what girl who likes marykate isn't doing the same exact thing, hundreds are. just check greatestjournal, livejournal or myspace. i'm 16 and i love marykate olsen so much, and i have more respect for her now that she is recovering but i'm not judging her and putting her name everywhere and reminding her of her mistakes. this girl does need help but her parents shouldn't have brought her on a television show in front of millions of people. that's a job a psychologist should deal with. i'm sure this girl felt more pressure knowing that all these people were watching her and just purged even more, and i doubt this will even sink in. she needs to go away and slowly realize what's going on and she needs to want to get better or she won't, and i highly doubt she want's too - because with all the attention she's getting on her looks, i don't think she wants all the crude jokes to start coming back. 

I was reading some of Doctor McGraws Tips. 

Nut Cracker Jokes.  lol 

It is  like in self Defense,  Hitting in the Family Jewels(Crotch area)..lol,Nut Cracker Jokes,  Or break a knee or open Hand in eyes.  Ladies then Run. 

TC. 

They happened to be at the right place at the right time. Look at the Olsen twins; their mother took them for an audition when they were just babies, so they grew up in front of the cameras and became famous.  Suppose one of the other baby twin-sets had landed the roles?  The Olsens would have grown-up, gone to school, married, had regular jobs and nobody would have heard of them.  Why pattern your life after someone who happened to get lucky in the entertainment world?  

I admire people who spend their lives helping others.  Nurses, firemen, teachers -- I would much rather be like them. 

BTW.  I  weighed 105 lbs (5'6") for many  years.  Then one day I started to gain, due to several different factors. Now I'm around 150.  I'm just as happy now as I was thin. Maybe a little happier.  It was nice to walk down the street and have heads turn because I "looked like a model" but it's also nice to eat cookies and ice-cream while watching an old movie on TV.    Life is short -- have fun! 

I agree with others. I don't envy them. I don't want to be them. I almost feel sorry for them. Well, I feel sorry for those like the Hilton sisters who more or less grew up into it, yet they really didn't make their names internationally known until they put themselves out there, and not in a good way.  

I'm quite thin. I want to gain weight. I'm six feet tall and weigh probably just under 150. Not good. My husband is concerned because he can count my ribs. Yesterday morning, not realizing I had lost weight I didn't know I had to lose, I bumped my elbow against my hip bone and I could really feel it, more so than before. Yikes. However, my low-fat, whole foods almost-vegan diet certainly helps with that. I get looks when I wear my every day clothes of jeans and kahakis with dressy Tshirts, sweaters, blouses and dressy-casual boots. Even though I've not walked for recreation or exercise or hardly done a yoga pose since Semptember (I got lazy), I still turn heads. I'm sure that if I were to put on a skirt and blouse and covered my hairy, untoned legs with hose, I would still turn heads. However, I did when I weighed 10-15 pounds more. 

Somebody said that she wanted a celbrity's life becuase s/he would then know that she is loved, and worth stalking (the paparazzi). Yet, s/he would never have any real privacy. S/He would be "hated" the second she did something "wrong" or have people "hate" her/him simply because she is "pretty" and famous. Not the life I want. I am valued and loved because God chose to give me life. I am valued and loved because I have been blessed with a family, a husband who just loves me for me, and friends who also love me for me. While my office support job may not be glamours, I like it and I'm good at it. (I was joking with the secretary the other day that I could be doing grunt work in a factory for more money or do grunt work here and like it and be able to wear real clothes as opposed to a uniform or grubbies.)  

That's what matters.