Topic : 01/05 "Am I Cursed?"

Mine is one.  She has been diagnosed as paranoid schizophenic, bi-polar.  She plays the devote Christian, but does not act Christian-like.  My mother is 80 and has been saying that she is ill for 45 years now.  Whether true or not, she uses her diagnosis to be a the answer to her selfishness, manipulation, laziness and uncontrolled spending of money.  She has had 4 toilets in her house in 20 years, 3 a/c heating units in 20 years.  She eats unendingly and abuses laxatives, which cause her to be ill and then complains about being ill constantly.  I have told her that anyone as sick as she says she is would have died already.   

You are not alone, but you have to get a life in which she is completely absent.  I am serious about this.  You must not let her know your phone number, not allow her to contact you.  You must take control of when you see her and for how long.  I hope that you do not live with her,  you must have a life of your own where no one knows her or she does not influence anyone in your circle of friends.  As my mother does, she probably tells lies about how badly you treat her and lies about other things in her life.  By having a life separate from hers, you can rid yourself of the emotional damage she has created.  When you find yourself thinking about it, tell yourself to stop it and think of something else. 

You should read Dr Ernest Holmes "Science of the Mind" 

World religions/spiritual beliefs have more in common than you think. 

To assume that others are wrong is completely arrogant. 

Hi Terri, 

I think that this is the point where some give and take is needed so to speak.  In life I have often found that when two are at odds, sometimes strickness is not the best alternative.  I can see that you understand the environment on Native American reservations today.  I am extremely grateful for the compassion and sharing that I have experienced since my return home.   

I was not raised with my family, due to circumstances beyond my control.  I was born in 1952 and immediately taken from my Native American parents, because they were Indians.  I was then placed in a non-Native home and raised to be white.  I learned to live with the life that I had been placed in and did fairly well for myself.  Finally, at the age of 40 I broke the chains of adoption and began a search for my "real" family.  After thinking that this would be costly and may take a long time I prepared my self for that.  To my complete surprise I was talking to my oldest sister only 45 minutes later.  It was not until 1998, that my husband of 29+ years and I moved across the country to be closer to my family.  I have been spending the past 7+ yrs surviving and living with my relatives.  When we got here I had a job with the tribe, after all I had always had a job.  Not always had a place to live but always had a job.  Within three months I had become so ill that I was fired from my tribal job and my world turned upside down.   

Before coming home I have often thought I knew the meaning of words like: prejudice, hate, etc.  I had no idea, as most people who live in the cities do not have.  I could give you the defination of the words but to understand the pain and extreme anger, I had much to learn.  Over the past 7+ yrs my life has gone totally out to a zero income for an extended period of time, to a place now where I am better health wise.  Three years ago I was diagnosed with IBS, Acid Reflux, Digestive Disorders, and PTSD.  Today I do ok due to the small allotment from the SSDI.  I have also completed a degree in Environmental Science  with honors, from our tribal college.  I believe that we all can bounce back but some people do not have the courage or strength to try one more time.   

I appreciate your post and understand that the message you were sending.  I do agree that sometimes we get lost in our everyday lives and forget there is a world out there.  Maybe there is a way to disagree and agree at the same time.  I sorry if my message has caused you any offense. 

Whispering Eagle 

Hi Amy Jayne 

I like that challenge.  How can we let Dr Phil know about it???  I was thinking of him at a community meeting with some of my fellow tribal members,  most of whom I am related to.  And in the back of my mind I could see him standing in front of everyone and hear him saying "what were you thinking?"   

Come on Dr. Phil  Here is a real challenge!! 

I would like to share a joke that was going around out here after a few seasons of the the reality show "Survivor".  People out here were saying, "hey, I got the next survivor location: Survivor Indian Style".  The plan was to put a group of these people on a reservation like in the middle of the Navajo reservation and let them try to survive on govt commodities and handouts for a while.  It was quite a hoot and got many laughs, but of course it was a way  to cope with a situation that daily seems to be out of control for many people out here.   

Help is needed but not the cold heartless govt help, but something more compassionate, and caring.  Although I do not participate in the alcohol or the drugs or other illegal activities, I am concerned that people that I do not know yet are going to be gone too soon.  Do you know how long it takes to get to know over 4,000 relatives??? 

Whispering Eagle 

My first demonic experience happend at the age of 9 after the death of my brother, when I was young everyone told me they were just bad dreams...now at the age of 41 they say I'm just nuts and UNDER medicated. 

My personal experiences would blow your mind, but sharing what happened to me is not why I'm writing, I'm writing because through the years I have learned a great deal about this subject and trust me it's not uncommon. 

 I am in know way going to start preaching but the Bible is filled with examples of not only possession but being tormented by demons...even Christ himself was tomented while hanging on the cross and I can assure you Christ was not possessed he was tormented, he was also tempted in the wilderness. This should be proof enough that you don't have to be an evil person to be possessed or tormented...was Christ evil? 

What worked for me: 

God does tell us how to cast out demons in HIS name.  

I know you have tried this but remember one important thing when you cast them out do you believe that they have to leave or  do you doubt the living God? 

Remember that the scriptures do say that demons cannot harm us, they are able to get to certian people though their weakness, for example fear, illness, drugs, and evil...etc. we can be weak in so many ways. 

Pray for God to take your weakness away, and again don't doubt that he will, pray for faith...you don't get it unless you ask. 

Last word of advice... 

Do what I do at night and you "Will Not" have demon attacks, be tormented, demonic dreams. 

When I go to bed I put a tape on of the Bible on cassette, demons are terrified of the word of God, when these words are going into your mind the demons will flee from you...just like God says! 

If you have demonic problems during the day while you are wide awake, like myself...pray, read scriptures, listen on tape. 

Do not feel guilty that the demons choose you, if you think for 1 second that they haven't got to the rest of the world...take another look at the world. 

God be with you. 

Ok, I know this is totally off subject.  But maybe this board could use a little lightening up.  I total love what you said about the next survivor location, too funny.  In my household we also have a running joke that they should really come to Iowa and try to survive and Iowan winter.  But then I guess that wouldn't probably be too much of a ratings booster as they couldn't strut around in their bikini's anymore.  I still think it would be a true survivor though, your idea and mine as well. :) 

On a different note, I totally agree that compassion can go a long way.  I am very proud of the work my sister-in-law is doing, especially because she's going into the grade schools and getting the children tested for eye problems and diseases.  She's really put a lot of passion into her work and I think that is why God placed her there.  I just pray that you will receive more people with such passion.  It truely shows that one person can make a great difference.  I think a lot of us should learn that. 

I can't imagine how good it must feel to have so many relatives so close.  My family is so spread out, wish we could be a little closer together. :) 

Amy :)