Topic : Borderline Personality Disorder

Quote From: mentalanemia

Hello, my name is Rem and I was recently diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder along with a myriad of other side disorders.

Since the diagnosis I've been doing heavy research on the subject and am completely shocked. I've been in the mental health system since 2004 and been mentally unhealthy for as long as I can remember. In that time, I took psychology classes and ate up all the books I could find on the subject. I was diagnosed with Depression, and thus treated. I found some of my symptoms in a handful of random disorders, but never one that fit me completely. After the depression medications started having adverse effects, my diagnosis was changed to Bipolar, and was thus treated. Things never changed. I made choices to better my life, tighten my mind up and resisted the things I knew were wrong, but they never went away. Five years of therapy taught me how to disconnect myself from myself so I can view my actions and feelings as nothing more than an observer. But my quality of life hasn't improved. Me and my family finally had enough, and I went to a clinical psychologist to have a full evaluation. This is what came back: Borderline Personality, severe Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and a type of epilepsy that doesn't involve actual seizures.

I have no read four books on the subject of Borderline and can't help but think "Where was this diagnosis all my life?". I fit all nine of nine criterion that are specified, as well as many of the somatoform disorders and disruptions in circadian rhythm.

My therapist says I'm lucky that she's going to continue treating me, as she normally doesn't take on Borderline patients. I just got the actual report, meaning that only now can I go to my shrink to change my medication. My therapist warns me that it's likely that the shrink will refuse treatment because of this diagnosis.

There are no real life support groups for this kind of disorder here, as I live in pretty much the middle of nowhere. The only online groups I can find are for the families of Borderlines, but not for Borderlines themselves. Two of them actually frown upon those diagnosed with Borderline joining. I want to become an active part in the borderline community. And for those who are interested in doing that as well, including participating in Awareness Walks and purchasing Awareness merchandise, or if you live in the Northern Virginia area and are willing to become part of a support group for BPD or other similar disorders, please email me. My email address is in my profile.

Quote From: stayingtuned

I am not BPD, my wonderful, smart- talented daughter is. I just wanted to comment that I really think you are brilliant, I still and probably will never really comprehend the disease,but, I like how you spell it out hear and TOTALLY AGREE, More support groups for the people with BPD are needed as is therapist's WILLING to step up to the plate and suck it up and start helping people with this disease!! Keep talking Rem and reaching out, you are creating something and you sound like a leader to me!