Messages By: emma08

Hi everyone.....its been awhile since I've posted, reason is I got a new job that I started on the 14th of June and I've been working 6 days a week. I've been feeling better, but I still have my bouts of depression and moments of utter happiness all at the same time. Its like night & day with me, but hopefully I get by. Plus my state funded insurance company ( Medicaid) messed up and never changed my doctor so I haven't been to see another doctor who will be willing to get to the bottom of my illness, if I even have one, so I'm still only on Wellbutrin XL for my so-called anxiety and nothing for my depression. But for now, I believe that me getting a good paying job is one of my prayers being answered and that my husband and I will finally be able to get out of debt and back on our feet, but only time will tell. However, Perry, my husband, hasn't had any work in almost a month due to lack of work and a back injury......go figure huh?? Well anyway I'm making pretty good money for now but sooner or later Perry will have to get back to work, so keep us in your thoughts and prayers. Hope all is as well as it can be for everyone. Have a blessed day and remember Jesus loves you!!  

Patti  

(Emma08)   

Yes, Welbutrin XL is for depression and numerous other conditions as well. My doctor first put me on it last year for anxiety and to help me quit smoking and to help me lose weight. It helped me quit smoking( I've been smoke free since Jan of 2005, Yahoo!!), but that is all, I feel nothing else has changed, as a matter of fact since quitting smoking I've gained like 25lbs  : (   and I still suffer with my bouts of depression and feelings of worthlessness and not being good enough. I have bouts of rage as well, especially at home with my children, why? I really can't say. All I can say is it makes me feel worse when I yell at my kids or my husband, but I keep doing it???? I told my doctor I wanted to try something stronger for depression and she said no, because she thinks its not depression, but "anxiety" that is why I wanted to switch doctors. Anyway, I talked to Medicaid today and they are sending me a new list of doctors so I can pick another doctor. The one I choosen stopped taking new patients, so see if its not one thing, its ALWAYS something else, but in time things will get better....I know they will because I've got God on my side and all of you guys here on the boards support. Thank all of you so much and thanks for taking time to re-ply.   

God Bless You Always,   

Patti A.K.A. (emma08)   

Hello everyone, sorry I haven't posted in awhile, but boy my life is a never-ending roller coaster, no wonder I'm depressed. These last few months have taken such a toll on me. Well first of all I no longer have any kind of medical insurance nor does my husband. So now I can't see a doctor for any of my problems and I can't afford my prescribitions either. Then on top of that Perry has to go to court for a horrible crime he DID NOT commit. About 5 years ago right before we met he was dating a woman who had a daughter she lost custody too to her ex-husband, but she had visitation. Well the young girl(she was 9) didn't like her mom and Perry dating but Perry moved in. She also had a son with servere ADHD and he was very violent. They new each other since grade school, but lost touch for a while and then met up again years later. Anyway to make a long story short the girl is accusing Perry of "touching" her while she was "faking" being asleep in their bed. We seen her statement to the police and she said she was faking being asleep. There is so much to this story, please don't judge me or my husband, he is 100% innocent, this is out of spite and we think that the biological father may have had something to do with this young girl saying this because he wants full custody and used Perry as a way of getting it. This supposely took place nearly 6 years ago. Perry was arrested for child molestation back in Feb. of 2002. He just got his court date 2 months ago, it took 5 years to get a arrigment. We didn't have any money to hire an attorney so for 5 years our lives hung in a balance. Perry reputation is scarred and ruined as well as our children and myself. We have a court appointed attorney and I am so worried that Perry's case, because we are a low-income family and don't have the money or power to fight this, will be just pushed to the side and justice will not be served and he will go to jail for this. What I'm I to do, I love my husband, I love my children and my children will be davastated if he goes to prision. Our oldest daughter knows what is going on and she is so hurt by it too and really don't understand why daddy is being accused of this. I don't know....I just needed to vent if anybody has any advice, I would sure apperciate it. Please pray for my husband, pray for me and pray that this won't break us. I'm not the type to open up about such a personal, personal, issue, but we need all the prayers we can get. An innocent mans life hangs in the balance. Talk to you all later.....Patti 

Today, Tuesday, August 7th, 2007, my loving, caring, innocent husband was aressted again for a crime he is INNOCENT of. As of right now he is sitting in a cold, dark cell, all alone, with nothing but his thoughts. It is now 2:06am, Wednesday morning and I can't sleep I keep thinking about him and what he must be feeling and going through. I know that all of you who read on these message boards really are in your own bind and having your own problems and issues. But I, as well as the rest of my family is in desperate need of help, prayer, guidence and support. I beg all of you to please, please help me and my family. Well as I wrote before or if you read my post before, my husband is being accused, not only once, but twice of a crime he is innocent of.  I know that what I am about to write is going to make a lot of you wonder why I am still standing by husband and I am sure a lot of you will think he is quilty, but I pray and hope that you will truly hear our side and know just by what I write that my husband is 100% innocent and you will also know why I am at my wits end and in need of Dr. Phil or someones one. I am so depressed, I am so worn out, burned out emotionaly, phyiscally, mentally, that I am so ready to just crawl in a hole and die.  I fell like not only my life, but my family's life is spinning out of control. Not only is my husbands name being dugged into the dirt by these people who are telling lies, but so is mine, my children, his parents, as well as my niece and other innocent children, just everyone who's involved. I can't do this anymore, I am trying to be strong for my kids, but I am not superwoman.  I don't know what to do or who else to turn too. I've called the legal aid office here in my home town, but by law they told me that can not help with criminal cases because they are a non-for-profit organation. We can not afford an attorney, Perry has a public defender, but they are only there to make sure his rights are not violated. We are NOT impressed by them whatsoever. They told Perry that they never tried a case like his nor do they think they have a good defense or case. They told us that WE have to look and find the people and give them names of people to be a witnessess. How can we do that?  We can't even afford to get a lawyer or pay our bills or have money for gas. Plus once you read on, you will see why we have no-one to come to Perry's defense about the first case, its he said, she said, the second one is a different story.

Let me start with right now, I am working as a waitress and Perry is out of work due to some medical issues, but mostly due to not having transportation to get back and forth to work, plus he now has 2 arrest on his record, no-one will hire him. He has filled out application's at several different places and still no call backs. We have just one car, a mini-van that we are fiancing. We are living day by day and we are trying to raise our children right and in a good setting, and with good morals. We do all we can with what we have and they know it and are thankful for it, as well as we are. With that said, this case has our lives turned up side down and my husbands freedom and ruputation on the line. Perry was married twice before me. His first marriage ended because they both married too young and his wife cheated on him. Perry and his second wife lived together for about 7 years and were married for 3, and after 10 years she didn't want to have children and Perry was ready and had been ready to start a family. That was in 98-99.  When I met Perry in October of 2001, he had just came out of a nasty relationship with a woman named Renee, who he began dating after his divorce from his second wife. Renee had two children, at the time they were around 9 and 11 years old. Her boy was 11 and her girl was 9. Perry had known Renee from years ago when they met and went to middle school together, but lost touch with her. Then years later they would encounter each other again and begin to reunite their friendship. After a while Renee asked Perry if he would be willing to help her with fixing her house that she had just brought before they met up again. She also aked if he would be willing to help get her son on the right track and in return he could have room and board in her home. At that time, Perry needed a place to stay because his ex wife was still living in the camper trailer that they lived in on Perry's parent's property. So, at first Perry moved in for convinence on both parts. One, she needed help and two, he needed a place to stay, he wanted to help her son, he was always willing to help any child in need. Perry was a carpenter and knew how to do all the work that needed to be done on the house. When Perry moved in Renee's son had servere ADHD and was on suicide watch. (This can be confrimed, it is on record). He brought him out of the dark hole he was in and Perry took him from making F's to making B' & C's and was a father figure to him. They went fishing together and done other father/son things.

He really just wanted to help, help with what ever he can do because that is just how Perry is, believe me I know. Now Renee's daughter was another story. Renee had lost custody of her daughter due to what the father said to be that she abandoned their daughter,(Supposely when Renee left to be with her dying mother, he felt that wasn't her only intention's and he took her to court and won). Even her own mother was trying to get custody, strange as that may sound, she too tried to get the little girl away from Renee and David, her son. Renne's mother loved Renee's husband more then her own daughter and took his side when it came down to custody of her daughter. So her daughter lived with her father who lived in a different state and he had gotten full custody. She lived with her father and his male room mate somewhere in North Carolina. Renee had summer visitation rights and her daughter would come live with Perry & Renee during summer months and they would rotate Christmas. Renee's daughter didn't care much about Perry. She wanted her mom to get back together with her dad and would take it out on Perry at times. She told Perry from the very beginning that she didn't want him with her mom. After being together and living together for nearly two years, Perry had rules that both children had to go by. But she didn't care about or follow his rules and that was always a problem. Perry finally put his foot down and told Renee, that he wasn't going to bow down to her daughter because she was spoiled by her and because she always threaten her with saying if she can't get her way or do what she wants to do, she wanted to go back home to her dad's, because she got to do anything she wanted to do there. And that is what eventually broke up the relationship, along with Perry no longer wanting to be involved with Renee on a romatic level, because he felt that she was being unfaithful to him. He broke it off, but still wanted to help out if he could with David. However, after Perry and Renee broke up things took a toatally different turn, for the worse. She became very upset with Perry, almost obsessive after they broke up. Then one day he went to her house after she called and asked him to fix her car. By then Perry was back living in his camper, his ex-wife was already gone. After he was done working on her car all that day, he wanted to come in her house and wash his hands and rest, but she told him he couldn't and that he had to leave because she had to take care of something, so he left.

He had went home and then later that night he got a phone call from her and she said that her daughter told her dad that he had put his hand down her panties. Perry was speechless and dumbfounded, he could'nt believe what he was hearing. He knew she didn't like him or want him around but he never, ever thought she would accuse him of such a horrible thing. Perry and I met a few weeks after this all came about, he was upfront and honest with me about the whole thing from the get go and I truly believed him and still do. Renee would call his mother's house threating him saying he will get what's coming to him for leaving her to care for David on her own and that she will use her "white magic" on him?? Then about 4 months later in Feb. of 2002 at about 7:30am we were awaken by the Sheriff's department pounding on our door and surrounding our home. My children woke up screaming and crying and at first we didn't know what was going on. They arrested Perry and charged him with " Aggravated Sexual Battery" and "Child Molestation". He was let out on bail, which his mother put up her house to get. I won't lie, I had to really question myself, I had to ask myself if what I felt was real or denial. I aked God to please clear my mind to get my mind opened to see the truth. I also had two children to think about, two children I brought into this relationship and one on the way back then. I sat my then 5 and half year old daughter down and asked her questions, like has daddy ever touched you here or there, has daddy ever made you touch him. I had to ask her this about a man she'd grown and loved as her daddy, it was heartbreaking. And ever single question was no and she looked at me as if I was crazy, after that I knew, I knew in my heart of hearts that Perry was 100% innocent. He was let out later that afternoon, they had first given him a court date, but when we went there his name was not on the dockets and they said he will get a letter in the mail. Well 5 years have gone by, and no arraignment was made, no court date, no nothing. So we thought well it must of been dropped.

Then in Feb of 2007, our life once again stopped. Let me explain further, please, please bear with me. Now we will go back 3 years ago. In 2004 my sister Cathy, who was and still is a drug addict, had two children with, another drug addict, a man name " Bo" who is still in and has been in since 2004, the psychiatric ward of Johnson State Prison here in Georgia serving time for several crimes, which you can verify this as well, his GDC ID # is: 0000604498.  He was in jail years before then for several years and had only recently got out before they met in 2000. Well they lived house to house staying with several different relaitives of Bo's, one of them was his mom and step-dad. Cathy told me that his mom had very bad mood swings and that she was very jealous and would accuse her of trying to sleep with her husband while she was 5 months pregnant with her son's child! Anyway to make a long, long story short, her son Bo went crazy and that is how he ended back in jail once again. He left Cathy with 2 kids that she couldn't take care of and she ended giving them up to his mother and step-father. Perry and I wanted to take them in, but we couldn't afford to take in two more children, I really wanted to, but Perry said it just wouldn't work, we didn't have the room or means to do it, plus he had this charge aganist him, so even if we tried we probaly would of been denied anyway. My sister had made a deal with DCFS, that gave her two years to get her life in order or after two years she would lose them. His mom accepted this offer and took them in, with the ideal that cathy would be taking them back, just like we all thought. We all thought she was going to get her life in order and take them both back, but she never did. The two years passed last April of 2006. She lost them, she hasn't seen them since 2004 except for pictures I would send to my mom and her every now and again. I think Cathy did that knowing she was never gonna come back for them. After she gave them up she told me that she was scared for her life that he threatened her life and said he said when he got out that he was gonna find her and kill her and the kids. I think her leaving them kids was her way to be as far away as possible from him. His own father told cathy that right in front of my mom and me after we went to pick up the kids from him one time when my niece was only a few months old and this was BEFORE she gave the kids up. His, Bo fathers' family was a bit crazy too. His sister, Bo's aunt, was on several medicines for mental problems and Cathy still let them take the kids. She was a drug addict and knew the kids would be better off with someone else. This is where Perry and I get involved in the mix. This is where it also get's a little confusing. Not only was I watching them because they were my sister's children, but Bo's mother, was Perry's mother's best friend who've known each other for more then 30 years. I knew her as well, but only through my sister, but after she got the kids from Cathy we started to talk more often and I started to help her with the kid's and so did Perry's mom. Back then I wasn't working, but Perry was. I was a stay-at-home mom, so I had time to spare and would baby-sit them all the time, with no hesitation. This went on off and on for about a year and a half. She would call me last minute to watch the kids and I didn't mind. I loved them and so did my kids and Perry and his family. They were family to us, what else was we to do? We all grew very attached to them. I was so happy that we could see them, so they and my children could grow up knowing each other. There where several times when I would get phone calls from Audrey when she was just crying telling me she couldn't handle the kids and that she needed a break and that she needed to go back on her medication for her nerves and depression. I felt so bad for her, but I could not do anything except offer to take the kids for a few days from her to give her and her husband a break, which I did several times. Thing's were going well for awhile, but then I kept getting more and more calls, being asked to do more and more favors. She at times would also pay me, not because I asked for the money, because I didn't, I never asked, she always offered. I guess because she knew we could use it and at times she said she would pay me but never did and I never said a word, cause I knew just how tough it can be. There were times where she would send them to Bo's father's who tried to get  guardianship of the kids too but was denied because of his record, he too was in jail before. So I wouldn't see the kids for a few weeks at times and then when she got them back, she would start calling again.

Then when I started working in June of 2006, I couldn't baby-sit them as much, but she would ask Perry, he was reluctant at first because he didn't want to get sucked into a baby-sitting job, but he did help and baby-sat when he could.  We did a lot with them, we love them and still do and we all miss them very much. I had them around at Christmas time, I had them over at Easter time. Everytime I planned something, either a picnic lunch or a holiday, I always tried to include them whenever possible. The last time Perry or I  baby-sat them was in August of 2006. That was also when our so-called relationship ended under bad terms. I posted a post about this arguement. See, let me refresh your memory, it all started after my niece and nephew contracted head lice from somewhere. Well she had called me to tell me to check my kids, because we just had the kids over by our house, but at the time they did not show any signs of it. We checked there heads, etc...etc. then a few days later I noticed my little girl was scratching her head and sure enough, both my girls had it because my niece slept in their room. My nephew had slept in my son's room, but my son had a buzz cut, but we still treated him. So a week or so later she called and asked if I could watch just my niece, cause by then my nephew was going to pre-k and I said yes, but only if her head were clean because we just spent like almost $100 to disinfect us all and the house, plus my girls missed two days of school because of it, so I was just being safe. Well she got somewhat affended by my asking, but she told me that both my niece and nephew was treated for it. Well, to make what I know must already seem like a long, long story still short, she dropped off my niece and her head was filled with lice eggs and live bugs. I couldn't believe it. You could literally see the live lice bugs crawling all in her hair, it was horrible. So, we could'nt really do anything at that moment, I didn't have any money to buy the treatment, but I did comb her hair with the comb you use to comb out the lice. I didn't want to have to call her, she drove a shool bus, so I just waited till she came back to get her. Perry was very upset as well and he said he wanted to deal with telling her what needed to be done. He is my husband and I honored his wishes, plus he knew her longer then I. When she came some words were exchange and she became a whole other person, lashing out at Perry, me and even my sister and all I could do is watch in horror what my sister tried to tell me about that family, that fell on deaf ear. She was accusing us of giving them head lice and that she was tired of raising someone elses kids and so on so forth, she was saying she did cleaned and checked her just the other day. She was just screaming at the top of her lungs about things that had no relavence to the issue of head lice. Perry was all heated up about it that I had to literally drag him into the house. I kept telling him she wasn't worth his time yelling back at her, that she wasn'y listening to what we were trying to get her to understand about what needed to be done to take care of that baby. That was last we seen of them, that was in August of 2006, we haven't seen them since.

Then this past Feb, Perry got a call from an agent from the GBI and she asked Perry to come in for questioning. I went with him and when we got there they took him to the back by himself. There they said that my niece told another family member that uncle Perry put his pee-pee in her butt and that it happened on Easter of last year(2006) when they were alone. Perry was nearly knocked out of his seat. He told them everything they wanted to know to the best of his ability and he was very open and honest about the arrest 5 years ago, telling them what happened then. He was in there for 3 and a half hours with no attorney. They wouldn't tell me anything except he was being "interviewed". When he finally got out and he told me what he was being accused of, not questioned about, that is the vibe he got. I couldn't contain myself. I remember that day we had Easter dinner and a egg hunt at Perry's parents house which we live behind in our own mobile home. My mom was here at Easter so was my best friend, her husband and her two little children an 8-year-old girl and 3-year-old boy and many more adults, like Perry's brother's and his parents. We were all together all day and they said that my niece, who remind you again, was only 2 and a half at the time said her and Perry were alone when he did that. I know for a fact that they were never alone and so does my mother, his mother, father, my best friend her husband, their children and even our own children. It just don't add up, plus Perry would NEVER do anything like that, he cares too much about children and their wellfare to do something like that, he learned that from his mother. But then in the end of the "interview"  the agent  tells Perry, "oh by the way we don't think she was penatrated". She said you put your pee=pee by her butt, not in it. She even asked Perry if he ever used his finger to dig anything out of her butt, do you believe that, Perry said it made his heart break, to think that they think he could do such a disgusting thing. He loved her and just wanted her to be safe and he felt the same about my nephew, he tried to bond with him, but he mostly wanted to hang out with my son and watch over his lilttle sister. We don't know what to think, why is this happening? Audrey knew about what Perry was accused of before and she didn't believe it to be true. Then in the statement she gave to the CPS she said that my niece told her first, back in October of 2006, that was only a little over a month after our big blow out and by then, she had also found someone else to watch the kids. She wouldn't go to the police or CPS until December. In the report it says that she, my 2 1/2- yr-old niece said that Uncle Perry put his pee-pee in her butt, mouth and pee-pee, we think this is her way of telling us they she is not what we seen her to be, this is her revenge for us telling her how it is. And then on top of all that she and her husband and my niece and nephew moved about an half a mile down the same road we live on? And her husband has just recently started to work at the same place I've been working at since last year and they knew that I worked there. Just the other day I seen him and he wouldn't look at me, he just pulled his cap down and bowed his head. If that was me I would NEVER moved nearly next door to the so-called person that supposely molested my grandchild nor work at the same place with the wife of the person you are accusing of this? I just don't get it. We need justice to be served and Perry cleared of all wrong doing. Someone who is willing to fight and maybe even have to file a counter suit for slandering Perry's good name and image and causing us grief. WE ARE NOT LOOKING TO MAKE ANY MONEY, we just want Perry's name cleared, he is innocent and I pray his case won't be pushed to the side, it has already begun, he is being railroad into a false conviction. There is so much deceitfulness in the report they made and the interview with my niece, who mind you is only 3 years old now. Like they told us that whenever this happen at Easter, that it happened here in our home, but in the report it says my niece said it happened at her house and Perry has never been to her house, let alone be alone with her!! It also said that my niece told me that Perry had done that to her and I said " oh you want it" that is nothing but an completely, disgusting, awful LIE!!! It also said the she seen Perry's black thing and that it look like Jimmy's (whom is our son), but bigger??How can a 3-yr-old say that, plus she never seen my son naked, maybe by accident while his was bathing or something like that. This is just tearing us all apart, do you see why I am so depressed and why my depression has gotten so much worse in the last few months, even years?

I'm I wrong for standing up next to the man I love and believe to be 100% innocent, no debt in my mind at all?? I'm I a horrible, evil person? I love my niece and I out of all people would never stand next to a person whom I thought or felt was guilty of this crime, when I too was a victim of molestation as a young girl. I've seen child predators, I know how they work and how they get thier fixes and my husband does not have one single ounce of that in him. His only downfall is being such a loving, caring, person with a big heart. One last thing, Perry mother raised two of her grand daughter's and had some foster kids live with her and Perry lived here more then half his life and not one of them have ever accused him of any wrong doing in any way, shape or form. Also, after the few relationships he had before he dated Renee where children were involved, nothing never came about from them? Wouldn't you think after all the other children he was around that there would be others? All we know is that Perry is an innocent man, trying to save not just his life, but his whole family's lives from being ruined. By the way they also went to our now ten-year-old daughter's class room at school and took her out of class and asked her questions without us even knowing about it until she got home later that afternoon, and why not my son or our other daughter who is 4?  My husband is not a monster, he is a loving, caring husband, father, and human being. Yes, he is not perfect, yes, he has his downfalls we all do, but he DID NOT do these things. Every single person that knows Perry would say the same. No matter what happens I will fight to the bitter end to prove his innocence, I just need someone to go with me if need be. He is a innocent man, we just need a lawyer who truly believes that as we do and who is willing to help us and fight for his freedom and believe of his innocence. I will pay monthy payments if need be I will go without for myself, but not for my children. Please I am begging someone to please help us. Thank you for listening, I know it is so long but there is so much more to say, please contact me with anything, please.