Looks like many of us are feeling under the weather. It is easy for misunderstandings to happen and people to be easily hurt, especially with us bipolars. I know that I am extremely oversensitive right now and it is affecting things with my roommate. Glad to see that you came back and clarified. Helps relieve any hurt feelings caused by misunderstandings. Hope that you are feeling better soon.
Hey, I'm having fun with actually being able to post pics. Could never do that on the other board as I didn't know how.
Hi Faith, I am really glad you found some energy for me. Don't forget... It is OK for us to rest, and we are NOT supposed to feel guilty. (When pigs fly). I really like your response to #3, You gave me a perspective I hadn't considered. I want to beat the CRAP out of.............BP. I want to prove to myself I can have unconditional love, respect, and FEEL GOOD inside when I am NOT in a mania. But, I get scared to push down the walls of this box I am in. The hardest thing though, is remembering what I was able to do. I used to be one of those super moms, divorced, custody, fulltime work, took care of the house, sewed, did crafts, played piano, ect. Now I am not able, yet, to organize one single day. I get out of bed and it looks alright, until I move through the house...Now I am not sure where to begin, I needed a list of products made so I knew where to use them. I have forgotten so much, and sometimes, out of the blue, I will remember something, and everyone looks at me as if to say, She remembered that, how come she didn't remember"this". Thanx for listening. I look forward to being able to give you what you have given me.........A new perspective. Take care & God Bless. Lorrie
I know how it is to remember how you used to be. It is the same for me as well. I was never the supermom you used to be, but used to be on top of things a lot better than I am now. And of course nobody now would believe that I was able to do the things I used to be able to do - keeping the house clean being one of them. There's no way I'd be able to go through college with a 4.0 average now I don't think. I don't know how the heck I did it then. I keep hoping every now and then that one day that person will come back to me. I catch glimpses of her now and then. I guess I just have to keep working toward being the best that I can be.
Hi everyone my name is Melissa and I am from northern california. I am looking to make friends so that I have people to talk to, I do suffer from bipolar disorder I am on Seroquel and Lithium and they seem to be helping I have been taking them for months, before that I was going from one medicine to the other to find the right combination for my body and well seroquel and Lithium are it. I used to live in southern California with my grandparents but they live in a senior park and the senior park management found out that I was living there, so therefore I had to find some other place to live so I had 3 choices at the time one of them were that I could let the county regional center help me find a place and let them help me with assisted living and such, the second choice I had was that I could go and live with my friend from northern california that I met online, and the 3rd and last choice was my parents, well what do you think I chose. Well I chose to live with my friend up north which is where I am at because she has encouraged me to do alot of good stuff in my life and has helped me to learn to change my mood behavior and she has stuck by my side 100% and that to me is a good friend. The reason I didn't choose for the assisted living from the county regional center from where I was at before here is because one it was a long waiting list and two because I wanted out of that city because it's boring and I have not one single friend there, where here I have 1 really good friend who cares about me. The reason I did not choose to live with my parents and siblings is because they are all abusive to me and they make fun of me for the things I try to do in my life and they critisize me big time so I don't care to live in that kinda situation, they live in Texas and that's the other reason because I do also have no friends there like I use to in high school.
well thanks everyone for listening to what I had to say and hope to hear from y'all soon.
Melissa
Hey there and welcome to the board. Just remember that no matter how rough things are, you are never alone. You have come to a great place for support. It must have been a difficult decision to make a big move. If you ever want someone to talk to one on one, you can e-mail me at kalie1000@hotmail.com or kalie20001000@yahoo.com. Hope to see you around.
I hope you are okay. You say down time. Is that down as in mood or down as in nothing going on at work??
I had kind of a bummer day with Emily AGAIN. I totally give up.
You can read about that on the O as I am not going to post that kind of stuff here.
Hope you understand.
Well I am off to bed I think, unless I find another hottie to post LOL
Yeah, I'm allright. Just has occurred to me that my Birthday is coming up, and I don't really have anything planned, and will probably end up spending it, or most of it alone doing nothing out of the ordinary. Kind of a lonely feeling if you know what I mean. No big deal though. I will check the other board about Emily. Yes, I understand completely. Hope you have a good night.
the boards?cathy
Hi Faith, I am really glad you found some energy for me. Don't forget... It is OK for us to rest, and we are NOT supposed to feel guilty. (When pigs fly). I really like your response to #3, You gave me a perspective I hadn't considered. I want to beat the CRAP out of.............BP. I want to prove to myself I can have unconditional love, respect, and FEEL GOOD inside when I am NOT in a mania. But, I get scared to push down the walls of this box I am in. The hardest thing though, is remembering what I was able to do. I used to be one of those super moms, divorced, custody, fulltime work, took care of the house, sewed, did crafts, played piano, ect. Now I am not able, yet, to organize one single day. I get out of bed and it looks alright, until I move through the house...Now I am not sure where to begin, I needed a list of products made so I knew where to use them. I have forgotten so much, and sometimes, out of the blue, I will remember something, and everyone looks at me as if to say, She remembered that, how come she didn't remember"this". Thanx for listening. I look forward to being able to give you what you have given me.........A new perspective. Take care & God Bless. Lorrie
I'm some what new to this board... Kinda sorta, LOL!! 
