Messages By: llzohio

I live in Ohio and I know what an ex from hell is. My son's father is my ex from hell. This past summer. The summer of 05 he spent the summer trying to kill me. I was stabed when he broke into my house and stabbed me in front of my son. He had someone wrap razor wire around my throat. I have a brick smashed off of my shoulder and head. I had my head busted open more times then I can count. Yet the police around here don't give a damn about what has happened. They would take their own time in showing up. And in court it became a war of myself verses him. And I know that is because he would attack when no one else was around and then the police and procuters here told me that it would be best to drop the charges because they couldn't find any proof on the attacks other then my photographs of wounds and medical reports. And this wasn't the first time this had happened. When I told him seven in a half years ago that I was pregnant he demanded an abortion. When I wouldn't agree he kicked me down a flight of steps hoping i would miscarry. He has never paid a dime to my son which is fine with me. I just wish he would get out of my life for good. He told the courts that I am in to witch craft when he is the one. And i know this sounds petty by why is it the criminal has all the rights. I live in fear of my life and my son's life and her is allowed to walk the streets until trial. A restraining order is simply a piece of paper and nothing more. The police around here don't even inforce them. So if someone can tell me what I am supposed to do to protect myself and my son I would love to hear it.

I have tried to move an he has followed me and found me. We go to court this April and it's going to be a snowballs chance in hell of actually beating him because he has his WIFE and GIRLFRIEND as his witnesses. Now that is crediable in my book but guess once a liar always a liar and he's going to get away with it. That's what hurts the most. The damange he's done to my son and myself. Not to mention my family is unexcusable. And he isn't even going to be held accountable for his deeds.

I am glad that Bi-Polar is finally being brought to the table on national television. I have Bi-Polar and I have had it for years but it was only dianoged three years ago with Bi-Polar and I have to admit I was happy to finally have a lable to put with the symtoms. I have a six in a half year old who has a form of Autism and it scared me to death that I would loose my temper with him over simply things like his toys were out of order or something like that. I have tried millions of times to explain how I feel when I go through my cylces and noone understands it. I have seen many doctors whose idea of treatment was to make me a zombie with medication. And it's taken a long time to finally get the help I knew I needed. I started seeing a new doctor in January of this year and he is a specialist in Bi-Polar and for once someone actually understands me. I give my mother and brother credit because they try their hardest to understand what I am going through. I have other family members who think that I make up the symtoms I go through every day. And it hurts to think they will never understand what I am going through. I have come up with a system for my son and myself. If I yell at him and he knows I am yelling for no reason he tells me Mommy it's time for a time out. I am finally on a path of being okay and living daily with Bi-Polar. The doctor I see now is fantastic. He supports me 100% and he goes on what I'm feeling not what the text books tell him. And i think if more people were willing to talk about there problem then we would be closer to finding a support system that works. I know that anyone with Bi-Polar that needs support can email me an i will do what I can to talk to them.

I don't care what people are trying to get passed in other states. I think that if you are man enough to have unprotected sex then you are man enough to PAY for your child. I don't care if you claim that child isn't yours simply because you don't want to be a father. THat is a load of crap. The only thing I think is best for the child is if the mother was raped and decieded to keep the baby. Then of course the father has no rights. I am sick of dead beat dads going around knocking people up and then telling them well it's not my fault. My son just turn seven on Easter this year. His father has never paid a dime for him. And i don't want a dime from him. He is abusive. He spent the last summer trying to kill me. He stabbed me right in front of my son. How i became pregnant with my son was he raped me. But I felt a connection with my child the moment I knew I was pregnant. And I am so sick of people mostly men whining it wasn't their choice. Well there was a choice that you decided to make when you didn't use protection. I don't know. I guess I am not making sense. I just disagree with all of this letting men decied they don't want to be a father and they get a slap on the wrist and get to walk away free of charge.