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December 20, 2005, 7:37 am PST
MY MOM IS DRIVEING ME CRAZY SHE HAS A RARE BLOOD DISORDER
MY MOM IS A GOOD WOMAN. BUT SHE HAS THIS BLOOD DISORDER. MYLODISPLACIA. IT IS A FORM OF CANCER BUT NOT CANCER. SHE HAS ALWAYS COMPLAIND OF THIS OR THAT OVER THE YEARS. I'M CONCERNED ABOUT HER SHE IS DEPRESSED. SHE IS ON DRUGS TO HELP. SHE TRIES TO RUN MY LIFE. I'M 41YEARS OLD. SHE GIVES ME ADVICE I DON'T ASK FOR. SHE WORRIES ABOUT MY BILLS AND MY LIFE AND IT IS NONE OF HER CONCERN. I HAVE A BROTHER THAT IS BI POLAR FROM DRINKING AND DRUGS. HE DOES NOT STAY ON HIS MEDS. HE IS 47 YEARS OLD HE LIVES IN HER HOUSE. SHE HAS AN APARTMENT SHE LIVES IN SO SHE CAN BE CLOSER TO THE HOSPITAL. HE HAS NOT HAD A JOB IN OVER 6 MONTHS. HE CAN WORK DOING ANYTHING. I WORK IN A NURSING HOME AS A NURSES AID. HE CAN WORK AT BURGER KING. BUT NO HE WANT S TO PARTY AND LIVE LIFE FOR HIM AND HE IS A VERY NEEDY PERSON. HE NEEDS TO BE PUT OUT IN THE STREETS TO FEND FOR HIM SELF. BUT MY MOM WILL NOT SEE OR DO THAT. I LOVE HIM FOR WHO HE IS. BUT NOTHING IS GOING TO CHANGE FOR HIM. I TELL MY MOM TO MAKE IT SIMPLE JUST LET HIM GO. I DON'T FEEL SORRY FOR HIM AT ALL. HE HAS MADE HIS BED HE NEEDS TO LIE IN IT. HE WILL NOT GET HELP. I WANT MOM TO GO AND TALK TO A THERIPIST. SHE SAYS I DON'T NEED HELP AT 76 YEARS OLD THEY WILL TELL ME WHAT I ALREADY KNOW. BUT I'M THE ONE THAT SPEAKS MY MIND AND SAYS THE TRUTH AND SHE SAYS I NEED HELP. NOT HER. THAT SHE IS NOT CRAZY. I TOLD HER IT WOULD GIVE HER BETTER RESOURSES AND WHAT TO DO WITH HER LIFE. HOW TO BETTER COPE WITH HER BLOOD DISORDER. AND PROBS WITH MY BROTHER. THEY COULD HELP HER WITH HOW TO DEAL WITH MY FAMILY. SHE GETS SO MAD AT ME. SHE FOUND OUT HOW MUCH I OWED ON MY CREDIT CARD BILLS. I JUST FREAKED OUT. I WAS YELLING TO HER VERY HARD. I TOLD HER IT WAS NONE OF HER BUSSINESS. THEN SHE PUT MONEY IN MY ACCOUNT FOR THE CELL BILL SHE IS ON WITH ME. I HAD JUST COME BACK FROM VACATION SHE SAID I CAN'T BELEAVE YOU HAVE NO MONEY. I HAD JUST PAID MY MORGAGE. I SAID YOU ARE NOT THE ONE THAT PAYS MY BILLS. STAY OUT OF MY PROBS. SHE JUST THROWS THINGS BACK IN MY FACE. SHE SAYS SOME HATEFULL THINGS TO ME AND TURNS AROUND AND SAYS I TREAT HER LIKE A DOG AND THAT I NEED HELP. I WENT AND TALKED TO A COUNSLER AND SHE SAYS IT IS HER NOT ME. I JUST DON'T TELL HER THINGS THEN SHE GETS ALL BENT OUT OF SHAPE. BUT YOU KNOW SHE WAS ALWAYS SO POSITVE. MY BROTHER IS NEEDY. I'M INDEPENDANT. SHE HATES THAT I'M THAT WAY. I HAVE MY DRIVERS LISANCE KNOW I WORKED 3 YEARS TO GET IT. I'M LOOKING FOR A CAR KNOW. SHE WAS SCARED AND STILL IS BECAUSE SHE DID NOT WANT ME TO GET IT. SHE THINKS ONCE I GET MY CAR I WILL NOT NEED HER ANYMORE. SHE ALWAYS SAYS WHEN I DIE YOU WILL THINK ABOUT WHAT I SAID ABOUT THE ADVICE I GAVE YOU. SHE IS ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT DIEING. WE ALL DIE IN OWER TIME. WHAT SHOULD I DO. SHE MAKES ME GET TENSED UP AND I GET MIGRAINS. I'M A VERY HAPPY UBEAT PERSON AND LOVE MY LIFE IT IS RICH AND FULL EXCEPT A GOOD MAN TO LOVE. BUT THAT WILL COME SOONER OR LATER. SMILES SUZY Q
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