Messages By: lauriej

I'm in a half decent mood today. Hubby has been sending me emails telling to make a decision about us. 

Got a reminder call from hospital, have to go for an unpleasant woman's test tomorrow, I hurts alot, I knew it was coming up but didn't know when. 

Maybe in a decent mood because I sent a few emails back and got alot off my chest, now what he does with it is up to him. But I'm not got to settle, I deserve better than that. I know if he got his head out of the sand he could do it. It works both ways, it could be so good between us but I'm tired of it being one sided. 

L 

It gives us something to reach for. 

L 

counseling is wonderful when you can finally get in. I don't think they understand you usually reach out for help when you hit bottom and then it takes forever to get in. We have a emergency drop in I think that was how I originally got in but can't remember how long it took. I would call again. 

L 

It's doesn't sound silly, I know It's not easy but you really should, they are there to help but they can't help if you don't call. I have found them to be real good and helpful, if you don't hit it off or feel comfortable with the counsellor you can ask for someone else, at least here you can. I have been lucky except, they usually leave for one reason or another, promotion, maternity leave. 

L 

I'm sure they didn't mean to not call you back they could be backlogged but that shouldn't make a difference they should at least touch base with you. I don't know how it works there but here if you don't have coverage they base the fee on a sliding scale based on your income, they don't ask for proof of income. My counsellor leans on the cheaper side, she is more concerned about helping but then the extra is probably covered by healthcare. 

L 

have to have dinner and go to my photography class. It goes till 9:45 so will probably go right to bed when I get home. 

L 

Finally have some time to post yesteday was very busy and by last night I just wanted to lay on the couch which i did, eyes started closing about 8 pm finally went to bed at 10. 

Had to take my new kitty to the vet last night, I got her from the spca last week. She spent a week at the spca but 2 weeks before that I was feeding her on my deck and giving her lots of loving, I knew she had kittens and thats why I couldn't take her in, I couldn't find the kittens but someone else did and turned her and her kittens in. i was very glad cuz I was so worried that they would freeze. Anyways she hasn't been herself this week so took her in and it looks like she has FIP, no cure and only a few cats survive. I'm hoping  she will be one of them but I am accepting that she will probably die. In the mean time I will give her lots of loving, it's so unfair for her, living on the streets and finally she gets a safe, warm, loving home and then she gets sick. We have had a connection since we met. Anyways at least she will be around people that love her. 

So that was my day yesterday how is everyone else doing, I see there are some new people, Hi to them. 

L 

I found info on the internet as I had never heard of it before, not sure if I am understanding it right if a few can recover after they show symtoms(speilling?). I will find out more when the vet takes exrays on monday but I am preparing for worse but hoping for the best. She is just too sweet to loose but did come into my life when we both needed each other. She seemed a little better this morning was more herself but she has been sleeping all afternoon. 

L 

Sorry had another busy day today but this afternoon was for me. Went to a Stampin Up, Xmas card camp. 4 hours of nothing but being creative kind of the host had the ideas but it was fun. Back on for a bit, not sure what is up for tonight, I hate staying home on a saturday  night, maybe we will go to a friends. If not might get out some of my xmas decorations to paint because I'm sure there won't be anything on tv. 

How are you doing? 

L 

so guess, I will go find something constuctive to do. talk tomorrow, 

Bye. 

L