Messages By: sophie6

Quote From: rachele1

I am 30 years old, and couldn't believe my eyes and ears when I heard Carey describe her anxiety.  I thought I was the only one that suffered from the fear of throwing up.  However, when I am safe at home, I feel that throwing up "gets rid of" my anxiety and stress.  I refuse to eat when I have to fly or when I am going to be in a place that doesn't have a bathroom.  This makes me feel trapped like I have nowhere to go, which makes my panic attacks worse.  I had a terrible panic attack on a bus in Disney World, and I thought I was going to lose it and throw up.  I can't even get on a bus anymore because I am afraid I will get sick and people will look at me.  Since then, my anxiety and depression have consumed my life.  Last November, I was in Las Vegas, and everything was going fine inside the New York, New York casino until I started to feel sick from something I ate.  I went to the bathroom, and literally could not leave the stall because I felt like I would throw up.  I didn't want to throw up and have everyone hear me, but I also didn't want to leave the bathroom, and then throw up in the casino.  I was having one of the worst panic attacks of my life.  On top of all of this, maintanence was closing the bathroom, so I had to leave.  I made a mad dash out of the casino and into the MGM Grand, where I was staying.  As soon as I got to my room, I had to throw up.  This phobia to this day still makes my decisions for me.  I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.