Messages By: brady1177

This has been a battle for me since I was 12 years old.  I was a gymnast and a cheerleader when I was younger.  I was the short one that weighed the least every year who always seemed to be picked for the top of the pyramids and stances.  That was until I hit 12 or 13 years old.  I had gained about 10 pounds that summer and when I came back my coach took me off the squad until I lost the weight I had gained.  She pulled me up in front of all the other cheerleaders and pulled my tank up so they could see a (roll).  She made fun of me for 20 minutes showing the girls the difference between pictures of me the year before and that year.  I was so humiliated.  I left school that day and made a decision.  I would never eat again unless I had to!   

4 years later I was down to 72 lbs and very ill.  I had to stop going to school because I was so weak.  I was checked into a clinic by my father but insurance didn't cover the amount of time it would take to get me help.  That fall I turned 18 and I moved out on my own.  I tried to keep up with the regimen they had me on, but I couldn't afford to go see the counselor anymore and I fell back into my old ways.  My highest weight on the program was 125 - 130 lbs... 

Now, I'm 27 years old 5 ft 2 inches and I currently weigh 92 lbs.  I'm supposedly healthier than I ever been before but I still feel huge and I am constantly having to force myself to eat every day.  It's getting tougher each day and anna is taking control again.  How do I get help if I can't afford it.  I make too much to get assistance and I don't make enough to pay for both the meds and treatment...  I feel lost and I just want to die.  I would really rather die than be this way anymore.  I just want to stop everything... 

My fiance` knows that I was anna for years before we met but I was at a healthy weight when we met.  He knows I've lost weight but I don't think he sees it as too much.  I'm afraid of losing him if I don't get a grip on this thing.  I just can't stop.  I can't stop myself from harming my self this way.   

Brady1177 

I cannot believe that as a mother you can sit there and justify your actions as being ok!  You are not fit to be a parent and I would highly recommend that CPS take your children out of your home immediately!   

I was in your daughter's shoes.  I've hidden in the closet!  I've been afraid that if my mother even saw me she would go into a rage so I hid!  I hid not only to protect myself but to also keep her from being angry over something else I may have missed!  You are crazy!  The damaging words you are saying and have said will echo in your children's minds for years to come.  Even if you stop saying things now they will still replay that over and over in their own minds!  If you want a future relationship with your daughter  you need to seek professional help!   

My mother suffered from Bi-Polar Manic depression.  I was mentally and physically abused.  She never received help and neither did I.  We have no relationship.  She is not invited to my wedding.  I hold no good feelings towards her at all.  I despise everything about her.  I am afraid to have children and become like her.   

You are disgusting and ill and you should not be a mother!  A cat is a better mother and nuturer than you are! 

brady1177  

Many "Christian" organizations fall prey to lifestyles that allow abuse.  Unfortunately the groups allow themselves to become so closed off to society that they cannot see how they allow for more and more selfish rights until they have lost the true morals that they wanted and claimed to stand for in the beginning. 

Christians all over the globe are still of the mind, "Spare the rod, and spoil the child."  Unwittingly they are beating their children and causing mental and physical damage. 

It is groups like this that attracts the attention of everyone and they talk about "those people" when they should be looking next door or in their own homes. 

Abuse of any kind is wrong.  Discipline can be found without beating a child with a belt or a hand.  Sexual abuse is the sickest of all.   

David Berg was a sick individual.  I can believe that not everyone in this group allows this to go on in their own homes, but if they are a member of this group and if they are aware of the problems they should think twice about what company they are keeping and what type of message they are sending to the world when they say I'm a member of this group. 

I am now an atheist and I am glad I am out of the controlling family that I grew up in for years.   

RNB 

Once again I must say that I am completely astounded that you come here to rattle on about your work when the first words out of your mouth should have been related to how you and your daughter are doing and whether or not if you are giving her the support she so desperately needs.   

I feel for your daughter and anyone who has been abused, yet that part of her life is over, she needs closure and I hope you will help her attain it by being a father, confidante, and supporter, instead of a journalist and writer out for a story or to make yourself look important.  

You did your best and fought to get custody but now that she's here you seem more interested in her story than in her personally. 

I wish you both luck and I hope that you will return to counseling with your daughter and create a bond that I feel both of you need desperately. 

RNB 

If the school had proper security which requires a student pass to be in the student parking lot it would have been much harder for this to have taken place.  Teachers should be made aware of situations like this and have proper escorts to and from the students car to ensure safety when dealing with this type of problem.   

Not only did the law fail to protect this beautiful young  lady but the school did not offer enough security on grounds.  I hope they will add some security to the parking lot area and have more people watching the parking lots and students. 

Please, if you are a student speak with your parents about your own schools lack of security and ask your principal if there is a plan of action for these types of situations where extra security is needed. 

Lt. Robin N Brady / A&R Security Columbus OH  

Allow yourself to be angry.  Grab a baby sitter if you need one, get in your car and drive to a remote area and scream at him and tell him how much you hate him and get everything off your chest that you need to.   

Forgive yourself.  You cannot be a mother until you get rid of the guilt.  Forgive yourself for being manipulated, cheated on, disgraced, hurt, angry everything. 

Then go to a friends house and ask them to help you get back on track.  Make a plan with someone.  Create a new you!  Get a friend or two to call you and just check on you.  Get involved with your kids or a community project.  Get out there and learn to love humanity again... 

All of you are special, loving, worthy of love, creative, fun, energetic, and beautiful inside and outside.   

Learn to love yourself again.  Treat yourself to a massage or a bubble bath once a month.  Give yourself a facial...  Anything. 

I am on the threshold of getting married.  I love him and I know he loves me but I think both of us are afraid of the big D word.  My parents went through divorce and I know that only increases my chances.   

Don't forget the kids will need counseling.  Even if they seem okay.  They still need someone to talk to. 

Love and hope to each of you! 

RNB 

Americans are boycotting Aruba due to the fact that the government would not allow the FBI or our own investigators to help in the interrogation and gaining information on the island.  If Aruba had been more helpful and forthcoming I highly doubt that Americans would be taking the stand they are now against Aruba.  Why should we allow our families to go there when we know that if we did go missing the government there would not do everything possible to help find us!   I agree with our decision to boycott the country on this premise.  We are not boycotting the country as a personal affront to the people that live there, we are doing it to make a point to your government. 

The world is not safe.  Not in the small towns nor on a small island out in the middle of nowhere.  As long as there are demented sex crazed individuals we are going to be fighting things like this.  As parents we cannot let our guard down where our children are concerned and we need to be vigilant in trying to find these kids and putting criminals like this away and throwing the key away!  My heart goes out to the parents that have missing children.  May they all be found and returned to their loved ones. 

If Aruba wants our business they should be more open to help and assistance from our officials who know how to get results and aren't looking to cover their own butts! 

I never ever said that Aruba is an American State! 

I never said they should allow us to take completely over the investigation, but more information should have been provided!   

When I went to mexico to help build schools with an organization I saw in many cases where both the American government and the mexican government worked together to help in cases.  One girl became lost in Weslaco and did not get back on the bus in time to go back to Mexico.  The mexican govt offered pictures from her family and brought her family to the border to help aid the investigators to find their daughter... 

All I said is that they could have allowed us to help or work with them.  More people on the case can possibly be of a benefit early on in such a case.   

read what has been written before you make comments such as this. 

RNB 

I never said that our FBI could do a much better job!  I did say that they should have allowed us to help in the investigation in any way.  More people working on this together makes the most sense.   

I do travel and again you are putting words in my mouth!  I have been to Israel, Canada, Mexico, Germany, Italy, Bahamas, Japan, and Holland.  I am boycotting the island because I do not feel that they used every means available and necessary to find this girl.   

I do not live in fear, nor do I have or want any children.  Still, I do feel that letting teenagers go on trips like this without adult supervision is risky and not something I would personally allow unless they were in a secured area with chaperons and escorts.   

RNB