Messages By: momma4

I WAS A DRUG ADDICT FOR 10 YRS! HOW EMBARASSING THIS USED TO BE TO ADMITT BUT IT'S A COLD HARD FACT, ONE CHRISTMAS MY KIDS GOT NO PRESENTS , NO TREE!BECAUSE MY HABBIT WAS MORE IMPOTRANT, I CAN NEVER TAKE THAT BACK, CAN NEVER CHANGE IT, I WAS A MOM OF 4, WHEN I DECIDED TO HAVE KIDS THEY SHOULD'VE COME FIRST, MY ADDICTION MADE ME LOOSE IT ALL, A HOUSE, CARS, MY SELF RESPECT, I SOLD MY BELONGINGS ONE BY ONE, TILL I HAD LOST IT ALL, MY POOR KIDS, YOUR POOR KIDS, THEY WILL TAKE THIS WITH THEM FOREVER, I MEAN FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT TOOK ME YEARS TO PROVE MYSELF TO THEM AGAIN, I CAN NEVER MAKE UP FOR ALL I DID TO THEM, TAKE A STEP BACK AND LOOK AT WHAT YOUR NOT DOING FOR THEM, WHAT OUR JOB AS A PARENT IS SUPPOSED TO BE, YOUR HURTING THEM, REALLY HURTING THEM, THEY NEED YOU NOW, YOU NEED TO GET YOUR ACT TOGETHER AND DON'T WASTE 1 MORE DAY, MY LIFE NOW WITH BEING THE MOM i AM SUPPOSED TO BE ( NOW i ONLY HAVE 1 LEFT AT HOME) IS WAY MORE FUFILLING THAN ANY HIGH EVER GOT ME, BUT THE GUILT IS STILL THERE, I'M SO ASHAMED OF WHAT ALL I PUT THEM THRU AS YOU SHOULD BE DO SOMETHING TO CHANGE NOW, DON'T WAIT 1 MORE DAY!