Messages By: emquiltin

A great deal of people judge  based on appearances often times it is a quiet thing. Yet there are a great deal of people that do so knowinly and willingly. Almost every day I see people teashing thier children to base peoples worth on thier appearances.  They pride beauty more than they do intelegance.   I grew up in a home with three girls Beauty was not really releveant We are all stunning in our own way.  (too bad the rest of the world did not think so) I hate the fact that I was turned down Jobs because "Your not the right type to work here"  I saw people get promoted above me that were very striking but oh my stupid. I have gotten called "Good sturdy stock"  "robust woman"  "a little OX"  "a whale"  "hey fat chick"  and have gotten questions and comments that really infuriate me. "do you like the way you look"  "Dont worry about the belt being to short gravity will hold you down in the ride"  No we do not carry clothes in your size But we can special order you some"  "yes we do sell size 18 20 its over there in the mature woman section"  Any one that does not think beauty and size does not matter should be a plus size woman for a day.

I know how she feels after having my son my allergies became worse and I can not have nuts chicken saflower oats corn barley most flowers all perfumes lotions scented products it has gotten so bad brown bottle lysol vinigar and baking soda are my cleaning supplies.  some health care companies will pay for an air purifier and specialtiy vaccume if it is precribed by an allergist.  they put fragrance in everything now. I have a great difficlting going shopping because of peoples purfumes. cheese crakers almost killed me last year sour crean and chive crackers made on the same equipment as nuts. I did not thing and ate one. they are begining to put possible allergy content on some packages but not all of the items that can cause allergies are considered because of rarity of the allergy.  check all product labels some are adding nuts and chicken fat to their products. They change the recipe and choose not to tell us we have to read the label every time and ingredients vary between companies. I wrote to a well known company and asked them for a list of items that have chicken or to eliminate chicken fat from their beef  products. They told me that to stay competive they change recipes often and they would not know what will or will not contain chicken at a later date so the list could not be made. They would not remove chicken fat from their beef product because other people like their product. If I was conserned about this life threatening problem I should take it upon my self to read every lable or just stop buying thier product.  I used to buy 100+ of  thier products a year. Now I do not.

I am not racist. Every one who is poor or broke is angery. I have never known anyone who is poor to be happy about it. I was working 3 jobs at one point to keep my famiy going. I was really not happy about that. Some people are rasist some are not. also in the same respect there are people who try to use that to thier advantage. I was assistant to a supervisor a young lady refused to do her job said some very nasty things to the supervisor then reported him to Hr for being racist. All he said "will you please get back to work the line is stopped because you stepped away thi order has to be out today "  "are you refusing to do your job" He almost got fired because she said he was racist my report and 5 witnesses had to be questioned  in the case. This young lady was one of the "poor me" types There is a woman here in town that is white and claimes she is so frail so abused so poor and needs help ever so much help. recently a great deal of people have caught her in some major lies he wears torn stained raggy clothes has new clothes given to her. Well I quess I am racist I do not like the "Poor me"  That do not admit when they are wrong or have done wrong the people that lie to cover thier own butt or get thier own way. other than that I like most people

I have a four year old  son who has female friends. I am so proud of him because He tells them that they are beautiful and he is proud of them.  We found an old picture of me recently when I was younger thinner and had make up on. I asked him which one did he think was prettier me in the picture or my now. "mommy you are soo pretty in the picture. I love you much better now you are just the most beutifullest mommy in the whole world."  

Those girls are better women than I am. I was in their situation until I was 5. I could not forgive forget. The last time I saw my father I was 18 when the restraining order ran out.   To this day i wish an extreamly unGodly long life on the man and Desperatly wish in thet time he grows a contious with all the emotions and memories that goes with it.  "I was abused so now its my turn" Grow a back bone Put your foot down and STOP IT. If you can not stop it walk away send them nice cards letters what ever you have to to help them get past it and prevent them from doing the same.

I am a very nice sweet natured person My step mil thought she could get her own way and mistreat my entie family she still to this day has my husband snowed. It got so bad that we went to marrage counciling the marrage counciler said Why are you bringing in another woman in to your marrage Taking her part over your wife is equal to having an affair in your wifes eyes. She plays poor me to an extream.  I would love for people to see her as she really is