Bear w/ me, as this is my first time on this site. I'm hoping someone out there has some solid advice and maybe even been in this situation. I am currently seperated w/ my husband and living w/ a man that I am 'seeing'. I have been married for 5 years and have been w/ my husband for a total of six years. The man I'm living w/ I have been w/ for a month longer than my husband and...they are related. The man I am living w/ was always in a relationship and that is why we had an affair. There was a total of 2 years when I did not speak to this man, but always thought of him. I believed he was my 'true love' but married my husband because I knew he would never leave his girlfriend of 20 some years. Well, over the summer he finally left his girlfriend. My husband has known all along about the affair. I always told him it would not continue, but I just couldnt control my impulses. Outside of sex, I love my marriage w/ my husband. However, there is absolutely no passion between us and never has been since day 1. That is what drives me to the other man. We have such chemistry. I feel guilty about what I have done to my husband. I want to know how to have a marriage where there is no passion. I just have no sexual attraction to him. I also dont know how to get over my feelings for the man I am seeing. However, I would be willing to do whatever it takes to not see him anymore. That I can handle, but I cant handle not having sexual desires for my husband. Please note that it is not just that the passion faded, it was never there to begin w/. I want to finally stop being so immature by having an affair and want to be the wife my husband deserves. Is there anyone out there that can relate?
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