Quote From: katie925my name is katie, im 14 years old, love 2 dance, and im anorexic. i have been for almost a year. im 5 ft 3 inches and about a week ago i was at 100 lbs. now am at 96 lbs and still loosing weight. i have tld my friends and they keep telling me its muscle not fat, and that will loose some muscle instead of fat. but i dont care if it muscle or fati loose, i just want to be skinny. so now they look at me like i am crazy. am i crazy? i dont want to stop being anorexic, i just want to be able to have fun and not worry about my calorie intake at a party. sometimes i feel like im the only one who feels this way.
Katie:
I understand where you are at. I used to be the same way. I was a dancer and anorexic/bulimic. For so long I did not want to eat. I was so "happy" that I was loosing weight. However, I could not grasp that some of my weight was muscle. I thought that my body consisted of pure fat. My life was a living hell. Being anorexic/bulimic at first seemed to be the best thing ever. I stayed thin and I was the best dancer ever, for a little while. But it didn't take long for my body to begin to shut down. It started with dance injuries. I have permanently hurt myself. Because my body was so fatiqued and lacked so many nutrients I was prone to get hurt. I did. I tore my achilles tendon. I could not walk for two years and now I can't ever dance again. I can not take back those years, Katie. Being thin may seem great but the price you pay isn't. My anorexia did not stop with getting hurt. It is a little over a year now. I went into a treatment program because I was going to die. My heart was failing. I still have heart trouble. If I do not take my medication, I get very sick and it is back to the hospital for me. I can not have caffine or eat sugary foods. I can not exercise without the worry of stressing my heart too much. I am happy to say that treatment saved my life. I have not gone back to my disordered ways since. I still have some mental struggles time to time but I do not desire to starve myself.
I am sorry to tell you that anorexia has no exceptions. You cannot go to a party without stressing over the food. I found it difficult just to eat by myself but to eat around people?!?! was very hard.
Katie, I hope my words make youthink about what you are doing to your body. If I could tell you one thing. It would be that it is not worth it. I am 19 years old and can not live a normal life because of what anorexia did to my body. I look back eight years and all I see is anorexia. I don't remember anything else. I don't remember conversations with my friends, I don't remember what I learned in school... I remember starving. Katie, it is not worth it. You are beautiful no matter what. You are stronger than this monster. I hope the best for you.
