Messages By: austingirl

 My ex   was 26 when we started seeing each other . He was controling , we had sex within 2 weeks . I didnt want it . I was 18 1/2 .His family and friends loved me . As time went on he started drinking about every day . we were never vilent twards each other . He cheated on me in feb 2004 , with a married friend of mine  23 .(we are no longer friends) It hurt  really bad . I chose to stay with him , although it took  me a month to look at him  in the face .I had heard roamars at work what he told people we wernt together . in may this year  he and  a friend came over , procied to call my friends and ask them questions . We were drinking , looking at porn ,called an old friend of  his ,never said anything about me . I taped him on the leg  and said ,"get the f  out of my house now " !!!! after  that we got in to a phisical fight . I thought at one point he loved me .
Its been  4 months later after the e-mail i got from him . he called only to see if i hed left Htown . He also got married a month and a week after the e-mail , and got a real job . he haddent had a job for 6 months . I moved to Austin on may 29 , and have been much  happyer now .
I would never be in that kinda relationship again . And never want to see him again .

 I had an eating disorter for  3 years . My senor year  in the middle i wighed 96ponds . My Dr.s were worried . I was not able to keep my food down , I hid it from my grandamother . when i moved in here house in  march . I went through three jobs  durring  thoughs years . My eating disorter got in the way . Sometimes the smell of food made me sick . I worker at a  hibbatchie/sushi resturant , if i got nervus  i would go throug up . It was a little more than a dally acorance .
 when  i moved on to a new job ,it was getting worse including when i was trying to snack  . As time  went on , I passed out  in the bathroom .
4 months after that when i worked with a shoe place . After i would go eat  in the mall and within 15min i would have to throug up .I weghed 95pounds, 19 at the time . It got in the way of my job . It was now more than everyday accorance  two to three times a day . Passing out , forgetting where i was , it got scary .
Its been  7 months after i got fired from the job , it no longer happens im now 110pounds .
My dr.s told me it was stress related . I im now carful what i eat , when i eat . Im scard it will come back and this time go to the hospitel .

 Ok, look I'm a size 24A .And i'm 20 . I'm a topless dancer , I'm happy with it !! Why would i want to runen my body gave me cuz the men  around me ; are so superfishal !!!! Honestly , I think I'm a pretty woman . I been dancing a year , now havent changed my mind . Brest arent going to rune my relationship , if i cheat or lie . Not something like that . I dont know one person thats really happy with thier bodys . I dont like the fact I'm 5ft2in , would like to be able to model and walk down a runway . What I do is I'm a writer and would love to get my book publshed !!! Nothing to do  with my body . I would love to work a regualer job again !!!! In an office doing paper work !
My thing if you dont like me , Oh well cuz ; i like me and your openan doesnt matter , ill still be able to sleep tonight . And it wont be about my Brest.

 Hey , I would love to email you . I did not however see it on your profile . here is mine Wendieann1064@yahoo.com . Let me know what your going through . Its been under a year sence i throug up . I'm happy , but scared . Its still an emotainal strugly with thinking i ganing a few pounds , like 4 . sometimes I dont want to eat  cuz  ,i want to stay thin (not healthy ) . Please message me .

 Wow, to me it seems to me that she was somewhat sorry for what she did . Hit and run , and then lieing about what happend seems adveouse , of what she did . She murdered the 18year old !!! Personaly im supprised she didnt get more than 12 years !!!That also must be so hard for both familys .

 No, keep it that way till your ready , mature and  ready and know about what you need to know to protect  yourself .

 I guess no one cares about me

 I do remember WHY I watched the show !!!!! I"M not StUpID , and your coment by the way isnt the nicest !