Messages By: arkansas13

I know that I have done everything possible to NOT be gay, I have prayed, cried myself to sleep, begged God to change me, stayed away from anything gay, and worked very hard to make relationships with women work. I knew that I was not being fair to the women that I dated or fair to myself for denying my true orientation. I was saved in a Baptist church, where I announced my faith in God. I know that God loves me and forgives me of my sins, however God made me this way and God does NOT make mistakes. 

I know what the Bible says, however I can only interpret what I believe to be true about the Bible. 

We all know that man changes, alters, disregards, annihilates what he chooses. We know that in our history man has changed laws and religion to FIT his purpose. There were kings that had their wives beheaded because they wanted a divorce and the church would not allow it. There were kings that changed laws and religious views to fit their needs. 

I am not saying that the Bible is wrong, what I am saying is that the odds are that man has manipulated the Bible over the centuries and that the translations of Holy scripture has been changed to be "the best interpretation" of what the writer/translator understood. 

I know that when I die and stand before God for judgment that He will not ask me why was I homosexual and why did I live my life as a homosexual. God will have no reason to ask this question because He knows that He made me who I am and that I had NO choice in the matter of my sexual orientation. 

I live a good, honest, faithful, happy life and I know that God loves me for who I am because He made me who I am. 

For all the so called Christians out there that hate homosexuals, protest and fight against homosexual rights and gay marriage, what are you so afraid of. If you were truly a Christian then you would love me because God loves me and not fight against me. 

I have no desire what so ever to get married to a same sex partner, why would I? The straight community can't get it right just look at the divorce rate in this country? I do believe that my partner and myself should have the same benefits as straight couples, we are Americans after all. Why are the so called Christians and others so against gay rights? Are you jealous? I really think that in most cases where people argue against gay rights, the person has so little joy, fulfillment in their lives that they just have to stick their noses in other peoples business. 

I really hate it when people say, "I don't have a problem with gays as long as they don't try to bring me into their world or hit on me". Please, we are not stupid, horny for everything, crazed savages that try to jump everybody we see. We do have taste and we can usually tell when someone is gay. 99% of the guys that say this would not be hit on by a blind and deaf gay man, so don't worry you are truly safe from our advances. Now go out and buy that porn magazine and go home and tell yourself that you are ONLY looking at the women in the magazine and you didn't even know there were men in it. Wow talk about tunnel vision. 

If you are truly Christian, Jewish, or other religion, it IS your duty to LOVE EVERYONE, not just the people you choose to love. 

Well I guess I have preached enough and I know that not a single word that I have said will matter to anyone. 

However I did say what was on my mind and that is what matters the most. 

I know that the last few paragraphs of this message will get the attention of some that will make the message in first paragraphs pointless, however I am saying what is on my mind. 

I have accepted who I am and that part of who I am is a homosexual male. 

It also says love your fellow man. 

You must really have a lot of hate for your fellow man, since you turn away from all sinners. 

Examples: 

1. Your wife (if your male or a friend if you are female) ask "Does this dress make me look fat?"   You reply "no, you look great".   This is a lie and lying is a sin.
2. A friend ask a question and you don't want to tell them entire truth so you lie.  Another Sin.
3. You over eat.  Another Sin, to over eat is to harm the temple of God which is your body.
4. You tell your mate what they want to hear, that the present they bought you, the sex you had with them, that they did not hurt your feelings - Another lie, Another Sin.
5. You do one thing but tell your children to do something else, smoke, curse, cheat, steal, gossip, shun someone, hate, criticize, etc.  Another lie - Another SIn.
6. You don't tell the waiter, cashier, teller, etc. that the service was not what you expected/wanted.  Another lie - another Sin.
7. You steal from a business, you take an extra peppermint from the free basket at a store, hotel, etc.  You say it was only one extra peppermint but the management placed them their on an honor basis for people to take ONLY one.   You Steal - Another Sin.
8. You come back from lunch 10 minutes late but your boss isn't around so you report that you were on time.  You Steal - Another Sin.

I could name thousands, however I know that not a single thing I say is going to change your mind. 

Sin is Sin, it doesn't matter how big or how small, or does it? 

Do you believe God will punish a person for the sin of telling their wife or friend that they look great in an outfit when they really don't just as He would if they murdered, rape, tortured someone? 

If you believe this then I DO NOT want to know YOUR God.  

My God loves me with all of my faults and sins and He  knows that He made me gay and that I did NOT choose it. 

God Bless you, I believe you need all the blessings you can get since you don't have any friends or family.  I say this because in your own words you have turned away from every human on this Earth that you have ever met. 

You must be a sad and lonely person.