Messages By: jeannie454

Hi Jeannie, My name is Kim I too lost my mom a couple of months ago.  My mom was diabetic for 23 years,she had Kidney failure for 7 years andwas on dialysis for 7 years. she had hypertension. but saying all that to say this With all her ilness  if you met her you would never think that she was sick.She had a good heart and I can understand why god called on to her because she was trully an angel on earth.  I think about her everyday and yes i still cant understand why she is gone. The night before her death my father a just been released from the hospital cause of his hypertension. And my mother was so worried about my fater , thinking that maybe his doctor shouldnt have released him yet because he had seem to be still sick when he got home.  Me my mom my father my 2 sisters and my brother were all togather laughing and joking.  We were laughing so hard that we all were in tears. We were up till lil after midnight .  The next morning my mom and father left for dialysis in different cabs headed to diferent dialysis centers(like usually) I never saw my parents leave but i heard them take off aroudn 4:45a.m. to arrive a dilysis at 5:00a.m. the rest of the house did there usual morning routine either headed to work or to school. at 9:37a.m. i recieved the most devistating call " to get to the hospital asap something is wrong with my mom" Immediatley leaving class i went to the hospital and was tooken to the confirmation room to hear of my mothers death(Cardiac arrest).  Seeing my mom laying ther lifeless with breathing tubes in her mouth I instantly was angry with god.  But now kind of being in the right state of mind I thank God for that one last night with my mother because it was him that put all of us togather that one last night .  Be thankful for your last day with your mom having a cup of tea.  I now understand the saying"here today ;gone tomorrow" I too lost not just a mother but an bestfriend also.  I shared everything with my mother and was very close to my mom.  I no longer have her here physically but i have her here in spirit.  Since her death i sort of excluded others out of my life.  I sometimes wish i was with my mom but like you i have an husband and two precious lil girs to care for.  I know it hurt and it probably is going to hurt for a long time.  So coming from some body who lost there mom exactly two months ago like you , try hard to stay strong and seek god when find yourself on the edge and ready to jump ask the lord for the strength to go on with your life.  kimmie1