Hi friends,
I am new to the message board so bare with me. I lost a baby at 14 weeks 2 years ago. It was my second pregnancy although, my husband and I were alittle hesitate because I had post-partum pretty bad the first time and never really knew it until my daughter was about 3 years old. I was on medication for about 8 month but went off of it so I could get pregnant . Within 4 months, we were pregnant and things started to go down hill from there. Phsycially, my body went into a tail spin and my whole nervous system went out of whack. By the eleventh week, I had to be admitted into the hospital in the (Psychiatric) unit. My body was doing things that were completely out of my control. I hadn't slept for 8 weeks and my body could not quick shaking. I had to be in constant movement and then the uncontrollable vomitting started. If I had to give what I was going through a name, I probably would have said, I had a nervous breakdown. I was in the hospital for 3 weeks and taking medications. I wasn't getting any better and my husband and I had to make the decision to terminate the pregnancy. I was sooo sick and at the time it seemed like the only thing to do. To this day, there isn't a moment that goes by that I don't think about "what could have been" and wonder if it was a boy or a girl. In some ways, I wish I would have had a miscarriage so I wouldn't have had to make a decision like that. It was such a frightening experience and we realized that I had to get well for my daughter who was at home waiting for me. I have been on medication for 2 years and doing fine but there is apart of me that died along with my baby.
