Messages By: ems1102

Hi,   

After at least 4 years of battles with ups and downs with depression, I've been diagnosed with Bipolar... Not sure how I feel about it. But I'm glad I now have a name to put to this hell that I've been going through. What I wonder most at this point is how the heck am I suppose to deal with 32 years of pain and old wounds due to things that were said to me throught the years? things that were in relations with my behaviors... as far back as I can remember I've had negative reinforcement... I'm smart enough to know the difference now and understand it... but still.  This whole "internal dialog" that we hear Dr. Phil say... it's easier said than done... 

I'm sure that I'm not the only one going through this, so I hope that we can all support each other though this. 

Simply knowing that I'm not alone and that what lies ahead is a road that's been traveled by others actually soothes the anxiouness a little bit. 

I want to thank Dr Phil for putting this site up and this board, because here in Québec, Canada... you're on your own and there is little if no support at all for this disorder that affects so many people. 

Again, 

thank you 

Nat 

Hi Ellie, 

first, let me say how sorry I am for your loss and my heart goes to you and your family for the tragedy that has hit your lives. I understant that I'm lucky because I was able to get diagnosed and will eventully get all the help I can get. 

Unfortunately, not all are so lucky. I feel extremely blessed and wonder why am I so lucky to be taken under safe wings of understanding. I can accept and I WILL COPE. What keep's me going at this point is TAKING CONTROL of the life I thought I had and now I KNOW I CAN HAVE. 

I also know that families who are affected by this disease suffer just as much, if not more, than the person living with it. 

I embrasse your courage and find faith the love can endure many things... 25years, God bless your sould and your children are extremely lucky to have a mother as strong, devoted and beautiful as you. You are gifts to youselves. 

Thank you for taking the time to write to me and share your pain. It's easy to forget how others have pain too. 

Warm regards... and PS:  I STILL HAVE SOME FIGHT IN ME!!!!! 

Nat 

I have to admit that even though I knew  I could not be the only going though this, just having other stories that resemble mine... it's very comforting.  I was lucky enough to be asked to go on the show... the footage shown on TV was a footage that I hadn't seen before until the taping. My reaction to seeing "her" for the first time out of my head, well, that in itself was... bizarre yet it gave me a relief. 

I will keep posting here as I go through the steps that Dr Phil has so kindly offered to provide for me and I will let you know what comes out from all this. Maybe my experience will be help others.  I hope it does. 

There is help for us and I'm sure there is a way to control this... we just have to hang on. 

ems 

Hi all.  

Yes you are correct. I'm the one one the second part of the show. Thank you for the support. I'm still strigling with th enightmare. Still trying to beat it at this point.  I'll keep you posted. 

Ems1102 

Hi there, 

thank you for your kind words. 

I've been seeb by Dr. Lawlis and waiting for the results to come back. I AM NOT POSSESSED, just something in my past that is not resolved... I assume. 

I will keep you posted as to how I am doing. As for now, I'm still strugling with "her" and trying to keep my awake life normal. 

Regards, 

EMS1102