Messages By: kharma

Quote From: landey

Hey all. I went through over 5 years of fertility treatment. My first appointment to a fertility clinic was the most horrific and embarassing experience in my life. The first exam was the worst. The doctor hoisted me up in a huge chair. Lifted my legs out of the stirups and over the top of my head. I think he was trying to find my tonsils via my vagina. After the exam, while still undressed from the waist down, and in the presence of 2 student doctors, he asked me what he could do for me. In a total state of stun I snapped back "uhhhhhhhhh could ya upsize my fries???" According to the doctor we had less than 2 percent chance of having a baby naturally. I did artificial insemination and IVF nothing worked. I did rounds of clomid (it just made me cranky).  We even looked into sperm donation etc. I have thyroid disease and my husband's 'boys' need 'help' swimming.  IVF 'worked' . I ended up pregnant with 4 but lost them all. During our last round of IVF I ended up producing 21 eggs and finding myself in a state called hyper stim. I was put into the hospital and was treated for blood clots and nearly had to get my ovaries removed. Needless to say after that...the highs and the lows we called it quits. I don't think I have ever felt so low and alone and useless in my life. I didn't seek help and I probably should have. The month after we called it 'quits' I got pregnant on my own. I was so clueless and in denial that I could possibly be pregnant that I didn't go to a doctor for over 3 months. I didn't feel sick, only tired. The day I found out that I was pregnant, I puked on the way home and had horrible attacks of morning sickness that lasted all day long. However, through the puking I was happy to be pregnant. 18 months later I got pregnant again - totally by surprise. It truly baffled the doctors, who still tell me that if I want any more I have to go through IVF. We have been trying now for over a year. I miscarried over the summer. I visited my fertility doctor again (who by the way offered to get me some fries) and asked for more fertility drugs. I am now on clomid again and we have high hopes of a baby in the future.