Messages By: shadesofblue1

I have been dealing with anxiety mixing with attention defesit disorder and it makes my brain puzzled and makes me frustraighted. So maybee your brother in law was very puzzled and frustraighted inside. I think alot of times suicides feal trapped and that there is no escape. I believe sister should understand that it was not her fault and that God knows what was wrong with him and that he made a mistake i believe God will forgive him and i think she should find the strength to forgive him. Your brief storey helped me out because i have been thinking about commiting suicide but i always have to keep in mind when you end your own life it affects everyone around you and that keeps me from ever following through. If she wants to know why she should talk to other people who have had a suicide in there family. I know several and if she wants some advice from them i'll have the write something in the message board.

I have been dealing with anxiety mixing with attention defesit disorder and it makes my brain puzzled and makes me frustraighted. So maybee your brother in law was very puzzled and frustraighted inside. I think alot of times suicides feal trapped and that there is no escape. I believe sister should understand that it was not her fault and that God knows what was wrong with him and that he made a mistake i believe God will forgive him and i think she should find the strength to forgive him. Your brief storey helped me out because i have been thinking about commiting suicide but i always have to keep in mind when you end your own life it affects everyone around you and that keeps me from ever following through. If she wants to know why she should talk to other people who have had a suicide in there family. I know several and if she wants some advice from them i'll have the write something in the message board.

Nearly everyone in my life wonders about me because of the simple fact that i am a virgin. I want to start my sex life but being a virgin i saw alot of peoples insecure colors. Is our culture focussing on age to much? Is 22 to old to be a virgin? I admit that i have been on the sidelines because of insecurities of my own but i am ready to start a new life and date really nice girls. Like i was saying about true colors i've been harrased and bulled for being a virgin. People always label me as a faggit , virgin , loser and what ever else those words hurt real bad but i know they are not true. I find myself worrying about my age now and thinking i'll never have sex but that is not true.

i would like to hear about peoples experiance with financial aid and sudent loans. Who has taken a loan out for a private school? or who got financial aid for a private school?

I am near the point of emotionally breaking down. I am just like a sponge absorbing all this pain and nothing squeezes out. I have felt very hopeless to the point where i would lay in the woods just waiting to starve to death while yelling at God. I know alot is my fault but my mistakes are routed from issues that are not my fault. I need help but my job and ambition crumbles shortley and then there is no help. i look at what i want out of life and it is being stolen because i don't have a way to grow and deal with my problems. i feel like just walking until i vanish this life because i'm just a bother for my family and it seems like i'm becoming a ghost any way. My suicide is half hearted but i know if i don't find help i won't become the man i want to be and i may get worse and end up hopeless then desperate on the street and eventually dead.