As the year starts I thought my life would be better. I thought the depression would stop but it has not. I am a 48 year old female who watches life pass her by. I feel like the scum of the earth and the thing that you scrape of the bottom of your shoes. I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel anytime soon. the other problem I have is that i am also 150 lbs over weight. I know my weight is due to my depression but one minute I am happy and the next depressed. I also feel like i am meant to be alone all my life. I have not friends.