Messages By: bluefish

hi dan, just read your post and you should be applauded for the way you have turned out, the choices you made and the selfless attitude! Your mother was/is a selfish selfish person and people like that should never have kids, but then you wouldnt be where you are then would you! You definately need some sort of counselling to cleanse you from all the childhood experiences you had...and i hope Dr Phil can help you with what you need or perhaps you can find someone more local to you. i hope one day you can find that special person to get close to and hopefully have a family of your own to love, cherish and nurture and give to them what you so craved as a child. i dont know if your mother is alive or not, but remember 'what goes around, comes around'. ive seen it myself with my own father...a bully, abusive to his kids and both wives, now 68, on his own, feeling sorry for himself now that his soon to be ex wife called it quits, is trying to be a nicer person! i feel sorry for him at times but i keep remembering that he brought it on himself with his sometimes revolting behaviour and then the sympathy dries up! keep positive, have fun, smile alot and write it all down..thate therapy in itself! good luck!